buddie & “Are you awake?”
(This got away from me, and now it’s on ao3 as well.)
Eddie hums softly at the words whispered into the crook of his neck, as he soaks in the comforting, warm weight of Buck's body pressed against his back.
The quiet singing of the early birds can be heard from outside their bedroom window - just barely.
"Time's it?" He questions, keeping his voice the same level of a whisper as he preens, tilting his head back to give Buck more space to work as he goes on, leaving kisses onto his neck. They had started chaste; tender - though now each one is growing more heated than the last.
"Five thirty," Buck mumbles, right before Eddie feels his own lips part - an involuntary response to Buck fully attaching his to the space where Eddie's neck fades into his shoulder - barely low enough that his uniform will cover the inevitable mark.
"It's early." But Eddie's not complaining - Buck knows he's not complaining. He lets go of the hand that stays wrapped around his waist, instead carding his fingers through the soft curls on the back of Buck's head.
It's only been about six months since they finally got their shit together and realized that they were in love - that they had been in love for a long time, longer than either of them had really wanted to admit at first. A lot of things are new, but a lot of things are also not. The co-parenting thing is not new, neither is working together - or even living together, really. Just like being in love, living together is one of those things they had been doing long before realizing.
But this? This is new. Not just the kissing, or the sex - but... this. The calm. The serene. The birds outside of the window, and the early morning sunlight streaming in through the blinds - the way Eddie can feel it in every single touch, and every kiss - this is where he's meant to be. This is where they are meant to be. They're happy. They're safe. They made it.
Gently, Eddie elbows Buck away from him so that he can roll over onto his back, and bring him on top of him. Buck settles in between his legs, and Eddie holds onto both sides of his neck, finally welcoming his tongue into his mouth.
It goes on for a few minutes, both of them contentedly savouring the moment. The silence.
“Fuck me,” Eddie breathes then, against Buck’s lips, voice still quiet enough that it doesn’t break through the soft haze wrapped around them. Buck groans, and deepens the kiss, hands drifting from Eddie’s hair and shoulders, down to his legs, Buck’s long fingers expertly curling around his thighs, pushing them up and slightly further apart. So that he can get the perfect angle to roll his hips, their cocks sliding against each other; Eddie shudders at the contact, tipping his head back when Buck abandons his lips to instead bury his face in the crook of his neck. “Please,” Eddie says, any filter completely gone - in this relationship in general, but especially in this moment.
Eddie knows they have to get up before long - have to take their showers, brush their teeth, wake their son, make breakfast, get him to school - and that routine is the very reason why they usually don’t have sex on mornings like these - not all the way, at least.
But Buck had been inside of Eddie just last night, so it wouldn’t take a lot. And it was early - earlier than usual. No traffic, no neighbours chattering away outside - just the singing of the blackbirds, the soft crinkling of their covers, and Buck’s gentle sounds into his ear. They have time. And Eddie needs it.
“Please,” Eddie repeats, one hand on the small of Buck’s back, the other one twisting into his hair. “I want you to fuck me,” he says again, and Buck lifts his head, a sound between a groan and a whimper slipping through his lips as he leans their foreheads together.
Eddie knows - knows how much Buck likes it when he says those words - not just in bed. Any time Eddie says the words ‘I want’ followed by anything - it always elicits a good reaction from Buck. It’s taken Eddie a long time to get to a place where he can say those words - about anything - and not feel guilty about it.
The makeout session picks back up as one of Buck’s hands abandons Eddie’s thigh to reach for the lube.
“Condoms too,” Eddie reminds him, which pulls a small disappointed sound from Buck. Eddie mimics him softly, a slight mocking tilt to the noise. “We’re not washing the sheets in the middle of the week,” Eddie delivers a soft slap to Buck’s ass, which leads to a shared chuckle. It doesn’t break the moment - not at all, in fact; they still keep their voices down - hushed. As if they’re sharing secrets between them.
At one point in time, Eddie had been scared that their developing relationship would mean that they would lose this - this lightheartedness, the banter - the friendship. They hadn’t lost it at all - if anything, it was better. Sometimes Eddie still can’t believe it. He’s in love with his best friend, and he... gets to have him. Gets to have all of it.
Buck slicks up two fingers and pushes them in, as Eddie opens a condom and rolls it onto himself. As soon as it’s on, Buck bats his hand away; there’s a quip on the tip of Eddie’s tongue, but Buck swallows it, makes Eddie forget that he was even going to say anything at all.
“Enough,” Eddie mumbles, not even ten thrusts in. In another situation, Buck would shake his head - would mutter ‘...so impatient’ and take him apart on his fingers until they had to squeeze the base of Eddie’s cock together to stave off his orgasm. Now is not one of those times. Instead, Buck grabs the condom, ripping it open as Eddie reaches up, adjusting the covers so that it’s hanging over his shoulders, successfully enveloping them both, trapping their body heat as Buck settles back down in between Eddie’s legs and finally - finally - sinks into him.
“You can - uh,” Eddie’s thoughts are momentarily cut off by the feeling of Buck doing a slight grinding motion - probably unintentional, just making sure he’s all the way in - making sure he’s as deeply buried inside of Eddie as he possibly can be. “You can come in me on Friday.” It's meant to be a quip - a teasing comment about how disappointed Buck always is when Eddie insists on using condoms when they fuck - unless they’re fucking.
But as soon as the words are out of Eddie’s mouth, he realizes how much he wants it - how much he misses it. It’s been too long. They haven’t had the time or the privacy to fuck like that - to go for hours, to switch positions, to come in each other - they haven’t fucked each other senseless in nearly a month, and god - Eddie misses it.
"Yeah?” Buck questions, rolling his hips as he captures Eddie’s lips once again, one of his hands still keeping a sure grip on Eddie’s thigh, as the other one rests on the side of his neck. Gentle.
“Yeah,” Eddie grunts when the head of Buck’s cock brushes against his prostate. “Friday. You can come wherever you want,” he assures him, which grants him a filthy sound, dragged from somewhere deep in Buck’s chest, through his mouth and into the crook of Eddie’s neck.
“Me too,” Buck breathes - the words would sound out of context to anyone else, but Eddie knows exactly what he’s saying. ‘Me too. I want you to come in me too.’
“Trust me, I will,” Eddie promises, a slight chuckle to the words, which Buck shares. His movements stay slow, languid - as he lifts his head, continuing to roll into Eddie as he looks at him - they’re too close for it to be a comfortable position for Buck’s neck, so he pretty quickly gives up, and lets his forehead lay onto Eddie’s as they move together. “I love you,” Eddie breathes, wrapping his legs around Buck’s waist, knowing they’re both getting closer to the edge.
They say it a lot - they said it more when they first got together, but even now, they say it a lot - it’s as if they’re making up for all of those years of keeping it hidden, locked away.
“I love you so much,” Buck sighs, eyebrows furrowed in pleasure, a gentle grin on his face. They’re not kissing anymore - they can’t. They’re too close. All they can do is breathe into each other, soft grunts and moans panted into each other’s mouths. Buck wraps a hand around Eddie’s cock, and picks up the pace of his hips, just a little.
Eddie notices the exact moment that Buck decides to make Eddie come first. Notices the way his hand becomes more determined, the flick of his wrist more defined - notices the way he stops thrusting his hips, instead settling in, staying buried deep inside of him, merely grinding his hips, pushing the head of his cock against that one spot inside of Eddie, over and over again.
“Motherfu-” Eddie barely registers Buck’s free hand slamming across the bottom half of his face, keeping him quiet. Maybe his hips stutter, maybe his eyes roll to the back of his head, maybe he grunts Buck’s name into the palm of his hand - he’s not sure. All he knows is that his vision whites out, and pleasure makes its way through his veins like a lightning strike.
He comes back soon enough, feels the hand replaced by Buck’s mouth - feels Buck go back to rolling his hips, chasing his own high - they’ve talked about this. Buck knows that Eddie likes this, likes the overstimulation aspect. They both do.
“Come on,” Eddie whispers into his mouth, clutching his face in between his hands, now lucid enough that he can kiss him properly - although Buck can’t quite reciprocate right now. Finally, his hips stutter, and Eddie directs Buck’s face into the crook of his own neck to muffle the sounds that spill out of him as he comes.
They stay like that for a minute - longer than a minute - but then Buck rolls off of him, and they get rid of the condoms, tying them off and throwing them to the side before rolling back into each other’s arms. Eddie feels a series of soft kisses being pressed to the side of his neck, as he focuses on adjusting the covers around them. They need to get up soon. Not yet, though.
Eddie closes his eyes, and they stay like that for a while - legs tangled, hands gently sorting through each other’s hair.
“You serious about Friday?” Buck’s voice cuts through the warm, comfortable silence. Eddie hums in confirmation.
“I already asked Hen if she and Karen can take him. She said yes, it’s done,” Eddie informs him, not bothering to open his eyes. At least not until the warmth of Buck’s face disappears from the crook of his neck, and he can feel his eyes on him.
“Oh yeah,” Eddie nods confidently, before rolling them over, trapping Buck beneath him, carding his fingers through the short, untamed curls. “Just you,” Eddie presses a kiss to Buck’s left cheek. “and me,” then the right one.
“We gotta do something with him on Sunday, though - something really fun. We can’t just dump him at a sleepover so we can be alone and then not make it up to him,” Buck says thoughtfully, looking up at Eddie, a slight crease in between his eyebrows. “Oh! Maybe we can go see that new turtle exhibit at the aquarium, he’s been talking about that.”
Eddie swallows. God, he wants to marry this man.