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its really comforting to know that all the times i was at my lowest and loneliest in the past the whole time i had my self in the future and present who had survived those things looking back with love and tenderness and wishing desperately to offer comfort…i am my own guardian angel and i can use that knowledge when im struggling now and remember that somewhere there is a version of me that has survived this and is watching me with love and pride and joy in her heart

running out of poetic ways to express how mentally draining life is.

To love life even when you can’t stomach it.

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Always grateful for everything

to feel everything so deeply, what a blessing and a curse.

I just need someone to hold me at three am when I have tears rolling down my checks and I can’t stop shaking and tell me that it’s going to be okay.

I miss you and the person I am when I’m around you, you brought out my old self and missed that. You make me forget about everything bad going on it make me want be my best self. You make me want to do better and be better. But I can’t ever tell you that.

do you ever just feel like you give so much love and energy to those around you so it sucks knowing that you don’t get that same energy back.

love is an experience.

The most beautiful thing about love is that everyone teaches you a different way to love. Everyone you meet has the pleasure of touching you a different way. They all show you a part of you. They teach you what you like and don't like and show you all these beautiful places and show you good things and bad and you learn about the world and about life. Every one of them teaches you something different. Id never understands anyone who says they hate someone they used to love. Though that person could be toxic to you currently they taught you. its okay to allow yourself to break. its okay to hurt, to feel pain. because after your done hurting it won’t harbor you. and then you can love again. And without a doubt, you’ll find the love you know you deserve.

But the thing with allowing yourself to feel that comfort, it allows you to show someone your truest version of yourself. Because if they don't praise the uncensored version of you but rather the version they see in their head. If who I am and who you want me to be are two different people then its okay. I’ll be okay because I know who am. And I would never try to lose myself to find you.

the person I am now and the person I was many years ago are completely different. I miss her and would do anything to be that person again.

I think when you stop looking for things to happen and just let nature takes its course is when life gets good.

why is it that as soon as I start to get close to someone new in my life they leave. They always do, it would be nice to just meet someone in my life who would stay. Nobody understands. Nobody cares enough to stay. So many strangers know me so well. Isn’t that a bit scary? Maybe I’m a little bit too much to handle? Maybe I’m just not good enough for anybody? I don’t know what it is all I know is that I just want someone who stays. is that too much to ask for?

bones.

confession: sometimes as I’m eating I stop to think and realize how much I’ve already eaten, feel disgusted with myself and throw the rest out.

I still have no idea as to why I would rather run or feel the urge to hurt myself than talk about my problems. Maybe because I feel like no one would listen? or maybe I’m just scared that everyone will hurt me the way you did.

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