Hey, I'm Ukiyo.

I am made up of broken fragments. I am not poetic like other people. I am just living my life in an eudaimonia way.

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wednesday is the day of the week kung kailan sobrang nalulungkot ako.

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huling alala ko ng age ko is 22 (before pandemic), after retreat parang bigla na lang akong nagising sa isang panaginip at four years na agad lumipas.

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everything happens for a reason.

i asked Lord to give me a sign and He sent me one. it was you. you were the sign. hindi coincidence na nag chat ka ngayong madaling araw. thank you for protecting me. 🤍

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i’m okay i’m okay i’m okay i’m okay i’m okay please let me be okay

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rekindled

went to a retreat last Friday-Saturday. supposedly sa batch 1 kami kaso graduation yun ni ate so ipapa-refund ko sana. sabi ni sis nonah i-resched ko na lang, di ako pumayag kasi may pasok tas sabi ni mama i-go ko na kasi bumili nga ako twice concert ticket kahit na di ko alam kailan yun so nag go na rin ako for resched. week ng retreat, nagkataon na wala kaming pasok for 1 week! di ko alam na frid-sat pala yun, kala ko weekend. sabi ko kay mama grabe ginawan talaga ng paraan para maka-attend ako. then, pumunta ako dun ng walang expectations. sumama lang talaga kasi nabayaran na pero sobrang helpful kasi lahat ng nakatagong emotions ko kahit yung hindi ko masabi sa psychiatrist ko, nailabas ko dun, nailabas ko kay God. day 2 before prayer intention, tumugtog fave song ko na Amazing Grace. after nun, naramdaman ko na ready na ako magpa prayer intention at nag pray pa ako kay Lord na i-open ang heart ko sa kanya. naalala ko nung day 1 sabi ko pa sa kapatid ko lahat na sila umiiyak aside sakin kasi feeling ko talaga may naghaharang sa emotions ko/nawalan na ako ng emotions since 2019. then dun first time ko naramdaman emotions ko. sobrang nag overflow. parang yung dam ng tubig, nasira. sobrang grateful din ako kay ate na nandun siya para suportahan ako kahit di kami nakakapag usap, through actions lang. and siyempre kay God kasi feeling ko nag therapy ako ng mga 10 sessions or more. sobrang life changing talaga. ang gaan gaan ng pakiramdam ko. nabawasan na anxiety ko and parang wala na akong depression. sana mag tuloy tuloy + ff. up checkup sa psychiatrist na rin pala. hihi. thank you, Lord. You rekindled me. 🙏🏼🤍

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One of the most beautiful sunrises I've ever seen

instagram @matialonsor

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bilis makalimot ng inaral pero yung mga nangyari 4-8 yrs ago, di makalimutan.

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di ko pa rin magawang burahin pictures namin sa phone & sa lahat ng soc med ko 🥲 heLp ha ha

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almost 4 yrs passed and I’m still at the restaurant

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golden hour ✨ (at Kota Beach) https://www.instagram.com/p/CbezADkpI7y0WkmS1a47Fn2Kk3hYfZ2OQ6-B2Y0/?utm_medium=tumblr

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🌻 (at Baguio City) https://www.instagram.com/p/CXAo-G9Ja20/?utm_medium=tumblr

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｡⋆༶⋆˙⊹ع˖⁺ (at Mt. Gulugod Baboy) https://www.instagram.com/p/CWsBN6EJTDo/?utm_medium=tumblr

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highlight of our mt. gulugod baboy x batong buhangin beach trip last Nov. 20-21, 2021 😌🤍🍀 (at Batangas, Philippines) https://www.instagram.com/reel/CWjxoMGBFtT/?utm_medium=tumblr

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i’m afraid of the silence before sleeping that’s why i always stays up late

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i can’t understand myseeelffff

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i sometimes think that i want to die, but i dun really want that to happen

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i cry every night & idk why, i think i need some help