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Welcome to my blog! My name is Rory (they/them, 28) and this is a rp blog for an original character based (loosely) around Greek mythology. I am private, 18+, and I ask that you please read the carrd linked below before following/interacting.

carrd.

credits: icon template, pred. icons, icon psd.

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"Yeah, I wasn't put here to answer stupid shit like that. Ask Virgil."

// open .

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*sticks my leg out* I'm 29 today.

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Hey, all! I'm sorry for the absence, the months wrapping up 2023 were kind of a mess and my attention fell elsewhere. However, I'd love to have some stuff posted this upcoming week since it's been forever since I've actually written anything. Plus, my birthday is on Thursday so might just make an empty draft box a little birthday present for myself. lol

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I'll be getting to drafts either tonight or tomorrow, so like this for a short starter.

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Thank you all for the patience! I'm finally (mostly) on the mend from this horrible flu and I'd like to come back around here soon.

[outlawmorgans]

SOME DONATIONS FOR THE MONTH?

Hey! I'm a 28 year old trans Canadian and I'm gonna cut to the chase: I'm struggling. lol I'm currently looking for work and the support program I'm on does nothing when they don't adjust to rent/inflation. I need money for some really basic needs like food, medication, etc. I would also like to be able to buy food for my cat.

I don't have the energy to really offer anything in return for any donations I may get, but any assistance is DEEPLY appreciated.

My paypal: paypal.me/canadiansummer

[outlawmorgans]

SOME DONATIONS FOR THE MONTH?

Hey! I'm a 28 year old trans Canadian and I'm gonna cut to the chase: I'm struggling. lol I'm currently looking for work and the support program I'm on does nothing when they don't adjust to rent/inflation. I need money for some really basic needs like food, medication, etc. I would also like to be able to buy food for my cat.

I don't have the energy to really offer anything in return for any donations I may get, but any assistance is DEEPLY appreciated.

My paypal: paypal.me/canadiansummer

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Hey, all. I caught some sort of bug and today's been particularly rough. So, I may be away until at least the gastro symptoms clear up. I haven't been purposely ignoring anybody in DMs or on Discord, just haven't had the best day.

[moonrevolutions]

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°✩₊˚.⋆ @antaraxiia. meme. still accepting!

my beloved rory,

the stupid shit we discuss on discord... do you know how many times youve cracked me tf up PLEASE stop sending me screenshots of people acting abnormal on tiktok. i was in bed when u sent that shit about maladaptive daydreaming and i had to SIT UP and process what happened. im glad we've been partners for so long, we've rly been through a lot together and in retrospect...? it was funny. lord have . . . . . mercy .

writing with u rly does bring out the best in me as a creator, because a lot of my best lines came out of our threads. and having u be someone that can really bring characters to life makes me want to be better as a writer. ur one of those writers that has always had me be like ' daaaaamn that's the best thing i've read in months ' and sometimes its intimidating. your taste in muses, whether they be canon or ocs, and the topics that u touch on is a unique experience. its just one of those things i cant explain, ppl just have to follow u to experience it!

and on a side note with serious topics like war crimes, ure very respectful and u use a light-handed approach thats rly easy to fuck up but then again ur a history buff and a knowledgeable one at that so thats not surprising, it's ur bread and butter.

anyway we have so much fun and also when we talk about serious topics like current events and such, its just as enjoyable. in a different way.... u get what i mean . . . anyway, i will never talk politics w. people in general because im always prepared for an icicle take from twitter and short form videos by people under the age of 30 with only enough brain power to halfway charge an AAA battery.

ur just cool as fuck rory im very glad we're in each other's orbit!!!

also thank u for giving vi dynamics where he's a certified hater. i love writing hater!vi because that's when he's funny g;lkfdsgdf. vi's always at his best when someone disgusts him and he wants to beat them to death with a hammer.

⋆˙⟡♡SONG REC:

sister crayon - ❝floating heads.❞ / my arms are full of rage / most days, all i do is pace / mouthing mantras to keep me calm / i'm exhausted.

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Will try writing this weekend! It's been a weird week.

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I wonder if I should revive my g.ta multi ( @opportuning ) soon.

[soupy-sez]

DETACHMENT (2011) dir. Tony Kaye

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Mortality and Memories

If he was offered the choice to regenerate as a mortal with or without his memories of the underworld, he would rather he forgot every time. Granted, that would put him at risk with other ferrymen, yet the experience of being mortal while remembering what it's like to exist in the underworld is something he finds particularly torturous. While he does appear to have a physical form, and it can be interacted with as it is, in the underworld it more of something for the sake of appearances. In his opinion, anyway. (That's why his idea of his gender is what it is, as it really doesn't matter to him down there but tends to present masculine if he has to appear as something at all.) As mentioned in my carrd, he's not exactly Charon/Kharon. He uses the name interchangeably with Leon, a name he's picked up through his few mortal lifetimes (with some variation, of course.) He is and sees himself as just a part of the underworld more than a deity, as much as he knows he technically is. He helps keep things running and feels more like a part of the whole system down there than an actual individual. When mortal, however, that really messes with his perception when he has his memories intact. He's more acutely aware of things like hunger, thirst, illness, injury, exhaustion, even libido, and it frustrates him in a strange way. Given the half existence he experiences in the underworld, his discomfort can even run deeper than that. Flesh is strange, limbs are strange, heavy, sometimes they hurt as he gets older. (The body shutting down and dying, too, isn't as much of a comfort as he wishes it was.) Makes him want to crawl out of his skin, sometimes. That's just the physical side of it, too, as mentally he'll feel...way too old for what he has to endure and life's questions, twists, and turns don't interest him. If he is completely unaware of the other side of his existence, he ends up living some decent lives. A part of him craves the freedom to define himself, to live how he wants, yet the experience where he can truly realize how that feels is one where he can actively compare him as a mortal and him in the underworld. He can't really win in that regard. Ultimately, he just wants to obliviously live that lifetime and have the vague memories of it once he returns to the underworld. That's also why mortal verses where he doesn't remember the underworld actually gives him a personality shift in some cases. Less cynical, more hopeful (and helpful, too.) Life circumstances allowing, that is, but at least that'll be an organic reaction to the life he's experiencing and not from having too much knowledge of the other side of things.

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I'll be getting to drafts either tonight or tomorrow, so like this for a short starter.

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I'll be getting to drafts either tonight or tomorrow, so like this for a short starter.

[mcflymemes]

RANDOM LINES OF DIALOGUE PROMPTS *  assorted dialogue, adjust as necessary

oh, great. more of your very eloquent bullshit.

i don't fear death. in fact, i yearn for it.

if it holds wine, it's a wine glass.

so... no guns. do you have an axe?

i'm not usually this direct, but... what is wrong with you?

this would have been much better with a gun.

i might be a bit too ambitious.

i think you'll see that the time was not wasted.

i can do it as well. i can do it for ages.

it doesn't hurt... well. it hurts a little bit now.

i'm fascinated by what happened in your fourteen minutes of absence.

no hard feelings. please look after yourself.

i am fundamentally incapable of showing off.

i'm just having a bit of a laugh with everyone.

that was so cringey and so uncomfortable.

i have no stitches. none!

momma didn't raise no fool.

i can borrow a dog whenever i want.

honestly? i don't know where to start.

i gave you culture... literature... water.

sometimes absence is more powerful than presence.

by the end of it, we were singing swedish drinking songs.

i think you were really reluctant to take accountability for that.

i just think you formed a bad relationship.

do you think it's fair?

what do you have for me now?

yours is... impressive.

we're all different.

don't you dare look away.

i didn't mind it, actually.

i'm just proud of myself.

i think it went in. it did go in.

i feel ashamed, mainly.

that's what i was going for.

i just want to acknowledge your technique.

it did escalate severely after five minutes.

none of us ever want to see this again.

we've reached the ten minute mark.

i don't think i know who i am.

there's a degree of style in the cowboy hat.

there are no fucking shoes!

you look like you've been kicked through a charity shop.

your phone's ringing.

haven't you ever seen one of those before?

they were sick and dangerous.

what does that say about whoever killed them?

this isn't half bad for college kids.

what the hell is this?

you might want to wear these.

have a safe night.

would you believe i'm single?

why do you always trail off like that?