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Ciara / 26 / ♀ / ISFP / Capricorn / Certified Garbage Goblin

[shiftythrifting]

San Diego area Goodwill finds again.

(The Jackie Daytona shirt came home with me.)

good taste

[darlingofdots]

been stewing on an analytical approach to fiction which I call "is this book afraid of me?" and in order to answer this question you determine how hard the book is trying to make sure you don't come after the writer on twitter

[playwrongs]

Tags via @deadpanwalking, editor and ass-kicker extraordinaire

[gingisnap]

Please keep making art. Please make it for yourself. Please don’t let everything become even more of the same flat general appeal nonsense that doesn’t seem to have anything to say

[honeyapplebutterfly]

I’ve been working on discomfort testing. I think it’s important for anyone who grew up super chronically online (or everyone really). Basically I try to put myself in situations where I’m uncomfortable with increasing severity. If you think you’re “lazy” because you just can’t force yourself to walk every day or you just can’t force yourself to clean your room or something like that you might wanna try discomfort testing.

I have big and small tests. A small test can look like: setting a 10 minute timer and cleaning as much as I can within that time. Walking around the block and seeing how many times I can tell myself “just one more block.” Forcing myself to read and pay attention to the most boring book I can find in my local library (they don’t usually end up being as boring as they look).

Big tests are like: forcing myself to go to a party where I know my ride is dependent on someone so I can’t leave until they do. Spending an entire day on a boat with no escape. Giving a speech in front of a room full of people.

Sometimes it’s not things I have to do but am too lazy to do but rather it’s about just testing my utmost boundaries to remind myself that I am strong and I can do things that feel hard or impossible. Last week I dunked my whole body in ice water. It was fucking scary. I lived.

Life is a series of forcing yourself to do difficult things. Start young and small and it’ll be easier to do the bigger things when you’re older.

[imissthembutitwasntadisaster]

Alright tell me in the tags, what’s Your Poem? That poem you heard once and it has dwelt within you ever since?

[thingsorganizedneatly]

Structure Minerals

[thegreatyin]

every so often i look at pictures of baby fruit bats and i start sobbing.

peace and love on planet earth.

[girlypopz123]

Big day today for those who treat gay people like a fandom and are actually pretty homophobic when said gay people dont act like a 1 dimensional slay bestie that validates their every breath and also never in their life had a moment of attraction towards the same sex and also grew up with societal acceptance of their opposite sex relationships and crushes

[molags-balls]

big things happening in england

[apricops]

sentences that are largely recognizable to a medieval peasant

[blond-shell]

[scytheofdelphi]

[dreamyvixen]

[thememedaddy]

[phaeton-flier]

Not enough people know about wireless-fireless

[phaeton-flier]

Not enough of you were reading ComicJK, a minor webcomic from the late 2000s whose last update was during the 2012 election

[spitblossoms]

[feefal]

Oyster mermaid~

[feefal]

ah fuck, so sorry ma’am-

[feefal]

Curious pond greets butterflies

[oldmaninatee]

I’m very Here for makeup & shaving critiques etc. but acting like being expected to do those things is the primary way feminine socialization hurts us is missing the depth of it imo, and I think it might be hard to convince anyone outside of our circle (or even ourselves) that femininity is harmful & forced if those are the only points we focus on bc those really are not, comparatively, very difficult behaviors to start or stop.

more concerning to me are the compulsions, the constant fear-without-a-name every time we want to speak up but stop ourselves, the secret-keeping of our own ideas. the unnecessary apologizing, and worse, apologizing to someone who owes you an apology just to end the conflict or (crossing our fingers) passively remind them to apologize. forgiving those who hurt us even though we know it will happen again. overestimating how much we’ve taken and underestimating how much we’ve given in relationships, favors, conversations.

I’m concerned about what we do with our anger, how we turn it on ourselves, how we hide it, how we identify it by other names. how afraid we are of feeling angry & understanding what it means.

I’m concerned about our dismissal of our own needs, that we view our needs as obstacles to overcome. we feel guilty for needing food, rest, attention, space to ourselves.

what’s concerning is how we see ourselves in the third person, our bodies as avatars. we flip from perspective to perspective to check if we’re good from every angle. we’ve visited the mind of everyone around us. our empathy polices us.

what’s most damaging about femininity is the message of subservience that was planted deep, deep in our upbringing & in our minds the moment we were born. we were shaped to be masochists. making sure I look a certain way is a big part of it, but I can remove my makeup & grow out my leg hair & deal with the added self-consciousness with enough motivation. what I can’t seem to stop is the compulsive self-harm & feeling like every part of me is owed to someone else