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       i   let   my   heart   go     [ … ]    it’s   somewhere   down   at   the   bottom  .   but   i’ll   get   a   new   one    —    &    come   back   for   the   hope   that   you’ve   stolen  .        /       𝖇𝖗𝖔𝖔𝖐𝖊 𝖑𝖚𝖈𝖆𝖘 ,   𝐨𝐫𝐢𝐠𝐢𝐧𝐚𝐥 𝐜𝐡𝐚𝐫𝐚𝐜𝐭𝐞𝐫.      ©   

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       i   let   my   heart   go     [ … ]    it’s   somewhere   down   at   the   bottom  .   but   i’ll   get   a   new   one    —    &    come   back   for   the   hope   that   you’ve   stolen  .        /       𝖇𝖗𝖔𝖔𝖐𝖊 𝖑𝖚𝖈𝖆𝖘 ,   𝐨𝐫𝐢𝐠𝐢𝐧𝐚𝐥 𝐜𝐡𝐚𝐫𝐚𝐜𝐭𝐞𝐫.      ©   

[anxietyworns-a]

this blog is now an archive.

[anxietyworns]

       i   let   my   heart   go     [ … ]    it’s   somewhere   down   at   the   bottom  .   but   i’ll   get   a   new   one    —    &    come   back   for   the   hope   that   you’ve   stolen  .        /       𝖇𝖗𝖔𝖔𝖐𝖊 𝖑𝖚𝖈𝖆𝖘 ,   𝐨𝐫𝐢𝐠𝐢𝐧𝐚𝐥 𝐜𝐡𝐚𝐫𝐚𝐜𝐭𝐞𝐫.      ©   

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                  brooke     🤝    camilla

being banshees who don’t know shit in there spn verse

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tobeblamed·:

    he is trying to understand what happened, but she hasn’t been giving him much to work  with .  all he knows is that she seems scared, more scared than he has ever seen her before and so weary .  the sleeplessness is easy to spot .      ‘  what’s goin’ on?  ’    he inquires, a bit impatiently rather, for the apocalypse has kept him awfully busy .

          “  i want to scream,  ”    she says rather impatiently back.    “  like all the time.    it’s painful.    ---    &    i know it sounds insane, but try living it.   ”    she’s exasperated at this point.    everything feels like it keeps coming to a head.    “  &    it gets worse when i have these dreams.   &   these fucking dreams, people keep dying!   &   i keep trying to warn them.   &   it used to be random people or people i saw in passing but now    ---   ”   she stops there.    she’s out of steam now.

         she’s falling back into herself.    how could he believe her?    but she has to tell someone.    (    maybe she should have told sarah first?    the same time?     too late now.     )     “   i feel like i’m going insane, dean.    i feel   ...  ”    there it is.    the urge to scream.

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[ good ]   your muse calling mine a good boy / girl. from spencer 👉🏼👈🏼

                    nsfw   prompts   /   accepting.

       she may not have his heart    ---     but right now, she has him.    just for this fleeting moment.     sometimes she’s okay with that.    sometimes she’s not.     tonight, there’s nothing but a pink smile    (   her lipstick smeared , of course.   )    she’s just gotten done sucking his thumb when he says that    ...    something about it makes her eager to please.    again, they might be incredibly toxic with each other     ---    but if anything, they had great sex.

      “   mhm,   ”    she murmurs, moving biting down on his lower lip.    her lips trail down over his neck, to his collarbone   ...    all while her hands play with his belt loops.     “   spence...   ”    /    @heistdriven.

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“ how did this happen? “ / sherry

there's a long pause before she answers. she can't really answer because their is so much to say. but also so much that refuses to leave berry lips. brooke's head hangs low, & crystal blue eyes meeting a matching, similiar pair.

" i was in spain, knee-deep in monsters, " she uttered, remembering the horrors there. " i wondered why i wasn't getting sick, why they didn't infect me — then this researcher there. he found out... " she pauses, overwhelmed with emotion at the thought of luis. how he'd died so pointlessly.

her fist clenches, & she shakes her head violently, raising from her seat. " long story short, a lot of people died because someone people wanted their hands on me. "

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time moves faster. - oriaes

     it’s the hardest thing   ...    understanding it but still feeling so ripped to shreds.    seeing him again was a momentarily relief, but now that they are safe    (    yes, she’s taken care of all the zombies in this area.    )    but his words   ...    she can feel how he wants her to understand.     to understand the timing of hell versus earth.

   but god, it had been a long three years.     the last time she’d seen him, she’d been just settling in at the raccoon city late night news.     since then, brooke had been stuck in raccoon city   ...    “   it was almost four years for me   ...    how long was it for you?  ”     she doesn’t really understand hell.     yet  ...    so long ago people were trying to say she’d have to lead it someday.     she’s not sure if that’s still a concept.    honestly, brooke’s just been trying to survive.

   her back to him now     ---    she lets her eyes get slightly teary-eyed.    “   i missed you so much   ...    so much has happened.   ”

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go where no one else is.

            red   (   taylor’s version   )     /    accepting.

       her eyes are tired   ---   but something about his suggestion makes her interested,   &   she gives a half smile.     “  maybe you have a point,  ”     she says with a shrug.    her phone lights up   ---    some old contact from her reporting days.     they always want to talk.     she never answers.    something feels wrong with talking to them now.    after all, she’s a different person.     “   ---    might i ask exactly where that is?    you wanna show it to me?  ” 

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protective prompts.

basically my friends all separately made me angsty and then these came to mind so. here we go. have some protective prompts! ( EDIT TO CLARIFY: the prompts listed under "to the threat" are for like. an NPC threat. so if, for example, john sends "back off!" to mary, he isn't saying it to mary, he's saying it to whoever is threatening to harm mary. or whatever u want tbh that's just how i saw it as i wrote them but u do u!!! )

to the threat

" i swear to god, if you lay a hand on him/her/them, you'll be sorry! "

" don't you touch him/her/them! "

" get away from him/her/them! "

" touch one hair on their head and it'll be the last time you have hands. "

" you're gonna regret ever touching him/her/them, i swear to god! "

" no! stop! don't you dare go near him/her/them! "

" what did you say? hey! what the hell did you say to them?! "

" where are you taking them?! "

" hands off. "

" back off! "

" i'm the one you want, why are you taking them?! get off of them! take me! take me, asshole! "

" what the hell did you do to them?! "

" no! take me instead! please, they've done nothing wrong! "

to the protected.

" who did this to you? "

" did they do this to you? "

" don't worry. just sit here, where it's safe. this won't take long. "

" don't panic. it's not my blood. "

" i warned them what would happen if they hurt you. i keep my promises. "

" did they hurt you? "

" hey... here, take my jacket. and wait here, okay? i'll be right back. "

" look at me, hey... it's okay. you're safe now. "

" i told you i'd keep you safe, didn't i? "

" i... i swore to protect you... and now look at you. "

" it's gonna be okay. i promise. "

" i said i'd find you, right? "

" it's okay. they won't hurt you. they won't hurt anyone, actually, ever again. "

" what did they say to you? i swear to god, i'll kill them... "

" hey. don't worry about me, okay? i can mind myself. i just want you to be safe. "

" we're getting out of here. together. now. "

" they hurt you... oh, that does it. they did this to themselves. i told them. i told them what i'd do if they did anything to you... "

" i'm getting you out of here. i swear it. "

to the protector.

" i'm not a damsel/dude in distress. i don't need you fussing over me. "

" no! don't fight back! i'm fine, i'll be fine, just stay safe! "

" i... i don't care what happens to me. i didn't care what happened at all. but then you started yelling, and now... now i realize that i care quite a lot about what might happen to you. "

" don't! don't get yourself killed over this. not for me... "

" shh, shh, it's okay... it's okay, i'm fine, i'm alright. i promise. "

" they didn't hurt me. but... look what they did to you... "

" dumbass, if you keep yelling at them, they'll kill you quicker than you can blink. "

" i can't leave if you're dead! don't you get that?! i'll revisit this place every time i close my eyes! "

" why do you care so much about me? "

" you... you killed them all. because of what they did to me? "

" you came back for me... "

" my god, i've never been so happy to see you in my life! "

" i love you. i... i know this isn't the best time or place but... i do. i love you. "

" in case we don't make it to sunrise... i love you. "

" no! don't struggle! don't! don't give them a reason to hurt you! i'm okay! please! "

" help me! "

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i am dropping MOST threads. if you would like a new starter — please like this. 💖

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like this if your muse is in love w brooke or wants to be, & i'll surprise you with something. 💖

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like this if your muse is in love w brooke or wants to be, & i'll surprise you with something. 💖

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i am dropping MOST threads. if you would like a new starter — please like this. 💖

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yeah... strangers... @heartslayer