The guy you don't know

A lost soul

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When your urdu starts coming back to life.❤. Translation : Your way of talking is like an unaltered blessing, Every word fills me up with a dreamy relief, It is constant with me for every different journey of nothingness, It is the sun of my mornings. -Anmol Agarwal ♡

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It took me way too long to understand that you shouldn't stay friends with people who never ask how you are doing!

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Alive?

If you're moving with a bewilderment in your eyes

then you are alive,

If you are moving with an eagerness in your heart,

then you are alive..

-ZNMD

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When you start to accept who you are. When you start feeling human again and you dont pretend to be some idealistic dickhead.

The world changes for you a bit. It becomes lighter and happier and safer.

Thats a difficult thing to do but whats the harm in trying.

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Love at first sight?

She: Do you believe in love at first sight?

Me: No. I dont.

She: :/

Me: I believe that at first sight what we can have is attraction. Not love.

I do believe in love. It doesn't matter how many sights it take.

It happens to me. Slowly. Taking time. Growing its roots. Taking me in.

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No matter how much you try. No matter how much you want. No matter how much you stop.

Everyone. I repeat. Everyone will eventually leave you. So be prepared. Love yourself.

So that when the time comes. You can hold yourself together.

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Where ever you are right now. Where ever you go. Who so ever you become. Just know. Never stop loving yourself. you will be better.

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Today is 23 Nov 2017.

Over a long period of time, I had developed this state of denial which restricts me from felling what I actually want to. I always considered myself in control of what I do. But as the time has progressed, I have an understanding that nothing that happens to me is in my control.

I have never allowed myself to fall in love.As soon as I start getting attached to someone, I pull myself out. I start ignoring that person stop talking to them.

I dont know why I do this or what I am afraid of. I have never let myself feel human. A human that can make mistakes. That can fall in love. That can cry.

I have recently realised that I have actually fallen for someone.

My heart twists but over some time I have created a virtual gap between me and her.

She doesn't even know what happened. Why I reduced talking to her. She asked a lot of times. But I always replied with a fake smile and said that everything is okay.

And now I am so far away that I dont know the way to go back.

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Reality.

There are always multiple versions of who you are. Your version portrays you as someone who is strong, right, understanding, deep, meaningful and wise.

Someone else might or might not feel the same. To a great extent does should not bother you as a person as most of the things in this world do not make sense.

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Beginning.

So this is going to be my first post on this platform. I am not sure why I created an account on tumblr. I am not a fan of social networking. Someone told me a long time ago that It is good. Today, out of nowhere I decided that I am going to use it to express myself. Whatever I feel, whatever I want to say, I would try to type it down.

Here's who I think I am.

The name's Anmol Agarwal.

I am currently studying architecture as a 3rd year student at MNIT Jaipur.

I have interests in Music, Art,Writing and Poetry.

I love to play Guitar and flute.

Lets see how this thing goes.