Life in pieces

You are where you're supposed to be.

[angellandicho]

I feel 6ft deep. I cannot function anymore, and my physical state is scattered everywhere.

I was only awake for 3 hours. Sleeping is my only escape.

I am at the end of the tunnel and I cannot see the light on the other end. I want to quit. My body is quitting. My mind is quitting. My heart is hopeless.

I have a good life. I have money. I can quit work.

But I feel like I'll feel more worthless if I do.

[angellandicho]

2011- Entry 6 (Take a step back)

Take a step back. Fucking look at yourself. You are human. You are beautiful. And you can be anything. You can be everything. Do not hate everyone because someone broke your heart, or your parents split up, or your bestfriend betrayed you, the kid down the street called you fat, ugly, worthless.

Do not concern yourself with things you cannot control. Cry when you need to then let go when it's time. Do not hang onto painful memories Just because you're afraid to forget.

Let go of things that are in the past. Live your life to its full potential. Just live, damn it. Let go of all the horrible things in your life and fucking live.

Forget things that aren't worth remembering. Stop taking things for granted. Live for yourself. Fall in love, fall out of love, fall in love, fall out of love. Do it over and over again until you know what it really is to love someone.

Question things, tell people how you really feel. Sleep under the stars, create. Imagine. Inspire. Make something wonderful.

Meet new people, make someone's day, follow your dreams.

And one day, you're old, look back with NO REGRETS.

[angellandicho]

2011- Entry 5

Life isn't just about broken promises, broken hearts and broken smiles.

It's all about happiness.

Don't just exist, live.

And to live is to be happy. Don't worry about how, it depends on you.

Your happiness depends on your own decision, your own choices, and your own words.

Don't refuse to be happy just because you're afraid it might end-- of course it will, for a while.

In all people, happiness is the rarest thing to find. Don't expect it to last forever.

Sometimes there are things that would break your smile and your laughter.

But never let anything break the smile in your heart, the laughter in your mind, your hope, your joy.

Just be happy. People may try to break you, but don't let them.

Live. Live your life.

9:27 AM | 10.14.11

[angellandicho]

2011- Entry 4

You know that feeling?

When you see life as a wonderful thing,

You accept things positively,

You look on the brightest sides of things,

You smile to people, you laugh hard, And you feel complete inside.

You feel contented with whoever you are, what ever you have, wherever you go.

You want to be a better person

You because you want someone to notice you. You want to be the best you, Because you wanted him to be proud and see your worth.

You want to bring out the best in you because you're inspired.

It feels so damn good.

12:55pm | 11.15.11

[angellandicho]

2011- Entry 3

Sabi nila, may mga bagay daw talaga na hindi na pwedeng ipaglaban, dahil talo ka na.

Pero paano mo ba malalamang talo ka na kung hindi ka lalaban?

Paano ka naman lalaban kung sa tingin mo'y talo ka na?

Isa lang ang alam ko. Mas madaling masaktan kesa magsisi habang buhay.

8:26 AM | 10.11.11

[angellandicho]

2011- Entry 2

Some things are just not meant to be.

Some people are just destined to go.

They came into your life to make you happy, to teach you a lesson, and in the end, leave you hanging.

People leave us, so we could learn how to let go.

Bad things happen, so we could learn how to accept things as they are.

Feelings fade, so we could learn how to enjoy things while they last.

[angellandicho]

2011- Entry 1

Don't be afraid to give your heart away.

Give until you've got something to give.

Love as long as you live.

Because you'll never be loved the way you always wanted to be loved.

You will always be loved in their own special ways.

[wnq-writers]

You never, ever, ever, get over some things. And time doesn’t heal them. You just learn to manage them. But they’re always there.

wordsbyt  (via wnq-writers)

[angellandicho]

You said you would jump into the darkness with me.
But you didn’t.
Instead you left me, when I was yet to take the fall with you. 
You pushed me into the nightmare of losing you.
I thought you were willing to jump into the darkness with me. 
But you left.
You brought the darkness to me.

[angellandicho]

***

She was too smart, too smart to go against what is, so she just let things happen as they happen. Too smart to resist temptation, so she just let it dig into her. She was too smart and too naive all at once.

[angellandicho]

That's the reason why we never worked out

Or rather why I never tried to work it out. We were friends. We knew almost everything about each other. I know your habits and you know mine too. I know when you're lying and you know when I am. So I was afraid to take the risk because I might hurt you, just as how I hurt the people who loved me. You know how I all let them down and betrayed them. But still you insisted. And yes, just a day after, I've hurt you, let you down, broke you. And now you're mad. I know you have the right to be mad but I still wished you were not as mad as you are right now. This is what I was afraid of, and now it's happening. You've drifted away, cutting all your communications with me. You stopped being a friend to me. This isn't the ending I wanted for us.

[angellandicho]

I wasn’t a failure.

But I admit, at some point, I have been a disappointment.

I have disappointed my friends, my family and mostly, myself. I disappointed everyone around me, and no, that doesn’t mean that I am a failure.

You see, if I was a failure I would not have been typing this nonsense shit in front of my laptop, nor doing anything at all. I may have been just laying around, trippin’ around, with no ambitions, no goals, no path to take. 

But here I am, standing back up again, giving my damn self a favor. Because I know well, failing doesn’t always mean being a failure. Bringing big disappointments to the ones I love most doesn’t mean I cannot regain myself and do things that’ll make them proud of me again. 

Anyone who doesn’t have their own life to deal with can brand me as a reckless, lost, rebellious, hard headed, good-for-nothing girl that always do what she wants. If that’s how you see me, then so be it. I’m gonna show it all to you until you get tired of thinking about me having so many ways of ruining my friggin’ future, my friggin’ life. Yes, you read that right. This is my friggin’ life and there’s nothing in hell that can give you a right nor the power to take control over it, not even your overly self-biased opinions. Yes I am inconsistent, but who cares? I had made bad and wrong decisions and not a single of those I regret. I am 19 and right now I am in the middle of  “staying in the mainstream” and “not getting too much adventure”. I am exploring things out of my comfort zone and I see nothing wrong with that.

I don’t gaf with people whose existence don’t matter to me and everyone can hate me for being the unapologetic freak that I am.

Thanksbye, back to being awesome.

[angellandicho]

My boyfriend’s busy checking snaps while I’m writing tumblr posts

So here I am taking a snap out of his shit-ass dumb habits

HASHTAG PAKYU WITH A HEART IF YOU EVER SEE THIS <3

[angellandicho]

✒️

You were my right love, wrong time, wrong place and wrong situation. You were my everything wrong ..but I loved you.

[angellandicho]

We always said our love will carry us together

But maybe this time love can’t save us anymore..

[angellandicho]

Don’t be too hard on yourself.

Sometimes it is okay to cry, to break down.

Tears fall on your eyes because you were hurt and being hurt means you are alive. Isn’t being alive a good thing? 

You have been strong the whole time. You never left, even if you had so many reasons to leave. 

You stayed through the worst times of your relationship and tried so hard to keep him happy and special.

You did all that, because you believed he was worth it. You believed the relationship was worth fighting for.

Because when you love, you trust, you believe...

And when you believe, you risk everything.. even yourself.

[angellandicho]

Courage

Forgiveness takes a lot of courage.

But forgiveness is the only way to defeat the weakness within your heart.

When you try to forgive and was able to, you learn to accept that things just don’t end up the way we always wanted them to. 

This acceptance makes us more adaptable to change, to pain and to everything that could happen along the way.

Don’t take it too hard on yourself...

Things will get better.

Just let them be.