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me & my head are talking (:(

[anxietyswag]

Realised the fact that times I don't long normal are the times when i'm glad. So conclusively, challenge is the new normal, discipline is the new normal, traction and stress is the new normal, coping up is the new normal. Things I contemplated happy-glad-normal aren't satisfying anymore.

Is this a phase? Is this just fantasy?

[letsbelonelytogetherr]

— David Foster Wallace, The Pale King

[anxietyswag]

You're responsible for every time you cry for taking up responsibilities which are unknowingly taken up by you.

Be careful while doing every action you do.

[anxietyswag]

Sometimes freedom is just emptyness being echoing all over. True freedom contains fulfilment..Chivalry.. and moreover — EVOLUTION.

[memeclassheroes]

[anxietyswag]

I think I've started to know what I'm doing

[anxietyswag]

I'm full of emotions, I remember everything. Before, after and later.

Everything!

I have an exam, post two hours, I remember that too.

I'm still studying (on a study break tbh)

[anxietyswag]

I no longer need bookmarks🔖

[letsbelonelytogetherr]

– Oscar Wilde

[anxietyswag]

I-I like it when I talk to myself and then pen down the exact words right after. Just like this one!

[anxietyswag]

Everything has a cost. Even my happiness.

[anxietyswag]

Its been 3 days I restarted listening our voice call recording and sleep. Today I've been listening to songs n scrolling since 3 hours to feel sleepy. Gonna play the recordings right after I finish the current song on apple music and lets see if they really help me or not!

[anxietyswag]

I want him to know that he makes me Happy which will make him happy and then he'd come and keep makin me happy.

Happy isa Happy wordddd

[anxietyswag]

Never seen him critisizing something or someone so seriously. Maybe I wont bear that side of him too.

[anxietyswag]

I dont like my own company.

Agar akeli rahi toh either ro deti hoon ya phir hadd se zyada kharcha kar det I hu. And I dont share this with my parents such any acts of unethical behaviour. Yaha paisa waste, emergency mai zero paisa. Is this balance or disruption? Of course it is interpretation based opinion. Can some superficial body come personally to me and say what right and whats the right time to do wrong things? I cannot blame being libra all the time, although I say I belive more in zodiacs rather than personality tests. Balancing has always been my trait, said my English teacher and somehow she was right back then. I feel she must feel ashamed of me if she comes how I balance things right now. Well all I am, the 10% of it goes to my judgemental English teacher and I'm grateful and thankless about it at the same time. Again, I cannot gain a clear feeling whether what I feel about her judgements. Again, I cannot make any biased decision.Again, I cannot be mean or rude to someone without regretting it later (However I sometimes I dont even apologise) Again, I cant mediate due to over understanding stories. Again, I dont will to quarrel because I fathom my opponent too. And maybe someday I'd like my company too!

Yes I regret being a human, regret being me. Maybe I'll take a an contrary stand on that too, where my self love journey will begin.

Happy life lessons, happy sleep.

[anxietyswag]

I dont will to give anyone whatever kind of space is ideally accepted by society. Hypocrite I am and I dont mind. I rather take as much as space I want.

[anxietyswag]

Why the fuck have I lost the sense of fulfillment?

[anxietyswag]

I just dont want to stay in the hope of ''he'll call me" or ''he'll quick reply" IT IS SO UNHEALTHY