Remember? You broke that bond, not me.
You abandoned me, left me hanging in the open air with so many questions I didn't have answers to.
And now you're wondering why i wasn't staying right where you left me.
'Cause I've already had enough of chasing people in my life. I could no longer afford to stay at a place where it felt like I had no hope to receive the love I really deserved.
Our relationship was a ghost town. Surely, it was a happy place to be in. I love silence, I really do. It's comforting, though not always, but in silence I could daydream a warm, cozy afternoon with you on the sofas.
But I hate silence, when it makes me feel so unlovable and difficult to be loved. I was a stranger to our ghost town, muted and abandoned. And when things got rough, when the oceans became unforgiving, you let our battleship to sink beneath the waves.
And now you're wondering why i wasn't staying right where you left me.
'Cause I know how I would drown there, while you were saving yourself and chose to move out from the situation silently.
'Cause I know how I would lost myself in the gloominess of that ghost town, 'cause I know how my heart made of glass would break so much from falling, 'cause I know how I will pity myself too much, and let myself drown in that sea of pessimistic thoughts.
I'd rather left than to stay in a place where I felt like I didn't belong. And out there, I quickly found the light I was looking for. He was like an angel, except that he really loves dogs and cats. He gave up heaven so he could be with me in hell, the hell that you gave me. He was my light. He saved me. I smiled at him.
But I knew in the depths of my heart, that I was the one who saved myself first. I was the one who made the right choice to get out of there, to get out of the sinking sail, to move out from the agonizing town.
Because I knew I deserved so much better. And that I knew I had to protect my heart once and for all.