at times, it felt like running was all she’d known. from places. from people. from even herself. she was in a constant battle with the clock, with the seasons, doing everything she could to buy more time, more love, more chances to stitch a grin onto her lips, parade her skeleton around at parties and fall into the arms of a handsome stranger. the blackjack never dealt as favourable a hand as it did her dreams, though. she’d found herself in casinos, in diners, in stripper bars, always running, evolving, never quite stopping to acknowledge just where she’d come from. every now and then, she liked to pause. with her back against the highway, eyes on the skyline – light pollution clouding an otherwise perfect scattering of stars – she felt she could sink into the tarmac and disappear completely.
“ursa minor. that’s it’s stage name, right? wait, not stage name, i mean– whatever,” vocabulary muddled, her lips were a honeyed laugh, fingers dipping into the bag of chocolate-coated raisins before dropping them onto casey’s chest, her eyes still locked on the skyline. the crossroads were deserted, sunday night radio static, traffic light flickering from red to amber to green to amber to red. no change. merely the whir of a taxi cab in the distance every few minutes, a sudden flurry of energy, before the sound died down like whisper. “do you think aliens exist?” the redhead posited, licking chocolate from the skin of her fingertip, head dropping against the rubble of loose stones to glance across at him. “honestly, i’m curious. tell me your theories.” @apocvlypsed
the cosmos were colossal. freeing. separate from earthly afflictions. and yet, sometimes when he closed his eyes, casey envisioned spooning the sky into cups, watching it swirl and pour over and under and in upon itself, into glasses. he’d take a straw then, a curly one, and slurp the stars, digest the universe and its secrets. the marriage of finite and infinite in one, a way to entrap the abstract within the corporeal. the explainable. and he’d sip and sip on his astral medley. perhaps pander to his childhood habits and blow tentative bubbles through the straw. aerate it, create the illusion that its substance extended beyond the halfway mark. he’d never been one to qualify a glass as half-empty or half-full: to casey, even a glass with the subtlest drop could count. but what was there to do, when he would finish this cup? why, drink another and another. satiate the evanescence of it all by indulging in the finer things -- indulging in INFINITY. maybe he’d pour libations for others to drink, to worship the sky and revel in its ability to exist colossally, separately, yet simultaneously within them. then, filled with the courage of stars, he might not feel so utterly terrified any more.
looking up at the night sky tended to have that effect. a troubled peace settled over casey like wool. how strange it was, marveling in the beauty of the screen that would soon showcase the moments leading up to the planet’s doom. but lying in the road, in this instance, he tried not to latch onto such bleak things. instead, he chose to anchor himself to greta’s voice and the delectable delights being passed between them. he hummed thoughtfully before taking a single raisinet from the package, spinning it in the moonlight before popping it into his mouth. he chewed on the candy, took his time, allowed the chocolate to melt away from the raisin before concluding the act. sometimes finding the truth took time, dedication. delving deeper than the sweeter surface.
“ aliens ? ” frankly, he’d never thought about them. sure, entertaining the ideas put forth in star wars seemed fun, but casey had always seen those stories as cinematographic art. the truth in their narratives wasn’t necessarily the most important part. he mulled over his stance for a minute before speaking again, lips pulling into a relaxed smile. he reached for another raisinet and, at the very last second, decided to take two. “ i hope so. it would be kinda cool to film them, you know? i mean, obviously they could, like... kill us? ” he paused just long enough to consume one of the two raisinets resting in his left palm. pensively. “ i think benign aliens would be cool. the kind that have... philanthropic agendas. maybe we could coexist. ” casey cast greta a curious, almost hopeful look. “ do you think those kind are out there? ”