[aperfectgraveyardofburiedhopeshm]

we get to be mediocre artists, you know. everything that comes out of you doesn't have to be the next best thing. it doesn't have to inspire millions, or a one. it just needs to exist. to be. if you think the picture you took of a leaf in the rain from your mobile's shitty camera is art, it's art. as simple as that. don't let chauvinists define a word whose beauty is built on the ambiguity it holds for you. maybe the only true generalization of art is, that it is kind to you.

[aperfectgraveyardofburiedhopeshm]

i find myself caring so less about things that were so important less than three months ago, I find myself caring so little about people I assumed to be in my life forever, life is so transient and nothing is in my hand and people who you've loved for years can stop talking to you without an explanation and that is why u mustnt associate love with people and rather with how they felt when they were important to you.

I will always think of her as the girl I sat with in the nice quiet bench in the serene cold market in december talking about our terrible families, the girl I spent the night with, laughing, the girl I shared my first wine with, the girl whose house felt like my house, the girl who was my refuge. I will not think of her as an active presence in my life I'll think of her as the girl sitting with whom made me feel like white ferrari frank ocean I'm sure we're taller in another dimensions...

[aperfectgraveyardofburiedhopeshm]

why do I feel as though ive made all the incorrect decisions in my life all at once every once in a while?

[aperfectgraveyardofburiedhopeshm]

i wish I was a better writer I wish I was better at thinking logically I wish I was better at living my life I wish I could stress myself out to an end and have that end be what I need I wish I had people in my life who understood me completely who weren't my mom I'm so tired of everyone and everything and at my own mediocrity I wish I was excellent at any one thing that wasn't feeling bad for myself

[aperfectgraveyardofburiedhopeshm]

I fear im needlessly apologetic for things and I feel people take advantage of that I feel as though I use it as a way of avoiding conflict and being called ungrateful and selfish and problematic and they use it as an excuse to victimize themselves and hold it over me. everytime I look at a situation where I asked for some1's forgiveness I'm forced to remember parallel situations with the same people where I was not even offered the grace of feeling hurt but that couldn't be the case by intention right? someone who loves me whom I love couldn't be making me feel that way intentionally right?

[brandedtofilm]

Le testament d'Orphée | Director : Jean Cocteau

[yesterdaysprint]

The Waco Times-Herald, Texas, June 19, 1936

[redlipstickresurrected]

Cōngmíng aka 聪明 (Chinese) - Still Cold, Digital Art

[aperfectgraveyardofburiedhopeshm]

sane he's so sane and unproblematic and that is why Im sure he doesn't get it and i cannot explain it even if I try

[aperfectgraveyardofburiedhopeshm]

woke up with this insane sense of freedom

i don't know what i will end up doing as a career and i don't know if i will ever be okay with it but as the prospects of unemployment increase it matters less what you chose as an 18 yr old i may very well be feeling inspired because of the overlooming presence of an apocalypse is this coping I cannot tell

[imjunebitch]

[aperfectgraveyardofburiedhopeshm]

i hate it when 19 year olds talk about forever and stare at you weird for not mirroring their emotions sir I have abandoned in the idea of permanence and so should you😞

[aperfectgraveyardofburiedhopeshm]

imagine a party at my house specifically between the dining table and the living room and then imagine us singing line without a hook to each other as high as our voices go and we're both on the verge of tears but I want to kiss you and I'm on my knees grabbing your waist as you sway and we're surrounded by everyone we love and the lights are dim and the carpet's soft and everything's all okay:) this is not romantic unless you want it to be this is not romantic unless I want it to be and we both hang in the uncertainty but it's not torture if it feels so right right

[aperfectgraveyardofburiedhopeshm]

life feels happier when I mind my own business and feel every feeling as if it's a hand me down but live every thought as if it's an original yk

[aperfectgraveyardofburiedhopeshm]

I'm so tired of people in college acting like 7th graders as if 7th grade did not collectively suck for all of us like maam please if we had a misunderstanding and I hurt you and I can't recognize it why don't you talk to me about it instead of ignoring me and saying mean things about me on your story I cannot believe this is a real problem this is so juvenile and disgustingly pitiable I don't feel annoyed or anger im actually at a state of unbothered leaning towards headache

[aperfectgraveyardofburiedhopeshm]

the days are good we've hundreds of crosswords left to do together :)))

[melonatures]

women who spend their saturday nights giffing a mediocre show very few people are watching you are god's blessed creatures and i love you