I Am A Contradiction

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[haohaode]

Pursuit of Jade 《逐玉》 (2026) ／ Eps. 34 + 36 Fan Changyu and Xie Zheng + homecoming

[xiaolanhua]

Tian Xi Wei as Fan Chang Yu Pursuit of Jade ‧ 逐玉 ‧ 2026

[haohaode]

Pursuit of Jade 《逐玉》 (2026) ／ Eps. 2 + 7 Fan Changning counting to ten

[ilyapasta]

The first time Shane and Ilya have like a normal domestic day together, post coming out to Shane’s parents, I think there’s probably a moment when both of them are like— holy shit that’s my guy. And some wires are getting crossed because they’ve lived extremely homosocial lives where they spent a large amount of time playing a single gender sport where they put their identities to the side for the team always about the team and the guys and yeah we’re really clicking out there on the ice. So they know about chemistry. They know about communication. But the thing that makes them different from other hockey players is that they’re not just in the rabble, not just one of the guys. They’re at the top, kind of doomed to be alone by virtue of just how good they are. Maybe they never thought they would have the camaraderie that other players get, that sort of pseudo military bond of being in the trenches together that athletes feel.

But when Shane sees Ilya shuffling sleepy around the kitchen in the morning, mumbling something like “gonna make you the best eggs Hollander where the fuck is your whisk” or later when they’re getting ready to have dinner with Shane’s parents and Shane helps Ilya pick out a parent-friendly button-down from his own closet, doing up the buttons for him instead of undressing him for once and taking a look at the result (“no, let’s try the this one, the color is better, maybe”) I think they’re both like holy shit this is my guy. This is the team I’ve always wanted, above the one where we play hockey on TV. And it crosses some wires in their brains because oh this is what it’s supposed to feel like to have someone have your back. Not that they both aren’t beloved by their teams but we honestly don’t see it besides the transactional nature of their skills (maybe Hayden is an exception with Shane, but really Ilya’s closest person in the show is Svetlana, he has no one close in the books) weighed with how they get the team accolades.

This is why I don’t think the commitment part was ever going to be hard for them. They are both craving a person, someone that is just there for them. They were conditioned for this type of bond, promised brotherhood when they started hockey, but never reaped the benefits because of their talent. Sure, Shane could have found a nice man in Montreal, but this is so much deeper than just finding someone you want to date and falling in love that way.

It’s also why I think despite marriage not being required for commitment, they want it. They want a formal distinction saying no, this one’s mine. This is my team. And we’re going to win. At what, who knows, but they want that win.

[heatedrivalrysource]

heatedrivalrytv Big day for the rivalry.

We're beyond honoured to share that Heated Rivalry has received 18 Canadian Screen Award nominations from the @thecdnacademy.

From the ice to the screen, this story has always been about passion, intensity, and heart, and this recognition means everything to our cast, crew, and fans.

Nominations include:

Best Drama Series

Jacob Tierney

Brendan Brady

Best Direction, Drama Series

Jacob Tierney

Best Writing Drama Series

Jacob Tierney

Best Photography, Drama

Jackson Parrell

Best Picture Editing, Drama

Véronique Barbe

Arthur Tarnowsky

Best Sound, Fiction

Vincent Riendeau, Martin Messier, Joe Scandella, Natalie Fleurant, Simon Meilleur, Eric Med Lagacé, Peter Lopata, Valéry Dufort-Boucher

Best Production Design or Art Direction, Fiction

Aidan Leroux

Best Costume Design

Hanna Puley

Best Visual Effects

Simon Devault, Philippe Massonnat, Christophe Trepanier, Felix Arsenault

Best Original Music, Drama

Peter Peter

Best Original Music - Original Song

"It's You" — Peter Peter

Best Lead Performer, Drama Series

François Arnaud

Hudson Williams

Best Supporting Performer, Drama Series

Ksenia Daniela Kharlamova

Sophie Nélisse

Best Guest Performance, Drama Series

Nadine Bhabha

Best Achievement in Casting, Fiction

Jenny Lewis, Sara Kay

[chubby-cry-baby]

shane x ilya and the centaurs!!!

they all go to the arcade for 'bonding' and shane and ilya are SCARY competitive and try to get the highest points on everything. At some point wyatt says "i thought they were only competitive on ice..."

harris organizes a centaurs charity calendar and shane and ilya are february because valentines day (awww)

the team will always leave a spot for the other when standing around at practice or sitting at a restaurant - they know shane and ilya want to be beside eachother. warning: DO NOT SEPARATE

theres multiple wedding celebration dinners they get invited to in the summer and there is a lot of "so you're why we never saw roz at any team events hmmm" (harris' family loves shane!!!!!)

sometimes they'll do team rozanov vs team team hollander at practice - it's truly cemented that shane is actually the best player ever of all time

shane and ilya finally go to a Bood BBQ

shane cleans up at poker - he has no tells and he loves winning

harris comes to take content when they’re practicing and ilya teases him “you just want to see your boyfriend” and they look over to see shane and troy doing elaborate passes and harris teases back, “you’re staring more than me”

gayest team in the league

rookies want to play with hollander and rozanov soooo bad (having a centaurs induced sexuality crisis becomes a thing there's a lot of "hey um hollander/rozanov/barrett can i ask you a question")

ilya regular flirts with shane infront of everyone they don't even bat an eyelash but when shane flirts with ilya everyones starts ribbing him like 'ooooh rozy'

“okay tell us who made the first move” “me” “i did” - and a massive argument ensues 

“FINALLY SOMEONE TO TRANSLATE WHATEVER ROZ SAYS IN RUSSIAN” “you don’t want to know what he says in russian”

shane’s insane hockey iq tells each of them what they’re doing wrong their plays improve within weeks (“your angle is wrong” “if you go faster you might actually score”) - he can’t help though he can only tell you what’s wrong

harris organizes a centaurs FAQ video; “twitter is dying to know ‘ilya rozanov can you fight?!?’” “who’s asking” “it trends everytime shane posts a sponsorship or scores a goal or does an interview or gets papped or-” “yes i will fight anyone”

shane and ilya can speak with their eyes and it gets spooky; the centaurs immediately make a game to see who has the best telepathy with their captain

shane freaks out when they get turbulence and ilya always jokes, “we’re already married what would you do this time”

[emziess]

I don't want you to think she was weak. I don't. She wasn't. She was so funny and beautiful. She was so sad. And my dad was so hard on her.

Heated Rivalry

[manhasetardis]

"I know it's foolish but I just want things to be nice for him." - Big Eden

[brittany-murphy]

Connor Storrie and Hudson Williams presenting Mumford & Sons on Saturday Night Live (February 28th, 2026)

[sheisraging]

i missed them

[noahreids]

SNL - Connor Storrie & Hudson Williams

[hearteyesilya]

rose 🤝 ilya

giving shane the 🤨 look

[bloominflowers]

i guess i like these guys a lot 💆‍♀️

[sheisraging]

i scream, you scream, we all scream...

[lavenderprose]

As a married person I do need to tell you all that Shane and Ilya do weird shit all the time.

They routinely have entire conversations where Ilya is very softly smacking Shane's foot the entire time. Shane enjoys the percussive feedback.

Ilya mispronounces the word "Application" and they just sit there mutually whispering 'Aaap-li-caaa-shun' at each other for the next thirty seconds.

Ilya comes up behind Shane while he's trying to make a smoothie and says 'HELPING HANDS' and puts his arms under Shane's armpits.

Ilya sees Shane undressing in the bathroom and yells, "Take it all off!"

Shane carries Anya into the bedroom and holds her over Ilya's chest and moves her paws and says, "Papa it is me. Papa it has been an whole hour since I ate. Papa I am so hungry and sad." then drops her on his stomach.

Shane comes into the home office and grabs a pen off the desk and puts it against Ilya's cheek and says, "Any last words?" and Ilya says, "I wish I had eaten more dumplings."

Ilya spends an entire episode of House Hunters International with his hand down Shane's pants. It's not doing anything in there either it's just keeping warm.

Sometimes they are just mutually awake at three AM for No Reason and they go stand on the porch and stare at the empty street together.

Sometimes they are laying there playing footsie on the couch while on their phones (Parallel play) and Shane says, "Does your mouth ever do that squeezing thing. You know. When you eat." And Ilya says "Explain" and they spend the next ten minutes dissecting whether this is a Human Experience or a Shane Experience.

Sometimes Ilya will put his head on Shane's stomach and say, "Show me your boooones" and wait for Shane to lift his shirt so he can burrow under it.

I just think that we as a fandom need to embrace how Weird married people get about each other. From personal experience I am telling you it is SO FUN.

[lavenderprose]

Some more that I thought of today:

When Shane gets frustrated he's liable to mutter, "One of these fucking days" under his breath. Ilya's job is to respond "Straight to the moon," and mime an uppercut.

Sometimes Ilya gets very excited especially before/after very intense games and in order to release some of this energy he does this WOOP thing with the back of his throat. Shane will respond with an echoing WOOP from wherever he is, even the showers. Sometimes other people on the team will echo them and it becomes a sort of hype-up but Shane and Ilya will even do it when they're alone. If Ilya is particularly excited he will say, "Louder, baby!" and Shane will WOOP again, big grin splitting his face.

Ilya sings songs under his breath and replaces half the lyrics with Shane and Anya's names. After he hears Blinding Lights by The Weeknd for the first time he spends WEEKS just periodically muttering "I said Shaaaane...I'm blinded by the Shaaaane..."

Ilya lays down flat on Shane's back and says, "Do you like this?" and if Shane says, "Yeah," he'll bite the back of his neck and say, "How about now?" And the way Shane responds decides if Ilya puts his hand in his pants or just weighs him down and takes a nap.

Shane holds out his hand to Ilya and says, "Do the thing," and Ilya spends the next three minutes carefully cracking all of Shane's knuckles.

Their finance guy is named Hezekiah Patterson and they ONLY refer to him as Hezekiah Patterson, AAMS. Did you talk to Hezekiah Patterson, AAMS about those assets? Shane, Hezekiah Patterson, AAMS is calling us. We just got a Christmas card from Hezekiah Patterson, AAMS. That was very nice of Heze--

When Yuna calls, before she hangs up Ilya puts the phone under Shane's chin and says, "Tell Mama you love her. Blow her a kiss." If Shane forgets to do it before he hangs up, Ilya calls her back.

[bisexualrozanov]

WOMEN OF HEATED RIVALRY ♡

[thisfeebleheart]

I have only been in love with one person. Same here. Only one.