Safe House | Bodyguard!tom x Princess!reader [part V]
A/N: Hi, It’s me. I know this took like a year and im sorry for that but here is finally another part! I want to finish this series because I do love it, life just got so crazy and I wasn't feeling creative at all but im trying to be active again so please forgive my year long break I took. Also in this part princess has what seems to be a panic attack, I didn’t label it as that in the story because the label felt weird to put because everyones experiences are different. I just used my personal experience with panic attacks so It is not mean to offend anyone! I hope you enjoy it.
Word Count: 1.5K
Warnings: Mention of death, panic attack, a lot of crying
“Emergency broadcast. With heavy hearts we are sad to announce the King is dead.”
Tom stills as his head snaps towards the radio. Your body goes frozen, your head stays tucked into his neck.
“Princess…” Tom whispers as his grip on you slightly loosens, moving his shoulder carefully trying to reveal your face to him.
You feel one of his hands move from your waist to your head, “Princess, please look at me.” His voice comes out a little strained.
His other hand also comes up to your head, cupping both your cheeks in his hands, he lifts your head so he can see your face. Your eyes are welling up with tears as they are glued to Tom’s chest, throat burning as you fight against the sobs threatening to come out.
“He’s dead.” You whisper. If Tom wasn’t as close as he was he wouldn’t have heard it.
You whisper again, “He’s gone.”
“Hey.” Tom says, “look at me, yeah?” You lift your eyes up to meet his glossy ones, “Everything is going to be alright, okay? I promise.”
You try to listen to his words, but the world around you feels as if it’s closing in, suffocating you. Your vision starts to blur as your hands grip tightly on Tom’s shoulders. You feel your body start to tremble, legs beginning to buckle beneath you, you tighten your grip on Tom’s shoulders trying to steady yourself.
Tom’s eyes go wide, he knows you well enough to know what’s happening, knows the only other time your body reacted like this. He is having painful flashbacks to the months after your mother had passed. You would try not to cry, you didn't want to make your father more sad, you always wanted to be strong for him as you were all he had left. Anytime anyone asked you if you were okay, you would say yes. You would just bottle up your feelings until they spilled out at night, while you would be hiding underneath the privacy of your blankets.
****
Your ears perk up as your bedroom door creaks open and then closes. Little footsteps approach the bed, you feel the bed shift as someone climbs onto it. The blanket is carefully lifted off of your head, and you are met with two concerned little brown eyes looking back at you.
You lift your hand to try to wipe your tears, to hide them, but a hand lightly wrapping around your wrist stops you.
“Tommy…” you whimper, more tears slipping out.
“It’s okay to be sad.” He just said simply.
You just nod your head as he moves closer, shuffling under your blanket to get closer to you, he hugs you close to him.
“She’s gone.” You whisper into his chest.
He just nods, letting you cry as hard as you want, for as long as you want into his chest with his arms around you.
****
Your body is getting overwhelmed with grief and pain. You are trying to fight it, he can see it in your eyes, you are trying to be strong. You are always trying to be strong.
“Tommy….” You say, voice strained.
“Hey hey hey. I’m here, I’m right here. ” Tom’s grip on your face tightens slightly, not enough to hurt but enough to try and ground you, “It’s okay to cry, it’s okay to feel.”
“I’m fine.” You say shakily, nodding your head, “I’m fine.”
He shakes his head, “You aren’t fine, princess.”
“Yes I am.” You say a little louder, voice cracking “I’m fine.” You say trying to convince yourself more than him.
“No princess, you're not.” Tom says as he wraps his arms around you, tucking you into his chest firmly “It’s ok to not be ok. It’s ok to be upset.” You say nothing but he feels you nod, “Crying doesn’t make you weak, It’s not shameful to let others see you feel.”
He feels your body shudder, little sobs starting to come out of your mouth. He pulled back a little to scoop you up into his arms bridal style and walk you over to the couch. He settles you into his lap and guides your head into the crook of his neck. One hand rubbing your back and one smoothing your hair as you shift to snuggle deeper into his warmth, letting yourself cry.
“That’s it.” He praises “It’s ok princess, let it out…” tears falling from his eyes as he’s listening to you cry, “I am so sorry.”
He starts to feel you tremble against him, your breathing gets more erratic, he wraps both arms around you now, holding tightly to put a comforting amount of pressure on your body, “You have to breathe, princess. Breathe.”
Your breathing is still erratic, blood pumping in your ears as you try to settle yourself down, but you can't.
“Lay your head on my chest.” Tom orders softly.
You don’t move, just grip onto his shirt tighter.
“y/n.” He says sternly, making your head immediately lift up to look at him.
His eyes soften, as does his tone, “Lay your head on my chest, princess.”
You adjust in his lap, scooting down to be able to lay your head on his firm chest, you can feel it rising and falling under you.
He puts his hand once again in your hair, his other arm around your body. His cheek resting on top of your head,“Mirror my breathing, it will help.”
You nod, closing your eyes, trying to focus on his breathing and matching it to yours.
You don’t know how much time has passed. You can feel your body finally start to calm down, breath becoming more even as it starts to mirror Tom’s.
Your eyes feel bloodshot as you finally open them, noticing the moonlight coming through the windows. You shift in Tom’s arms, letting go of his shirt and putting your arms around him instead.
“I’m alone now.” You say in a horse whisper, sniffling.
Tom sits you both up more upright, leaning away enough so you can see him, “You aren’t alone.”
“Both of my parents are gone…”
“What about me, princess? I’m here too, aren’t I?” He says comfortingly.
You say nothing, just look down playing with the fabric of his shirt.
“Hey.” Tom grabs your attention, grabbing your hand and pulling it off his shirt, taking away your distraction “look at me.” You lift your eyes to his, “I am right here, always right here. You never have to go through anything alone. Understand?”
You just simply nod.
He gives you a small smile “As long as I’m around you’ll never be alone, I promise. We will figure everything out. We are also family right?”
You nod again, “Yes.”
He smiles again, bringing his hands up to brush your hair off your face, cupping your cheeks “See? Never alone, princess. Never. I won't allow it.”
You stare at him, feeling the heat radiate off his hands onto your face as he holds you. You get lost in his brown eyes that are looking at you like you are the most important thing in the universe and it makes your heart skip.
He drops his hands from your face, choosing to rest them on your waist as he gives you a comforting squeeze, trying to read your mind in the silence.
You can’t keep your eyes from traveling to his lips, foreign feelings bubbling up to the surface. Without thinking you move your body so you are straddling his hips on the couch, hands resting on his shoulders as his eyes are wide with shock.
For the first time Tom is speechless, he usually knows exactly what to do and what to say with you, but right now he’s in uncharted territory.
You slowly lean down, enough where you can feel his breathing fanning your face, noses barely touching as his grip on you tightenes.
You linger for a second, taking in the intoxicating feeling of having him so close to you, before you lean in to connect your lips with his…
“Princess…” he whispers, stopping you, “We can’t…”
You lean back, tears welling back up in your eyes from embarrassment and his eyes widen, he quickly sits up even more, wrapping his arms around your back to keep you from falling backwards, “No, No don’t cry. That isn’t what I meant.” He takes a breath, reaching one hand to cradle your face in his hand “I want to. Please understand me when I say that.”
You go to move off of him but he stops you, turning your face back to him, “Just not like this. You are very vulnerable right now, princess. It’s not right.”
“I’m fine.” You state, sniffling.
He sighs, “I want nothing more than to kiss you, more than you could understand…” he leans in a little, eyes glancing down to your lips then back to your eyes, “Tomorrow.” Which causes you to slightly pout, making him let out a breathy chuckle, “If you still want to kiss me tomorrow, I’m all yours.” He leans in just a little closer “How’s that, princess?”
You again pout, face now incredibly hot.
He chuckles softly, “Spoiled, princess. What am I going to do with you?”
You shove your face into his chest, “Thank you, Tommy.” You say timidly after a minute, “For everything.”
“Of course...” He smiles, “You should get some rest.”
He feels you nod, “Okay…”
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Safe House | Bodyguard!tom x Princess!reader [part V]
A/N: Hi, It’s me. I know this took like a year and im sorry for that but here is finally another part! I want to finish this series because I do love it, life just got so crazy and I wasn’t feeling creative at all but im trying to be active again so please forgive my year long break I took. Also in this part princess has what seems to be a panic attack, I didn’t label it as that in the story because the label felt weird to put because everyones experiences are different. I just used my personal experience with panic attacks so It is not mean to offend anyone! I hope you enjoy it.
Word Count: 1.5K
Warnings: Mention of death, panic attack, a lot of crying
“Emergency broadcast. With heavy hearts we are sad to announce the King is dead.”
Tom stills as his head snaps towards the radio. Your body goes frozen, your head stays tucked into his neck.
“Princess…” Tom whispers as his grip on you slightly loosens, moving his shoulder carefully trying to reveal your face to him.
You feel one of his hands move from your waist to your head, “Princess, please look at me.” His voice comes out a little strained.
His other hand also comes up to your head, cupping both your cheeks in his hands, he lifts your head so he can see your face. Your eyes are welling up with tears as they are glued to Tom’s chest, throat burning as you fight against the sobs threatening to come out.
“He’s dead.” You whisper. If Tom wasn’t as close as he was he wouldn’t have heard it.
Safe House | Bodyguard!tom x Princess!reader [part V]
A/N: Hi, It’s me. I know this took like a year and im sorry for that but here is finally another part! I want to finish this series because I do love it, life just got so crazy and I wasn’t feeling creative at all but im trying to be active again so please forgive my year long break I took. Also in this part princess has what seems to be a panic attack, I didn’t label it as that in the story because the label felt weird to put because everyones experiences are different. I just used my personal experience with panic attacks so It is not mean to offend anyone! I hope you enjoy it.
Word Count: 1.5K
Warnings: Mention of death, panic attack, a lot of crying
“Emergency broadcast. With heavy hearts we are sad to announce the King is dead.”
Tom stills as his head snaps towards the radio. Your body goes frozen, your head stays tucked into his neck.
“Princess…” Tom whispers as his grip on you slightly loosens, moving his shoulder carefully trying to reveal your face to him.
You feel one of his hands move from your waist to your head, “Princess, please look at me.” His voice comes out a little strained.
His other hand also comes up to your head, cupping both your cheeks in his hands, he lifts your head so he can see your face. Your eyes are welling up with tears as they are glued to Tom’s chest, throat burning as you fight against the sobs threatening to come out.
“He’s dead.” You whisper. If Tom wasn’t as close as he was he wouldn’t have heard it.
Safe House | Bodyguard!tom x Princess!reader [part V]
A/N: Hi, It’s me. I know this took like a year and im sorry for that but here is finally another part! I want to finish this series because I do love it, life just got so crazy and I wasn’t feeling creative at all but im trying to be active again so please forgive my year long break I took. Also in this part princess has what seems to be a panic attack, I didn’t label it as that in the story because the label felt weird to put because everyones experiences are different. I just used my personal experience with panic attacks so It is not mean to offend anyone! I hope you enjoy it.
Word Count: 1.5K
Warnings: Mention of death, panic attack, a lot of crying
“Emergency broadcast. With heavy hearts we are sad to announce the King is dead.”
Tom stills as his head snaps towards the radio. Your body goes frozen, your head stays tucked into his neck.
“Princess…” Tom whispers as his grip on you slightly loosens, moving his shoulder carefully trying to reveal your face to him.
You feel one of his hands move from your waist to your head, “Princess, please look at me.” His voice comes out a little strained.
His other hand also comes up to your head, cupping both your cheeks in his hands, he lifts your head so he can see your face. Your eyes are welling up with tears as they are glued to Tom’s chest, throat burning as you fight against the sobs threatening to come out.
“He’s dead.” You whisper. If Tom wasn’t as close as he was he wouldn’t have heard it.
Safe House | Bodyguard!tom x Princess!reader [part V]
A/N: Hi, It’s me. I know this took like a year and im sorry for that but here is finally another part! I want to finish this series because I do love it, life just got so crazy and I wasn’t feeling creative at all but im trying to be active again so please forgive my year long break I took. Also in this part princess has what seems to be a panic attack, I didn’t label it as that in the story because the label felt weird to put because everyones experiences are different. I just used my personal experience with panic attacks so It is not mean to offend anyone! I hope you enjoy it.
Word Count: 1.5K
Warnings: Mention of death, panic attack, a lot of crying
“Emergency broadcast. With heavy hearts we are sad to announce the King is dead.”
Tom stills as his head snaps towards the radio. Your body goes frozen, your head stays tucked into his neck.
“Princess…” Tom whispers as his grip on you slightly loosens, moving his shoulder carefully trying to reveal your face to him.
You feel one of his hands move from your waist to your head, “Princess, please look at me.” His voice comes out a little strained.
His other hand also comes up to your head, cupping both your cheeks in his hands, he lifts your head so he can see your face. Your eyes are welling up with tears as they are glued to Tom’s chest, throat burning as you fight against the sobs threatening to come out.
“He’s dead.” You whisper. If Tom wasn’t as close as he was he wouldn’t have heard it.
Safe House | Bodyguard!tom x Princess!reader [part V]
A/N: Hi, It’s me. I know this took like a year and im sorry for that but here is finally another part! I want to finish this series because I do love it, life just got so crazy and I wasn’t feeling creative at all but im trying to be active again so please forgive my year long break I took. Also in this part princess has what seems to be a panic attack, I didn’t label it as that in the story because the label felt weird to put because everyones experiences are different. I just used my personal experience with panic attacks so It is not mean to offend anyone! I hope you enjoy it.
Word Count: 1.5K
Warnings: Mention of death, panic attack, a lot of crying
“Emergency broadcast. With heavy hearts we are sad to announce the King is dead.”
Tom stills as his head snaps towards the radio. Your body goes frozen, your head stays tucked into his neck.
“Princess…” Tom whispers as his grip on you slightly loosens, moving his shoulder carefully trying to reveal your face to him.
You feel one of his hands move from your waist to your head, “Princess, please look at me.” His voice comes out a little strained.
His other hand also comes up to your head, cupping both your cheeks in his hands, he lifts your head so he can see your face. Your eyes are welling up with tears as they are glued to Tom’s chest, throat burning as you fight against the sobs threatening to come out.
“He’s dead.” You whisper. If Tom wasn’t as close as he was he wouldn’t have heard it.
Safe House | Bodyguard!tom x Princess!reader [part V]
A/N: Hi, It’s me. I know this took like a year and im sorry for that but here is finally another part! I want to finish this series because I do love it, life just got so crazy and I wasn’t feeling creative at all but im trying to be active again so please forgive my year long break I took. Also in this part princess has what seems to be a panic attack, I didn’t label it as that in the story because the label felt weird to put because everyones experiences are different. I just used my personal experience with panic attacks so It is not mean to offend anyone! I hope you enjoy it.
Word Count: 1.5K
Warnings: Mention of death, panic attack, a lot of crying
“Emergency broadcast. With heavy hearts we are sad to announce the King is dead.”
Tom stills as his head snaps towards the radio. Your body goes frozen, your head stays tucked into his neck.
“Princess…” Tom whispers as his grip on you slightly loosens, moving his shoulder carefully trying to reveal your face to him.
You feel one of his hands move from your waist to your head, “Princess, please look at me.” His voice comes out a little strained.
His other hand also comes up to your head, cupping both your cheeks in his hands, he lifts your head so he can see your face. Your eyes are welling up with tears as they are glued to Tom’s chest, throat burning as you fight against the sobs threatening to come out.
“He’s dead.” You whisper. If Tom wasn’t as close as he was he wouldn’t have heard it.
life has been INSANE since late last year, and i've been on and off tumblr since then (though i've been mostly off 🥴). but i've had some breathing room and time to readjust, and i realized how much i missed writing and interacting with all you guys here. soooo i thought i'd do a little sleepover! 💖
🌼 send me your thirsty/fluffy thots!
🎬 give me a fake movie title and i'll write synopsis/blurb of your fave!
🌼 anything actress-related! thoughts, questions, blurbs req!
👯♂️ or simply catch up, tell me how you're doing, or say hi if you're new here!
im taking requests for the tgm crew mainly, but lmk if you're interested in others as well!
the sleepover will last til friday, 17 march 2023.
tagging my dear dear friends, who might be interested? @inklore @tommysparker @cocoamoonmalfoy @shipping-not-sailing @touchmethomas @mothdruid @gretagerwigsmuse @annathesillyfriend @callsignvalley @sersi-belovas @spideyspeaches @cumholland and absolutely anyone who wants to join!
Hello, I just wanted to post an update incase anyone cares since I did post that I have made another writing account and didn’t want anyone to be like “but you haven’t been writing or updating so why make another account?” I know it’s been months and months since I have written anything and that is honestly just due to writers block and lack of inspiration and going through a hard time mentally. But recently I am feeling like I’m coming back to life and am currently working on finishing my safe house series because I am determined to not have an unfinished series! Idk how many more parts there will be but it will be at least two. Im also super excited to start my journey on my other account. I’m sorry I have been gone, but I’m excited to be back and see if I can’t get my creative energy back🖤🤍
Favourite spider man movies scenes with Tom Holland??
Hi! I like the scene in homecoming when he’s undressing and stumbling in alley, cause that’s funny to me. I also really enjoy the scenes in far from home with all the messed up reality stuff it’s really cool to watch.
SPOILER WARNING IF YOU HAVEN’T SEEN NO WAY HOME
I love the entire scene when Aunt May dies. Even though it was absolutely devastating, it was so incredibly done.
