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helloo :) i was wondering if you could write a heeseung ff based off the song constellations by

jade le mac, if you wanna write a short fic could you try to write the plot based of the lyrics that start at 2:12.

thank youu :)

Constellations — Heeseung

pairing: ex boyfriend/heeseung x rich/freader

genre: sad, discrimination over money, ex to lovers, heartbreak

warning: a little suggestive, mention of discrimination, mention of kisses, mention of neck bites, coma

wc: 4.5k

notes: it's been a looooong time since i wrote this, but i wasn't confident enough to post it because of everything going on with heeseung since march T-T but i think it's a good fanfic that i made, and im pretty proud of myself, especially because i wrote a sad fanfic even though i don't like writing this kind of stuff... also, i hope i wrote what you wanted anon <33 and thank you a lot for your ask hehe!!

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It's been 3 months now since your relationship with Heeseung was over because your parents didn't agree about it.

Heeseung didn't come from a wealthy family like yours and your parents wanted their only daughter to marry a rich man. Heeseung wasn't poor but he was just not as rich as your parents wanted so they forced you to break up with him without telling him the truth behind your break up.

It was so hard, you thought of him everyday and all day. If it was only you, you would run to him and cry in his arms while explaining why you broke up with him but you couldn't, your parents were constantly keeping an eye on you since they knew you had dated a 'poor' man, and they didn't want it to happen again.

Tonight, you missed him one more time as you watched the Great Bear constellation in the night sky.

It reminded you of the way he enjoyed watching the starry night sky and all the night he made you learn about the constellations. During his contemplation of the stars in the dark sky, you would always admiring his side profile where you could trace a constellation on his cheeks where 3 moles were running down his face — you liked tracing those moles with your fingers…

But your contemplation of the night sky was broken by one of your two best friends.

"Girl, stop looking through this window like a maniac and go get dressed. Jay will pick us up to go to a nightclub." Said Ryunjin.

Her and Jay were your best friend since high school and they were always here for you, especially when you had to break up with Heeseung. They took good care of you like you were their own child.

"Ryunjin I don't want to go out…" You responded with a sigh, you definitely prefer to stay in front of your window to watch the stars and think about Heeseung while crying. Maybe he was doing the same, you didn't want to leave him doing this alone even though he wasn't with you — so you absolutely didn't know if he was planning to spend his night to cry while watching by his window and thinking about you...

Ryunjin rolled her eyes and took your arm, dragging you to the bathroom. She didn't let you say a word and started to show you the dresses she took out from your closet. She wouldn't let you alone anyway so you gave up and let her dress you up.

One hour later, Jay was waiting in your living room while Ryunjin was finishing styling your hair in the bathroom.

"Do we need to be this extra?" You asked her as you watched what she was doing to your hair by the mirror.

"Yes we need. You have to be the most beautiful woman in the room."

"Are you done? I'm bored all alone." Exclaimed Jay on the other side of the bathroom door and Ryunjin only rolled her eyes, making you giggle. This two were like Tom & Jerry — always fighting over little things or teasing each other.

She finally finished to dress you up for going out tonight, so she let you out of the bathroom.

Jay looked at you up and down, and then he did the same with Ryunjin before he got up from your chair.

"Ready?" He asked but Ryunjin didn't let you take your time to answer as she already took your hand walking toward the entry of your apartment. "I guess you are ready…" sighed Jay when he had no other choice but to follow you two.

You went in the metro with Ryunjin and Jay, but you were the only one in the trio with a pout on your face. Every strangers in the way to the nightclub could see very well that you didn't want to go out tonight and that you would rather slide under your sheet and pity your fate.

You sighed just before Ryunjin softly hit you with her elbow making you aware you're a station away from the one you'll drop off.

When you got off the station the fresh wind hit you straight in the face, making you fully awake now, but also wanting to turn around and run away. However, Ryunjin and Jay were gripping your arms, because they knew you would run away at the first opening you could get.

You easily entered this nightclub with your friends and quickly found a corner where you could sit down the whole night and just enjoy your cocktail in peace. While your two best friends were dancing like two crazy asses on the dance floor.

You were watching the room as you were sipping your drink. You have nothing else to do than this so why would you stop from judging people in this stinky crowd?

Later, when you were about to get yourself another drink you saw Heeseung's shadow in the corner of your eye. You thought you were hallucinating but when you checked one more time if he was truly here — sadly for you, he was here and he lived his best life with his friends.

It freaked you out.

You made a way between people in this crowd to reach him, and when you were behind his back you gripped his arm to turn him towards you.

He frowned just before he met your eyes. When his pupils met yours his face softened, and he whispered your name so quietly that you could almost miss it because of the loud music around you.

"Are you enjoying yourself?" You asked with a raised eyebrow. You knew you had no right to blame him for anything, because he wasn't your boyfriend anymore but it was so hard to see him enjoying his little life when you were in such a bad state since your break up.

"What are you talking about?" He frowned back, not understanding at all what you meant, but you didn't have time to answer because apparently one of his friends found it really appropriate to scream that you were his ex like everyone in the nightclub needed to know this.

You glare at his friend like you would throw daggers at him, so Heeseung reacted right away and pushed you away from his little friend group.

"Go back with Jay and Ryunjin. I don't know and don't want to know what you're doing here so just go." He told you with his eyebrow furrowed downward. You just look at him up and down then turn around to get back to the bar, you needed to forget.

You drank one, two, three… Too much to remember how many drinks you got. You just wanted your mind to forget he was here, in the same nightclub as you, enjoying his life. Your best friends saw him too, because you were constantly glaring at him while drinking, and they stopped you every time you tried to go talk to him. Unfortunately, the only time they got their eyes off you, you escaped from the couch they settled you on. You immediately go back to where Heeseung was, and this time he was all alone.

You called his name in a whiny way like you always did when you were tired or drunk, when you were still together. It made his brain shut down and his heart took the lead. He saw in which state you were and he was scared for you.

"Y/N are you okay? How many drinks did you have??" He asked you and you just gave him a dumb smile, locking your glassy eyes with his.

He sighed, he can't leave you like in this state. It worried him so much and what worried him more is that he couldn't see Jay or Ryunjin in the dim room. He took a last look at you, before he decided to take your hand and walk out of the nightclub with you.

You followed him without batting an eye, after all you had a blind trust in him. Heeseung walked to his car, keeping your hand in his, but you walked slower and slower while growling.

He frowned when he heard a weak 'Wait' from you, and then he turned around. "What's going on?"

"My feet hurt so bad…" You whined as you grabbed his jacket, making him look down at your hand, then at your heels. What did you have in mind for wearing them? He knew damn well you can't spend a whole night with them on, so he rolled his eyes when he understood what was going on. Drunk with hurt feet, a perfect combo for him to fold.

He shook his head and slid one hand behind the back of your knees and the other on your back to lift you from the floor. You whimpered absolutely not ready for him to act like this, but you put your hands behind his neck anyway.

He walked to his car while carrying you. When he reached his car he opened it to sit you first in the passenger seat but you didn't want to let go of him yet.

"No don't go away…" You whined against his neck where you buried your face. You tried to keep him as close as you could.

"Let me go… I'll be back, I just need to go in the driver's seat." He explained with the softest voice he could have while taking away your hands from his neck. After he closed the door he quickly got in the driver's seat and started his car.

He drove safely, luckily he didn't drink tonight so he wasn't scared to drive you but he didn't want to leave you alone at your apartment so he drove towards his. He didn't ask you about it since you fell asleep on the way.

On the road, he thought about everything you two had. Of course he didn't forget you, and of course he didn't get over his feelings for you. The break up was also hard for him, he loved you so much, and still do, but he wouldn't talk about it since he didn't know you broke then ditched him because of your parents. He thought you did this, because you didn't love him anymore.

The next morning you woke up with a terrible headache. You sat down and blinked multiple times for your eyes to get used to the sunlight, and it was at that exact moment you realized you weren't in your bedroom, but in another one you knew very well. You turned around fast in all directions to search for Heeseung's features but you didn't see him.

You tried to remember how you ended up here but you can't remember a single thing about yesterday night, thanks to all the drinks you had.

You groaned and got up from this bed you hadn't laid on for 3 months and went out of Heeseung's bedroom. You saw him from behind in his small kitchen. He didn't hear you yet, so you walked slowly towards the front door. Unfortunately, the wooden floor of his apartment had other projects for you and creaked under your feet, making Heeseung turn around and make eye contact with you.

You gave him an awkward smile, making him raise an eyebrow.

"What are you doing?" He asked, suspicious about your behavior.

"Good morning to you too Heeseung. I was just going to the bathroom… You know, first pee of the day." You replied with an embarrassed chuckle.

Heeseung exhaled loudly and pointed to a door. "The bathroom is here. I didn't know you could forget where the bathroom is in my apartment so fast." He had a smirk on the corner of his lips showing he was making fun of you.

You rolled your eyes and went to the door he was showing without saying a word. It wasn't necessary to respond anyway because you already knew he wouldn't believe you — He knew you too well.

When you were in the bathroom you took a moment to look at your reflection in the mirror. You were doomed. Why the fuck were you here, in his apartment? Why didn't your friends stop you last night? Why was he even more beautiful than before? Why, just why?

After you collected yourself you got out of the bathroom and saw the small dining table ready with two plates for breakfast. Did he actually make something for you or were you dreaming?

"Come eat something before you leave." He told you when he saw you standing in front of the bathroom door gazing blankly at the dining table.

You would never refuse a free breakfast so you sat down at the table with him and played with the food on your plate with your fork.

"Uhm… I'm sorry about yesterday Heeseung… I…" You started to apologize but he stopped you.

"You didn't do anything weird last night, you were just drunk." He told you with a small smile.

Your eyes fluttered. Oh boy, how you missed his smile and his soft voice in the morning but you looked back at your plate and excused yourself again. "No Heeseung it's not okay. I'm sorry about yesterday and how I broke up with you." You tried to hold back your tears, but that was hard. You're sure if you met his gaze you would end up in tears.

You heard him sigh. "Why are you sorry about this? You have the right to not love me anymore Y/N—"

You cut him short in his sentence. You couldn't let him think like this any longer, he had the right to know the truth. "But I love you Heeseung! I fucking love you! But my parents don't let me!" You screamed your eyes meeting his, tears rolling down your cheeks.

He was taken aback and didn't react for a second just a little 'What?' came out from his mouth. "I don't understand." It was the only thing he found to say because he was confused by what you told him.

"When I told my parents about us, they did research about you, and after they knew you weren't as rich as they wanted they pressured me to break up with you." You hardly explained between sobs, you were so hurt and you missed him so much.

Confusion on his face turned into betrayal, then sadness. Tears started to form in the corner of his eyes.

You became two crying messes looking at each other's eyes and tried so hard not to kiss each other. Everyone could see how much love there was between you.

"I'm going to go." You finally said after another sob and Heeseung didn't say anything he just bent his head down, his shoulder trembling with a hand on his mouth to suppress the sound of his sobs.

He didn't stop you, he did nothing he just cried silently. He felt betrayed and humiliated, but mostly he missed you so much it hurt him. If he had more strength he would have stopped you, but his sadness overwhelmed him to a point he couldn't move.

Some days later you were in a bar with your best friends, this time it was you who asked to go out. This encounter with Heeseung didn't leave your brain and you needed to change your mind before it consumed you. Unfortunately, for you fate didn't go your way. Heeseung's friends dragged him out to the exact same bar you chose to go to today.

First, you didn't see him but he did. He just didn't make a single move to you. Heeseung was still confused about what he felt after you told him the real reason of your break up.

His eyes were glued to you, he couldn't stop watching you. Under these dimmed lights you were so pretty. He looked at you so hard you felt his gaze and turned around to meet his eyes.

You panicked. Your fate was against you or what? Why of all the places did he come here?

He held your stare and you did too until Ryunjin asked you if you wanted another drink. You nodded and tried to ignore him, after all you couldn't disobey your parents.

Two hours later, you needed to go to the bathroom. All these drinks made your bladder full. You sighed and informed your friends you would go to the bathroom.

When you reached the door of the bathroom it opened, letting you in front of Heeseung. You lost all your words, sometimes you wanted to change the chemistry of your brain to find him ugly because it was so hard to resist him when he looked this good.

He didn't move and you didn't either.

"Sorry, you'll just stare at each other blankly or you'll go in the bathroom?" Asked a stranger who waited just behind you.

You flinched and snapped out of your inappropriate thoughts about Heeseung. You moved on the side and Heeseung went fully out of the bathroom letting the stranger use the toilet.

You leaned your back on the wall next to the bathroom door because after all you still needed to pee…

"So… You… Here…" Started Heeseung, balancing on his feet and fingering his fingers. This bitch acted like it was the first time he talked with you.

You side-eyed him. "No I'm not, it's your imagination."

"Oh okay, you're like this now… Thought it worked the first time I flirted with you that way." He said with a bratty look on his face that you would love to punch if you weren't civilized.

"Don't use the card of how you flirted with me." Your arms crossed, clearly closed to the conversation with him.

He rolled his eyes and leaned his side on the wall besides you, he tilted his head and leaned it on the wall to glanced down at you. That made you blush like hell.

He was attractive for nothing.

"Don't give me your doe eyes." You warned him with your finger pointed in his face.

"Why not?" He grabbed your finger and pulled it down. "Are you weak for them? Actually, I think I remember you were weak for my doe eyes." He grinned an eyebrow raised.

You exhaled loudly. You weren't the most cold-tempered and he knew this, he was playing with your nerves and it worked. You pushed your tongue in the inner part of your cheek showing how he got on your nerves.

"Are we angry baby?" He kept teasing you and it was too much this time.

You snapped and pinned him to the wall. "Stop playing with me. I'm not in the mood to joke." You warned him but it seemed like he got what he wanted because his grin didn't disappear.

At the same time the stranger who went in the bathroom got out of it and Heeseung took this opportunity to sneak into the bathroom to be alone with you.

"What the fuck are you doing? Hey Heeseung! Can't you stop!" You groaned.

"And you, can't you stop acting like you hate me? I know you don't hate me, I know you too much… I read you like an open book." He sighed. "I miss you Y/N. Please come back to me." He almost begged you, you're sure if the floor wasn't sticky he would get on his knees.

Your eyes darted away. "It's not that simple Heeseung, I already told you how my parents are… I can't disobey…"

"I know but… Maybe we can have a secret relationship?"

"Do you think we are in a fairytale or something? We can't do this, they'll know…" You looked back at him with your eyebrows furrowed. If it were that simple you would already be in his arms.

"What stops us from trying?" He asked, arms crossed.

You looked at him up and down while you pondered about what he said. He was right. What stopped you from trying to be in a secret relationship?

You bit your lips while you were pondering, making Heeseung lose his mind. You were too pretty. He couldn't stop himself from sliding his hands on your hips to pull you closer. Your eyes met his and you sighed.

"You know what? Fuck my parents." You exhaled before rushing to kiss his tempting lips.

He kissed you back without waiting, because he waited so long for this time to come. He would definitely not waste a single time to feel your lips moving on his right now. His hands started to roam over your body and then he pinned you on the door behind and his right hand stopped to touch your body to find the key on the door and lock the door. He didn't want a single distraction.

Just you and him, nothing else mattered.

Everything accelerated when his hands slide down to your hips then your thighs to lift you up and sit you on the sink so he could be between your legs and closer to you. His kisses went down to your jaw, and then your neck where he nibbled your skin here a little because he knew your body always reacted positively to this. And your body reacted exactly like before, shivering and goosebumps came along your spine. You loved so much his teeth grazing your skin this way - like you were his and no one could have you after him.

As he kept kissing, biting and licking your neck softly, his hands slid under the hem of your tight dress. It was so good you just wanted to stay here forever with him in his arms without worrying about your parents and how rigorous they were with you.

You clutched the sink letting him do what he wanted with your body, you were at his mercy.

"Can I take off your dress baby?" He asked you before you did anything, he didn't want to startle you but most of all he wanted your consent. It always had been really important to him.

"Stop asking question and just do it. If I don't want something I'll tell you." You said in an erratic breath.

He only rolled his eyes at how you just told him this, and then he took off your dress in one easy motion. Heeseung let his eyes roam on your half-clothed body right before he leaned down on your chest and kissed your chest with your bra still on. His hands were still there creating lazy circles on your bare tights.

You missed his touch so much, he was always delicate with you treating your body like it was a fragile flower. He was just perfect and you couldn't imagine someone else seeing you harmless like this.

You glanced at Heeseung through the mirror, he helped you put back on your dress. He slid his hands slowly on your hips, looking at you through the mirror too. You loved him so much it hurt you to think that you would have to let him go after this moment where your bodies were making one with love and affection.

You turned around to face him and you let your fingers trace the side of his face, where these 3 moles were still running down his face. You were so into tracing this imaginary line between his moles.

Heeseung let you run your finger on the side of his face, his eyes half-closed.

"I miss these little beauty spots on your face like I'm tracing a constellation in the sky…" You murmured, too close to his face, your fingers still brushing his cheek.

"And what if we're lovers again so you could do this whenever you want?" He proposed to you with a small smile on his lips and his eyes filled with hope.

You locked your eyes with his and your breath got caught in your throat. You couldn't say no to him but your parents…

"We will make it a secret between us." He told you and you nodded.

You wanted to be his and you wanted him to be yours.

Making it a secret is better for both of you. You were almost depressed when he was far away from you.

He gently gave you a peck on the lips and went towards the door to unlock it and go out of the bathroom where you spent almost 40 minutes in — and prevented people from using the toilet…

When you finally went out of here you saw some eyes on you but you mostly saw your two best friends sitting on their high chairs arms and legs crossed, gazing at you with an eyebrow raised. You're screwed.

"Heeseung can we-"

"Oh! You came with Ryunjin and Jay, it's been a while since I talked to them." He exclaimed as he took your hand in his and walked to them.

You definitely wanted someone to end your life because why did you get feelings for a dumb boy like him.

Days later, you were chilling in your apartment on Face Time with Ryunjin and Jay when the bell rang.

"Must be doe eyes." Teased Ryunjin.

Jay agreed and played along "The lovey-dove couple is seeing each other so much we can't see our best friend alone."

You just rolled your eyes, you knew they were joking because they were more than happy for you to get back with Heeseung since they knew how much you loved him.

"Anyway, I'm not talking with losers. Bye!" You waved at them through the screen and they did the same before you hung up the call to run to your door.

You opened it and were immediately greeted by two arms hugging you tightly.

"Hello Heeseung, I'm happy to see you too but I need to breathe please." You giggled when he let you go with a groan. "The sad puppy face is back I guess." You mocked him while pinching his nose, making him frown.

He wasn't happy about the cute way you saw him. He wanted you to see him as someone tough and sexy so he gripped your wrist and made you back down in your apartment while he closed the door with his foot.

You glanced at him with curious eyes, you knew exactly what he was doing and you would not let him win but you played along.

He made you fall on your sofa to pin you down against it. You let him do it until he tried to dip his head to your neck.

You grabbed his face and brushed your fingers on the right side of his face right were there where beauty marks. He stopped dead in his tracks and melted, dropping down on you to lie down with a relieved sigh.

"I guess it'll always make you react this way." You giggled and he just glanced up at you, giving you these doe eyes. Then he gave you a single little kiss on your neck — right where his face was lying.

You lived the perfect secret romance story and no one would stop you. Not even your parents, you would not let this happen again. You felt too good between his arms, feeling his steady breath on your neck but his body was becoming transparent.

"Heeseung..?" You called him.

"Please never forget me…"

BEEP BEEP BEEP

"We losing her! Bring the defibrillator!" You heard a far away voice.

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