Lately I've been hearing a lot about Kit and/or Ty being Jealous when the two meet again in TWP. For the record, I think they'll both be jealous and insecure. Also a bit about Kit probably dating within the three years. Angsty, I know. Anyway, here's my take on Ty and jealousy...in a fic. Literally any and all feedback is appreciated.
Fear. It's unreasonable. Unrestrainable. And sudden. It just swallows people whole. You're sitting all alone and there it is, creeping up your spine, whispering in your ear. The sounds echo within you and consume you. All rational thought abandons you. Instead, a deep sensation starts to gnaw through your throat, clings on to your mind, to you. You can't shake it off. You can't ignore it. You're too scared to talk. Too scared to think. Too scared to breathe.
That's how Ty felt when he saw Kit with Hailey. Jealousy? It wasn't jealousy. Jealousy didn't leave people with an illogical fear. Fear of being insignificant. Fear of being forgotten. Fear of being all alone. Jealousy was a lot simpler. If Ty was jealous, he'd only want Kit to notice him the way he noticed Hailey.
He didn't just want that. He wanted to make Kit laugh, like he once did. He wanted to make him smile, listen to him speak. Watson never abandoned Sherlock. So then why did Kit abandon him?
There was only one logical answer. Kit didn't care about him. Maybe he never did. Perhaps, once, Ty meant something to him. But it had been three years since then. Three years is a long time. In three years, Kit had aquired a family. He had aquired a Girlfriend. He had aquired a new life. One he wasn't part of. Three years was enough for Kit to forget him. Forget the mysteries they solved together. Forget the time they spent.
He saw Kit laugh. He bent down to kiss Hailey's head. He whispered in her ear. Ty felt a constricting sensation in his chest. It didn't make much sense. It didn't make any sense at all.
It had been three years and Kit was almost 18. Ty had walked back into Kit's life. But he wasn't what he was once before. He wasn't a powerful piece on Kit's chessboard. He wasn't a queen, a rook. He was barely a pawn. And yet. That was something. Because even though he was a mere pawn, pawns can be queened if they reach the other end of the board. Because even though he didn't mean much to Kit, at least Kit remembered him.
So, whaddya think? I tried. This is my second time writing fanfiction ever. Honestly, constructive criticism is more than appreciated and extremely helpful. Also, if this gets more than 20 notes, I'll write 'Jealous Kit'. I know, 20. But have low expectations and you'll never be disappointed, by which logic it really should be two notes 😂