Personal life update / Vent post
cw: mentions of self harm
Here's some personal and art updates: I've been working full time for almost a year now, reason why I struggled to keep drawing with my limited time and energy. But good news is that since January I picked up again my short narusasu comic and I had been working on that on weekends with somewhat nice results (some panels wips in prev post).
Then starting from March/April unfortunately one bad thing after another started happening in my personal life; among the other things my sister who had been mentally unwell for a while got diagnosed with bipolar and borderline. She has basically struggled to get better despite the medications, dealing with impulsive bad choices that lead to consequences, extreme anger at perceived betrayals and depression, self harm and unhealthy eating habits.
Obviously the entire family has been worried and on edge for a long time, we all live in the same house cause that's how it works in Italy (salaries are so low that ppl need to stay with their parents until well into their 30s sometimes even 40s, so there's no chance to take a break from these situations happening inside the house) and in the past I was also personally dealing with anxiety so I also personally had a "relapse" cause of everything that was going on around, I got emotionally and physically exhausted and decided to take another break 🥹👌
I was honestly considering leaving my job too cause I was seriously struggling to deal with everything but the culmination of this "bad luck" happened when I noticed some weird stuff going on with my dog's liver (and we noticed only because she had to do a full body ultrasound to investigate ANOTHER health issue that suddenly arised), we're still doing exams to determine the nature of the problem (mind you, this is the dog I got 7 years ago after my therapist suggested it might help with my anxiety and mental health. As these things tend to go now she's the source of my anxiety 🥹 /please send get well wishes for her/
This was her at our previous vet visit (she has shaved spots in her back cause she's also dealing with skin infections, probably caused by the other underlying health problems, we're doing exams to check if she has hypothyroidism that causes her chronic skin issues. In this pictures you can't see it but they also shaved her entire belly up to her chest to do the ultrasounds 😅)
In the end, aside from the issues with my dog and the physical exhaustion, all the other things seem to have gotten better, my sister also found a job and currently seems to have gotten better, so I'm attempting to draw again and continue my comic both for my own mental well being and in case I might need to open commissions or donations in exchange of art updates to pay my dog's medical expenses considering that in one month her exams costed me the entire savings I put aside in a whole year of working full-time 🥹 (she might be a super expensive doggo but I love my baby)
/nobody cares about all this, but I always disappear for months at a time. Just know I literally haven't been able to catch a break for a long time, I'm exhausted dndnsn/
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