A few months ago I peed on a stick, waited a few minutes, prayed, and saw a clear plus sign. The Lord silenced my mind a few weeks prior to this life changing event and clearly told me, "you are pregnant." It had been months since I have heard anything and He hit me with one of the most challenging thoughts a woman can begin to understand. Well, at least a woman in my place, whatever that really means in the long run. The last few months I have mourned, doubted, and feared every fear possible. Want to know what my main fear was? I literally thought to myself, "my friends and family are not going love me once they find out about this." What a LIE, but that lie consumed me for weeks after the news came crashing in. Sounds silly, but I was the most scared I have ever felt in my young adult life. I have been thinking so much about the root of that lie. For years, I was taught intimacy before marriage was like the path to destruction. So, my immediate connection was that this baby was created out of a place of destruction. Wow! So NOT what the Lord has thought or will EVER think! This baby, in so many ways, has already brought redemption to my thinking and feelings. Why am I sharing all of these thoughts with you? This is not justify myself or my actions because as far as I'm concerned God has gifted me LIFE. Pregnancy has its obvious challenges and they tend to be very uncomfortable for me, but how suiting! The gossip of Christ is literally growing within me. What a masterpiece and joy! So, friends, I choose life, not fear, because He has already formed in me the most unique, blessed baby. I am overjoyed to become a mother and this is just the beginning of a sweet, intimate testimony.