Anyway is christmas eve and im drunk and tired and thinking about a blind ichigo au
Like hes been blind for as long as he can remember and has largely navigated the world through his sense of reiatsu and while not perfect and complete solution by any means he can get around fine. The other students think its a little uncanny that he can always recognize whos approaching him, can tell who is or isnt in class today, but theyve also seen him training with Tatsuki, and hes friends with Sado whos grandmother is also blind, so its not like. THAT weird?
And its honestly a boon when hes a subshinigami, because consciously or not hollows and shinigami both use their reiatsu to bolster their bodies as they move and strike, to give them speed and strength, and by refining his reiatsu sense ichigo knows where an attack is going to be before the motion even really begins. Which isnt perfect either: he actually fights kenpachi better after kenpachi removes the eyepatch, because with the eyepatch on kenpachi earned all of his strength and speed the proper way, through training and training and physical training.
And byakuya is more than a little overwhelming, because when he releases his shikai he’s everywhere, all at once, and tracking each and every petal of reiatsu is next to impossible
But then Aizen is dead and Ichigo is perfectly, normally human again, and the world is big and unknown and scary, compounded on top of his ptsd from the winter war, and it just. Sucks big time.
And after about a month of too little sleep and falling behind in school and flinching every time one of his sisters so much as accidentally brush up against him, ichigo is home alone because he cant force himself to go to school where there are people and obstacles and his exfriends and an ocean of pity, and theres a knock on the door.
Kisuke sweeps his way into the kurosaki house with all his usual arrogant confidence, and ichigo is annoyed, of course he is, its been a month of no contact. But hes also comfortable, with kisuke nearby, relaxing by inches, and he cant figure out why until hes sitting at the kitchen table with the lunch kisuke brought
Because kisuke is chattering mindlessly, like he always does, but now it always gives ichigo a sense of where kisuke is. And ichigo knows this space, he can navigate it fine, so kisuke doesnt bother guiding him there. But when the food is plated and their at the table, kisuke’s touch is a gentle guide on his wrist: here is his plate, his chopsticks, his drink. But it doesnt feel like pity, it just feels. Natural. Like this is what ichigo needs, and kisuke would be an asshole if he didnt do these things
And before Kisuke leaves, he wrapps ichigos fingers around the curved handle of a cane, and. Its not a guide cane, but its more than even isshin has offered him, and ichigo feels his breath all caught up in his chest, tangled up with the gratefulness that he cant choke out.
(He assumes its just a replica, because the alternative is too crazy for ichigo to even comprehend. But then he has his powers back and he can feel Benihime beneath his hand, all of Kisukes carefully-cultivated bloodlust, and, a Zanpakuto is the extension of the soul, Kisuke has to be fucking insane)
(kisuke must be insane, because the alternative is too crazy for ichigo to even comprehend)
Definitely dont think about kisuke losing his goddamn little mind becaise ichigo is out there, powerless and vulnerable,and the stress is part guilt part… attachment
And he comes to ichigo with the intent to give him lunch and a guide cane. Its very modern. Foldable. Ichigo could probably beat a hollow to death with it, if it came to that, with the amount of augments and enhancements kisuke made to it.
But instead kisuke finds himself wrapping ichigos fingers around his cane, his Zanpakuto. Its already in motion, and he cant find an elegant way of walking this back, and he finds that he doesnt want to.
And never think about the guilty satisfaction kisuke takes in knowing ichigo is carrying around a piece of his soul, arguably his better half. Because this is his fault, and hes fixing it, and that should feel guitily good enough in its own right, but
dont think about why else he would be pleased and smug
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