They don't know what they're fighting for.

Playground battlefields are rife, with soldier toys, SHEDblr (?)

[angelvoicedsoldier]

Asher, they/them (we're a system but that's our collective name)

The main person who uses this blog is very likely a psychopath and/or sociopath.

TW for SH, ED, kleptomania, medication, suicidal ideation, SA (possibly), gender dysphoria, abuse, disassociation, basically just everything, TW for everything

i am also in yanblr under @/yourunnaturalobsessor

this account does not use trigger tags, interact with caution

BLOCK DONT REPORT PLEASE

stats below cut

Height: 5'1 - 5'3

Weight: 121.8

BMI: 23.0 - 21.6 (praying it's the lower end)

[liminal-garden-system]

*has done nothing wrong* "Gosh they probably hate me, im a horrible person.."

[angelvoicedsoldier]

I didn't even try to save them. Why didn't i try to save them. I just stood and watched while they fucking died. I knew what they were going through and I just. did nothing.

[angelvoicedsoldier]

Once a coward always a coward. Once oblivious always oblivious. Once selfish always selfish.

Always useless. Always.

I’ll never do anything worthwhile in my life.

At some point Jade’s gonna get tired of me.

And I’ll just deal with it.

Once jade leaves though that will be the end of my story indefinitely.

I couldn’t save Latte or Max or my dad or anyone Ashton cared about, so I don’t deserve to live since I clearly won’t be able to help anyone.

And that’s fine.

I’ll just wait for my life to come to its eventual stop.

Only a matter of time.

[quixoticnightmare]

does my deteriorating mental state turn you on

[angelvoicedsoldier]

“Boys don’t cry is not true and sexist” very very true, they can. However, if I was to be a real boy then I would not cry so therefore that is wrong only to me, because if I can cry then I am not a boy

[komittoshimasu]

list of things I’m currently handling well

1.

[bloodstainedwetcat]

2.

[yourlocalsluttymanenjoyer]

call me a sadistic top the way im hitting my Rock Bottom

[angelvoicedsoldier]

I’m so fucking tired of everything. Drama, working, rehearsal, sometimes art. I just wanna curl up in my wife’s arms or at least sleep on call with it but I can’t. Because it’s on vacation.

Why can’t I just have a break. Just a week where nothing bad happens and all I need to do is talk to my wife and be happy and do what I want to do.

[angelvoicedsoldier]

I wish you missed me more. I wish you missed me at all. But you don’t. I wish I didn’t care about you.

[angelvoicedsoldier]

[angelvoicedsoldier]

Every day I feel like I get farther and farther from actually being human.

I puppet one though I am not among their kind.

[angelvoicedsoldier]

“I am less confused now” if only you could be less of a bitch

[angelvoicedsoldier]

Not getting mad at me for something you didn’t remind me to do knowing my memory is absolute dogshit and that I respond to people telling me to do things in the moment challenge

[angelvoicedsoldier]

My family’s normal. I’m not in a bad household. I just have to do chores a lot. That’s a normal thing to have to do. I’m fine. My family’s great. I’m just being a brat.

[angelvoicedsoldier]

I’m not eating tonight probably. I don’t deserve it

[angelvoicedsoldier]

it wasn't sa. im just being dramatic and wanting attention again. that was it. how could it be sa if she said she wasnt attracted to me and belittled me over each little thing about myself and called me ugly daily. how could it be sa if it never even happened to me really, he just talked about wanting to do those things to me to my best friend.

i just want attention again, dont i.

ill delete this later, probably.

[angelvoicedsoldier]

I didn't even try to save them. Why didn't i try to save them. I just stood and watched while they fucking died. I knew what they were going through and I just. did nothing.