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I wanna be the very best... Like no one ever was.. DUN DUN DUM ~~~

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Time is so long

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Heads always aching. Not that it will stop me catching up on the genshin quests. Still aches though. Still complaining.

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Taking an hour to walk to school is NOT skipping if I already informed them I was going to be late

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I have learned though, no ghost hunting on 18% battery haha

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29 Jan. 2023

I'm suddenly really into this investigation thing, so bare with me.

I began by taking my dog to the beach

The sunrise was cool.

Anyways I found a sock, or the dog did, but other than that, I don't think his paranormal radar is very good

On the other hand, I found what is either someones etsy crystal they lost during beach mediation, or im about to become an alien mom

My phone died shortly after.

Idk, it seems this investigation was fruitless but these rocks are usually hellla pricey so im not complaining. Thanks for the rock, hopefully the meditation will help calm you when u realise what u lost ;;;

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I feel like humans have just mutated beyond reasonability, like we're saying, it's very likely almost every illness metal and physical are in some part genetic.

Yet nearly everyone has at 1 thing wrong...

Compared to like, wild animals that are all pretty chill (I think so, maybe I just don't want to consider half of the fish population being depressed... Non!)

In other words, my joints are aching and im cursing my ancestors I'm only 18 wth;;;

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Are suits really the pinnacle of fashion or do I just think they're hot...

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My sudden and intense interest changes and fixations, they aren't mental illness, or hobbies, or whatever non

This is my character development roll with it

[myhauntedsalem]

A Bullet That Reached Its Destiny Years Later

Henry Ziegland thought he had dodged fate. In 1883, he broke off a relationship with his girlfriend who, out of distress, committed suicide. The girl’s brother was so enraged that he hunted down Ziegland and shot him. The brother, believing he had killed Ziegland, then turned his gun on himself and took his own life. But Ziegland had not been killed. The bullet, in fact, had only grazed his face and then lodged in a tree. Ziegland surely thought himself a lucky man. Some years later, however, Ziegland decided to cut down the large tree, which still had the bullet in it. The task seemed so formidable that he decided to blow it up with a few sticks of dynamite. The explosion propelled the bullet into Ziegland’s head, killing him.

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What if I just started paranormal investigation it sounds fun?

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Wiki how is a run by an evil government forcing aliens to do all their artwork. That's why nobody who draws for wiki how knows that a human looks like, and why you can't find any alien communication articles. It's all a cover up;;;

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I'm updating all my old content, my English was.... poor.

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routine things ~~~ ( yes I've done this already shush )

Aka. How I've stuck to a high energy morning routine

Do not do your routine become it. Bleed in your body runs dry for this routine. It's your soul, your life. That's ultimately the best way to do anything ^^

Chain reaction routines:

Have your first habit/task trigger the next. Like drinking water makes you swallow. Drinking water could also make you swallow and then get dressed. Woo.

1 minute rule.

If your not in the mood one day, just do it for 1 minute. Don't feel like putting on the pilates video in your routine? Do sit ups for 1 minute. Then you can just lie and say you did it ^^

Adapt, improvise, overcome, die

You may be the type to find a tight schedule easier to stick to, or someone who likes to do it in their own time. Everything about your routine should be personal and contribute to your goals. (I can type in pink now???)

Why am I writing this anyways, how does this even link to the title. This is what I call the die part of the process why am I here.

'It's a lifestyle, yeah'

If as soon as your done with the routine you drop everything and go straight to bed, why. Also you're just making the routine look bad because yeah beds better. At least pretend it's fun

Just make it fun (oh hey that's what I ended the last section with!!)

Put on some music, forget time and reality (especially). It's just you and the existinal dread bby. Pretend you're in a film or something it works and is funny.

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Study tips for the a* blood ~

Find the right type of plan. Personally blocking out a section of the day doesn't work, setting out a time goal and doing it whenever does. It also works best when I use someone else's so I feel like I've let them down when I fail ;;

A clean and refreshing environment is better for focus than a meditative(?) one. Clean and refreshing....

Take productive breaks. Stand up, get some water, etc. Talking to someone helps, as when I'm done talking, I dread further contact and want to lock myself away forever ^^

Try actually writing rather typing. If you put your blood sweet and tears into it, the ache in your hand will serve as a remainder of all the content ;;;

Make your notes legible. Please. This is just a request.

Don't take it too serious. If your serious, you get sad and lose friends. You lost the ability to bond in the agony of revision.... So sad....

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One of the things I love the most is making lists of things I want in my life. Like a wishlist, but more about life generally. So things like, dying.

In a way, its manifestation but its also comforting

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2022 is going to be ~

mornings

Looking my best at all times ~ naturally ~~~

Curling up on the floor to... die.

Red lipstick and glass skin (drop it for a Halloween look!)

Learning Langauges so I can spy on convos I have no reason being in ~~

Learning other random skills I don't need

Candles. Not for arson!

Sunglasses even in winter (to hide your tears;;)

Going outside.

Not living.

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Things to do before 2022 °•

New Playlists ~~ or at least just add all your songs to a new one if your like me and haven't changed music taste in years ;;

Start your routines early, or don't

uninstall apps to increase productivity and install ones that decrease it. I had this the right way round first time I wrote it but it looked better when in changed it ^^

Tidy your room. I don't care how lazy you want to be this year. I will take my mothers cleaning rules to the grave.

Create a vision board, or a interest board you pretend is a vision board

Set up a journal system in advance. This could be a physical journal, a notion page. ( actually helpful whatt )

Realise you've spent so much time planning, yet nothing changes in the end, and you are only doomed to grow older and older until death. At least your rooms are tidy, though, and you have a sick notion page !!!