Piece Of Mind

Poet. Lover of Literature. Est. 1996

[apoetandyaknowit]

2017

Wow I was depressed all 2017 lol time to hop on here all 2019. New stuff coming soon 😎👀🔥

[apoetandyaknowit]

Pain is what you make of it, dwell in it and you will die, liberate yourself from it and you will be free

[apoetandyaknowit]

9/17/2017 7:06pm

My heart has been destroyed more times than I can count in the last couple months than my entire life. Breathing is harder again. Loving seems like a distant theory that I’ll never understand. I constantly think about you and what you have done to me. I am broken and I don’t know how to rescue myself from that. I don’t understand how you don’t see that if you look into my eyes I am now lost, in emptiness. People ask me why I have a blank face or why I go to sleep all day because my misery stems from being alive at this point.

[apoetandyaknowit]

9/9/17 7:20AM

Well I've gotten to the point where I tell myself I was not happy. In order to repeat that makes it so hard when my soul knows that was not true. I have never felt whole until I was with you yet I've never felt so empty now. Now that I don't have you there is emptiness in my heart a darkness was added to my soul and I continued to fake smiles for people when I knew they weren't real. My smiles now hide the darkest moments in my life and you happen to be a part of them. I hear you've moved on yet the sounds of those words make me crumble as hard as when you said we're just friends. I have to let you go but how do you let go of someone without destroying yourself in the process?

-K

[brizzlewritesthings]

I’m tired of folding the god damn maps. I’m tired of waiting by the phone and trying to find poetry in the moon. I’m sick of all these words. I’m sick of the comparisons. I’m sick of trying to find you in every place I go to. I don’t want to look across horizons or state lines anymore. I miss you. That’s it. I’m sick of the in between. I miss you. Come home.

-what I should have said before. (via @brizzlewritesthings)

[apoetandyaknowit]

8/28/17 11:13pm

Well I can sleep now a little more with the thought of you. I don't know if that's me moving on or the fact that I'm too tired to think of you.my heart doesn't beat the same way it used to. You left me broken and unwanted. I haven't felt like myself in a very long time and I honestly have no clue what to do. This isn't a cry for help you will know when it is,but I cannot lie and said I haven't had thought about what I can do to myself to stop me from this pain. I watch you and I hear the things people tell me and I want them to be untrue. But fact of the matter is that you will move on and find someone new while I stay behind trying to figure out what to do with the core and state of mind you left me in. -K

[apoetandyaknowit]

8/18/17 6:38AM

I was tossing and turning all night at the thought of you. I haven't been able to think about you lately because I've preoccupied myself with thoughts of others. They have been kind to me and have made me feel like a woman again. Without the support of them, my friends and god I don't know what kind of a reck I would be. I have a new job in which I love and my coworkers love me (p.s they're almost all guys. Jackpot) anyhow dating a coworker seems almost unfeasible because I've been down that road and look how that ended.. however he's so sweet and kind and good looking. But today my thoughts are with the one who took my heart and then ran. Strangers now in our own living space but the universe will keep turning and I'll keep living as long as I have breathe. Nothing last forever especially not heartbreak

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Tuesday 8/15/2017 12:41

Lost ones come and go and weren't not meant to live on this planet forever. I haven't cried for you in a while but I wept like a baby on the way to where you were. I've loved you and cherished you. Watched you grow and seen your struggles. I am happy to be once called yours because I know realize my love for you was like I was loving from my brain not my heart. If you didn't know that's the hardest one to let go of because you can convince you're heart he's not right but you're heart is controlled by your brain and your brain isn't letting go. Then how would the heart? It was undying, a summer fling, and done faster than it started. I cried a tear today and told myself that will hopefully the last you shed because you can't make someone love you enough though you did.

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8/9/2017 9:47pm

In all honesty I don't think about you as much during the day. My days have been overwhelmed with activities that keep you off of my mind. Yet when the sun goes away and my pretend happiness becomes one with me and the darkness of the night, that's when you return. That's when all the heartache and emotions come into play. At night I lay not thinking about you or at least trying. Yet at night you are who I dream about. Even my subconscious knows it's always been you. I have to let you go and I don't know how. I wish someone would help me because I don't know how much longer I can hold on to the string that's keeping me alive. -K

[quotemadness]

I can’t stand my own mind.

Allen Ginsberg (via quotemadness)

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August 9, 2017 7:57am

I don't think men clearly understand the essence of a heartbreak. It burns, like hell knowing that you're not wanted anymore. Knowing that the person who once was your world no longer wants to be a part of that. I often find myself hidden behind my own smile because that's all I have left. Facades are what keeps me going right now. I've tried to look at another male the same but right now all I have is heartbreak, while you prance around with your pride. Had moved on before I even knew it was done was the hardest thing I could've seen. I now dream of you and wake up knowing I have to let go. Knowing that isn't my reality anymore. I told myself I won't cry, yet that's I have left. -K

[apoetandyaknowit]

Life

So I decided to delete all my social media today need a detox from it for a few days because it just hurts to much to see things you put up. It hurts to see that you had loved on before I even knew we were done. I've cried multiple days for you and I still do but I am childish if I ever believed you once loved me. Nothing but heartache in my world rn -K

[thelovejournals]

This is what I like about photographs. They’re proof that once, even if just for a heartbeat, everything was perfect.

Jodi Picoult, Lone Wolf (via wordsnquotes)

[apoetandyaknowit]

8/8/2017 7:05pm

What upsets me the most is you calling me crazy for loving you the way I did. Most of the time I loved being around you. When I was upset was because of the stuff you would do behind my back. You cannot and will not call my crazy for loving you. I do not understand why you would try to name my happiness as unhappy. I loved you and that's all that mattered to me because that was what was more important than anything. I will not cry for you anymore. Someone who doesn't love me as who I am doesn't deserve to have me. Goodbye ex lover -K

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8/7/2017 10:27pm

The thought of you diminishes throughout the day but at the end of the day you are still there. You are the one that I love and nobody can take that away. My heart has never been broken like it has been lately. The tears are never ending. I tend to tell myself I'm over you and I feel nothing but in reality I feel the pain of a thousand lives without you by my side. I stare at pictures of you because that's all I have left. The memories cannot be replaced but when I sleep at night I wish they were because I dream of you and it's the first time in a long time when my dreams are better than my reality. -K

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