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[re-divino]

Moving his hands through Nik’s hair, Elias felt very much like he was consoling a child. He stood with the other, following him up and feeling the weakness in the other’s hand.

“Okay. I’ll sing with you. How does that sound?”

[arctxs]

“It sounds great. What do you know? I can figure it out if it’s something I’ve heard; just gimme a name - or a tune, or whatever you think of,” he said, starting up the steps. There was a certain unsteadiness to his gait that he hadn’t felt in a long time, and he wished to grip the railing, but his free hand was his broken one.

[re-divino]

Moving to accommodate him, Elias turned his hips, leaning  to be sure that Nik was comfortable. His hands tangled in the other’s hair, and he folded over on himself, kissing his forehead. “I’m here. I’m here, mi amore.”

[arctxs]

It was a bit before Nik managed to calm, but he wiped at his eyes all the same, slowly sitting up. "If I-- you know what, just . . come with me." The hunter stood, grabbing Elias' hand and giving it a light tug - Lord knew he hadn't eaten, so he didn't even try to pull him up, fairly sure he'd fail to do so. "I want to play guitar."

[re-divino]

“Oh, mio poverino.” Careful, Elias moved, his stitches pulling, to sit with Hnikarr on the sofa. His fingers swept across the other’s cheeks, trying to drive away his tears. It hurt something awful to see him cry like this, when Nik was supposed to be so strong for him. “Piccolo principe. Breathe for me. Deep breaths, c’mon.”

[arctxs]

He stuck close to him as he moved, terrified that he might disappear again if the distance between them became too great. "I'm breathing," he whispered, drawing his legs to his chest. Within a few seconds, his head was in Elias' lap, and his eyes were squeezed shut. "Please don't leave again."

[re-divino]

Letting himself be pulled in, Elias pulled his arms around him, touch gentle. He hated himself for coming back, but Nik was so sweet, so gentle right now, with his soft touch and sad words, and he wondered how the hell he had ever thought it a good idea to leave.

“Come sit down,” he tried, fingers rubbing small circles into his back. “No, no, it’s fine, it’s fine! We’re both okay. Look, I’m safe, I’m not hurt. We just need to take care of you.”

[arctxs]

"Sit down, yeah, let's," he whispered, though he made no move to do so, his chest heaving from his sobs. "There's nothing to take care of; I'm fine. Now that you're here, I'm fine. I promise I'm fine." And yet, he continued to cry, unable to stop himself; now that the tears had begun to flow, he didn't think he could return to being dry-eyed until none were left to escape.

[re-divino]

Taking his hand in both palms despite the grip the other had on him, Elias’s brow furrowed deeply. He couldn’t give a true answer, not with the phone call he had had with Soo. “I don’t want to see you hurt again,” he whispered, one hand going out to cup Hnikarr’s face. “Everything is fine, si, it’s okay.”

[arctxs]

“Is it okay?” he questioned, unsure. “You were gone for-- for so long, and I couldn’t come get you. I wanted to! I would’ve come if I could’ve, but there was-- there were earthquakes and fires and you wouldn’t tell me where you were--” The feelings he’d tried to drown when Elias had returned quickly rose back up, a hiccuping sob interrupting his words and damning him to silence for a moment. It was only another second or two before the tears started to fall again, and Hnikarr hugged the hybrid close, burying his face in his shoulder.

[re-divino]

“Did you break it? Dio, Nik, is it broken?” Soft, careful, Elias pulled away just far enough to observe the other’s hand. He felt sick. He had let Nik do this. He was the cause of this. “Oh, god…Yes it is, yes! It’s important!”

[arctxs]

“Eli-- Eli, yes, it’s broken. I’m sorry; I didn’t mean to . . I was upset! Remember our-- our phone call? I hit the wall, and it didn’t . . it didn’t go well. I’m fine, I swear; I just-- I missed you. I missed you, but you’re back now; everything’s fine. You’re not leaving again, are you?” His good hand gripped Elias’ shoulder, both possessively and fearfully, as though that contact could keep him from running off again.

[re-divino]

Breath rocked from him with the impact of the other against him, Elias placed Dolce on the back of the couch so that he could better wrap his arms around Nik.

“Mi amore, what did you do to yourself?” He whimpered, groping for the other’s wrist delicately. An answer to Nik’s plea could wait.

[arctxs]

“Nothing-- It’s nothing,” he said quickly, wincing at the touch despite the gentle nature of it. “Nothing to worry about, I promise. It’s not important.” Were his eyes still red from crying? They must have been, for he could have sworn tears had been flowing just a few minutes before Elias’ arrival. Worried for a moment over his appearance, he wiped at the dried tracks of tears on his cheeks, though it didn’t do much overall - he was unkempt and disheveled, not to mention barely keeping steady on his feet. A meal a day was not enough for him, but Asmodeus could not do more than that. 

[re-divino]

@arctxs

He hated himself, honestly and truly. He should have been running to the Songs’ house, leaping into Soo’s arms like the stupid, cheesy romance movies he loved, and yet, here he was. Here he was, returning to the home he had just left, with a sleepy puppy in one arm and a bag in the other.

The door swung open quietly, almost silently, and the first thing he could see was the bandage on Nik’s hand. 

“Mi amore…”

[arctxs]

Nik had been curled up on the couch for quite a while, doing nothing but staring across the room. It was only the sound of a voice that drew him from his reverie - not in joy, but rather in panic. “Elias?” The hunter scrambled to his feet, practically diving for him and hugging him tightly. “I’ve missed you-- where’ve you been? Pl--” No sense of composure left, his voice broke, but he made an attempt to recover. “Please, don’t leave again.”

[nicktenebrae-blog]

[arctxs]

Nik Tenebrae

moodboard 1/?

[arctxs]

🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀 - Ask Meme

I.   CREATION        hnikarr was unplanned by his parents

II.  FAMILIAL        he and his brother share no blood

III. ETERNITY        even possessed, he will not live forever

IV. BELONGING        elias is not his and never will be

V.  AFTERMATH        no matter what he does, he cannot avoid his fate

I.  VELLEITY        having done little to further himself, it is doubtful he will become an ancient

II.  TRUTH        his wife did not reveal his intentions to others

III. REPERCUSSION        in not helping elias, he may have doomed himself

IV. OBSCURE        asmodeus is not as good at hiding his feelings as he believes

V.  DELIVERANCE        someday, he will be forgiven

[aneurinbarnardsource]

[arctxs]

call📱 nik ↔ eli

Elias: "Be safe, please, please, Don't-- Don't get hurt. A-as soon as everything is over here. As soon as everything dies down, just...I'll c-come home..."

Nik: "I'll wait for you."

[arctxs]

call📱 nik ↔ eli

Elias: "He's r-really o--" (He flinches at the sound, a quiet sob falling free.) "Oh, dio, mi amore, no...Th-th-they d-di-didn't d-do anything! I sw-swear, mi amore, p-pl-please be good..."

Nik: "I'm sorry! I'm sorry, Elias; it just-- it happened. Okay? I didn't mean to. Shit, that hurt. Shit. I'll be good, I promise. I'll wait for you."

[arctxs]

call📱 nik ↔ eli

Elias: "I-I'm safe here. I promise. I-I just don't think it's...a good idea, for you to come here. Th-there's-- there's a demon here, a-and a vampire, and...they're really old, but...I-I think my friend told them th-the situation, and...I don't know, Nik, I-I just don't want them to hurt you..."

Nik: "I'm a hunter; I can handle 𝑜𝓃𝑒 vampire. If anyone's going to get hurt, it's them, for keeping you from me. I can't fucking believe it-" (He punches the wall hard enough that the plaster cracks, and it's definitely done a number on his hand.) "Shit."

[arctxs]

call📱 nik ↔ eli

Elias: "I-I..I don't...I don't think that's a good idea, Nik. I-I'll...I'll come to you, I-I'll come home..."

Nik: "But . . But I don't know where you are, Elias. I'm scared too, okay? I'm scared because this is the first time in four years that I haven't known where you were."

[arctxs]

call📱 nik ↔ eli

Elias: "Yes. Yes, mi amore, I-I'm-- If you die, I-I'll die, I'll...I don't know, I don't know, I love you, I'm just...so scared...I didn't w-want this, I-I just w-wanted a few days..."

Nik: "I'll see you soon, right? As soon as this is over? Tell me where you are; I'll come get you as soon as I can."

[arctxs]

call📱 nik ↔ eli

Elias: "Oh, god -- God, Nik...Promise me until then! Please. Please, I-I'll come whenever you call me, I-I swear it. It was just for a few days, t-to see how it goes, I-I didn't want this...I don't want to die..."

Nik: "I can't promise. As— As soon as this is over, come home. Okay? You're not going to die! No, you're not going to die. Are you scared I'm going to hurt you? I told you I made a mistake; I'm not going to hurt you again. I'm sorry . . I love you so much, Elias. So much."