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@tobeblamed
tobeblamed is not dead .
tobeblamed is @wantdead
" the monsters i can handle,
but that one . . .
she'll be the death of me . "
lily winchester . independent supernatural oc . a study in perseverance, compassion, adolescence, and the loss of innocence. mutuals only . loved by mickey (25, she/her)
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Please, please, please: the story. Starred by Sabrina Carpenter and Barry Keoghan.
"it's will," she challenges back, but just as the words leave her, she knows that it does not land hard and sharp as sam's name does. the winchesters will bleed and fight and die for one another, just as she would for her own brothers. as much as she understands, the pain of knowing her brother's fate carves out of her with a jagged edge, dragging against her tender skin, reminding her that she cannot save him. she never could. "you lied to me."
" i didn't lie — " he opposed, quick to correct her. if she was going to hate him, he wanted her that she did it the right way and hate him for the right reasons. " i failed. " he admitted as his eyes held her gaze firmly. " i failed you. "
"admittedly? a lot.“ again a difficult question because katherine didn’t know the last time dean was in mystic falls. what does he know? what doesn’t he know? he didn’t seem to be aware of doppelgänger because he didn’t seem to be suspicious about katherine’s or rather ‘elena’s’ identity. he also didn’t seem to know what happened to caroline, so she needed to handle that topic with sensitivity. ”caroline…“ she started, before she sighed. would elena tell a hunter that her friend turned into a vampire? ”caroline had an accident…“
an accident. he questioned whether the literal definition of that word applied ... or whether or not caroline had once again fallen victim to another monstrous fate. at the news, dean furrowed his brows slightly, as his movements remained subtle, almost non-existent. hesitantly, he asked, " is she okay? "
"Sure, but you just might be findin' out different things is all." They replied, unbothered. "Seems like it'd be a helluva lot easier to figure things out now than letting it fester."
" that just sounds a lot like overthinking and a lot less enjoyin'... yeah, thanks, but no thanks. " / @sunsymbols
DEAN WINCHESTER ✧ 9.3 I'M NO ANGEL
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headcanon — dean & john : the everlasting presence of an absent father
❗️disclaimer: since the show itself has already showcased and explored their relationship rather thoroughly, this headcanon aims to highlight only the 2 main aspects: the burden and the legacy left behind by john.
the burden
dean's relationship with his father becomes complicated only after he dies. because john made a deal with the yellow-eyed demon to save dean, the news of his death was met with mixed feelings. stricken by grief and sorrow, dean soon realized that his emotions went much deeper than mourning the loss of a beloved father. he felt guilty, and because of that, he was angry:
because john struck a deal with the enemy, going against everything that he had ever preached about to his sons while raising them to hunt monsters;
because john ultimately sacrificed his life to save dean without dean knowing until later. he would have never agreed to it; he would have chosen to die instead of living with the burden of his father's death;
because on top of it all, he told dean to protect sam — something that dean considered to be unfair ; john should be responsible for protecting his sons, and he failed at that.
however, dean's biggest frustration stems from the fact that he can't change all of that. he cannot reverse john's deal, he cannot bring john back, and he cannot leave his family unprotected. he doesn't want to stop protecting sam, because that's ultimately who he is. he can't not listen to john when he asks him to watch out for his brother, because this is what he was raised to do, and what he deems right to do. he's angry because he has no control over any of john's actions that directly affect the course of dean's life.
the legacy
notably, despite john's overall absence in the course of the entire series, the legacy he's left behind is ever-present. john'd taught dean (and sam) how to survive in a world of monsters, trained him to fight and win against them, and guided him to fight for what was right. unlike sam, who grew up rebelling against his father, dean embraced him ; lessons such as to always keep fighting and saving people are at the core of who dean is as a person because of john. dean loves hunting and helping people thanks to john. he didn't simply inherit that legacy, he embraced it and took it in as its own.
john's lives in the story ever so presently, as long as dean keeps driving john's car, as long as he keeps listening to the same old classic rock songs, reading john's journal, hunting monsters, saving people, protecting sam ... his father will always be with him. all of that in itself keeps the memory of him alive.
a note on destiny ...
the winchesters have defied destiny in many different ways and, as a result, stopped the apocalypse. in addition that, it's worth noting that with sam and dean being destined to mirror lucifer and michael, their relationship to john was subsequently destined to mirror that of god and his two sons (which was doomed to both parties being let down by one another). however, unlike god, who showed no remorse for his absence, john did. he had expressed his regret over what he had put his sons through and dean was able to heal from that. thus, the winchesters have once again proved that they weren't treading the path that heaven had paved for them ; that they were able to shape their own through their love for each other.
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you never loved me. you loved the idea of me. / miss lana again
all the laid out facts he had to counter her had already been weaponized against him and used to strengthen her own argument. and thus, he reacted in the only way he could ; in a weakened objection. " — that's not fair. " his protest came out as quietly as a mere mutter. " you can't just negate it altogether. " he almost felt insulted that she'd accuse him of creating a false version of her in order to deem himself capable of loving her. " the idea of you, whatever the fuck that even means, isn't some kind'a fucked up illusion — " he argued. " it's based on something real. "
DEAN WINCHESTER in 2.22 ALL HELL BREAKS LOOSE: PART TWO
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Dean crashing one of Sams college parties be like
confirmed by @tobeblamed this is what sam and lily look like to dean
Alex simply rolled her eyes, of course he would be the victims, roommates, brother? "Fine... you caught me redhanded -- It's going to sound absolutely awful, but your sisters roommate was a horrible person. She stole something from me, and I am just trying to get it back.. I'll be out of your hair in no time. Ten minutes tops." This time the lie was much better, it also sounded believable. Or might, if it wasn't Dean Winchester questioning her.
" it must be something truly valuable to warrant stealin' from a dead person. " he remarked coldly, though he was evidently curious to hear more about it. " so, whatcha you lookin' for? "