I love them more
put all your worries in a paper boat / push it away and watch them float
the choir calls for a new beginning
listen carefully, little one
love endlessly, love eternally
leaves always grow back, so will yours
i'll get us out of here even if I have to put my head on a pike
these woods hold fables of old
if no giant will lend me their shoulder, i shall become one
if all i have is hope, it will have to do
There is always another way
I can fix this. I know i can
We all return to sands eventually
I will always love you. Never forget that.
Will you follow me astray?
I've lost my mind, and I do not wish to find it
Reality is never what you believe it is
Do I confuse you? Do you accept it?
The stars and the seas hold the future in their abyss
Every drop of blood I shed, I shed with joy, if it is a drop of blood you do not lose
Only once you evicserate your inhibitions can you explore the unknown
Do you trust me with your sanity?
I don't know how or why I exist but I will make it your problem
Hmm yes I know how to Human I swear
-all of the above are original, I did not quote them from anyone else :>
picrew I traced for the pixel art:
https://picrew.me/en/image_maker/2069970
I'm just a guy with a couple emotions, a couple ideas, and a couple friends. I'm still not sure where this path will lead. Care to walk it together and find out with me?
Hello there!
hihihi! I'm known as Kiwi, and this is my corner of the giant library of information known as the internet, tucked away behind a maze of bookshelves where the prying eyes can't find us. Curl up in the plush chair with me, pick your favorite stuffie/plushie to bring along, and come relax for a bit before diving back into the confusion and pain that is reality. We can talk, sit here in silence, read books together, whatever you need. When you're happy, I'm happy, okay? Door is always open, whether you've come sobbing, splintering, or shattered. Whatever you're going through, whatever you need me for, don't hesitate to reach out. We'll sit in the plush chair together, and you can tell me what's wrong.
credit @sysboxes
✧Aroace if you couldn't already tell
(romance positive, ace-spike)
✧ Gender: Idk something that's not binary still not sure yet
✧Pronouns: Any. Like, use a different one every time if you want (but lean fem!)
✧Location: On lucky days it's the library. Most days they just send me to The Pit of Despair tho :(
✧Race: Asian. That's all you get okay?
✧Love languages: Mainly physical touch and quality time
✧Incredibly ambiverted (like, a literal 51/49 split I wish I was kidding but that's what the 16 personalities test said)
✧ Most of my posts will be tagged with #a kiwi conundrum or #a kiwi confession or #a kiwi conversation
✧Asks will be tagged with #a kiwi gets questioned? and posts centered around moths will be tagged with #a kiwi and a moth (trust me, this tag is used more than you'd expect) and posts involving gaining a new mutual will be tagged #a kiwi made a friend :D and posts that are queued are tagged #kiwi q
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Any mental illnesses listed here have been discussed with a therapist, but not all are diagnosed
✧ I'm supposed to be human but I don't really know who believes that anymore
✧I'm your guide to the faewilds
✧ I am a sopping wet bundle of emotions
✧ I could always use another hug
✧ I will always jump at the chance to give someone else a hug
✧ I'm at least 17% music and vibes
✧ People pleaser at heart, but it's okay because you being happy makes me happy
✧ procrastination nation
✧ I don’t understand societal norms and I’m done trying
✧ ADHD
✧ I’M THE MAGIC MAN
✧ Don’t ever worry about bothering me or making me annoyed with your presence or messages. As long as you’re talking to me, no matter what it’s about, you’re making my day better
✧ Biggest fears are the concept of permanence, being left by everyone I care about, and the deep blue
✧ If separation anxiety had a “human” embodiment I would be it
✧ Rowing is the fun
✧ unstable as hell
✧ Still not sure which personality is mine (I’M TRYING OKAY?)
✧ The mom friend when needed but doesn’t act like it
✧ Trying so desperately to appear sane
✧ Books are my safe space
✧The only time I feel safe is when being hugged by someone I truly trust
✧ Oldest brother
✧ If I’m on tumblr it means I’m avoiding reality
✧ I will always want to make a new friend
✧I will never have enough attention or affection. I just… it ever doesn’t fill up fully. It’s never enough :(
✧ Perpetually touch starved
✧ Still trying to learn that I’m allowed to be loved without meeting any requirements first
✧ Trying and failing, but we’ll get there one day
✧ Incredibly incredibly needy. I apologize in advance
✧ I will do anything and everything in my power to avoid an argument. I love debates, but emotion fueled arguments are the bane of my existence
✧ Schedules are also the bane of my existence. I feel trapped and shackled, as if someone took me out of my safe and warm surroundings and tried to beat the creativity out of me
✧ Please never hesitate to show me the cool new rock you found
✧ Please never hesitate to show me a cool new animal you found
✧ Please never hesitate to show me your trauma or worries. I’m around so that you guys stay around
✧If you’re reading this you’re not allowed to die. Them's the rules.
✧ Seriously, if anything’s wrong, message me. We’ll sit in the plush chair together
✧ I love you unless explicitly stated otherwise (yes, even you)
✧ OSDD type-1
✧ ↑ Everyone say hi to ༄ Miyla (she/her) and ❖ Ranai (he/him)
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༄ Miyla: OC turned alter when my mind tried to find a way to cope with my intense need for affection that was not being fulfilled, happened about a year ago
༄ Loves hugs and kisses and general displays of affection
༄Forgotten pagan moth deity
༄ The only person/thing that’s holding me together right now
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❖ Ranai: He's been around for as long as I can remember
❖ Hellishly depressing. Like, constantly telling me to kill myself (which is really rude tbh)
❖ Tends to be the reason I fall back into destructive habits
❖ Not all bad. He can act as a sort of emotional shield for when I am HURTING but still need to mask. And when he's not depressing he's nice to talk to
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If you have any questions or are confused about anything I just listed, come ask me! If it’s written here, it means I’m open and willing to talk about it. I love y’all!
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Life is… really confusing. But it’s better with friends! Care to join me, and we can try to navigate it together?
kiwi help i just came to the conclusion that im not friends with someone i thought i was friends with i hate it here im never doing anythiing ever again
oh darling
hugs you <3
i know the feeling, gods i know the feeling
holds you
try not to let it get to you that much . i know that's so much easier said than done
but just. you HAVE friends. i am your friend. i dont want to speak for other people, but IIII AM your friend <3 i know it sucks so much but please remember you're loved <3
when you think you have nothing left you still have the moon, sunsets, your favorite music, paper to write on, warm clothes, new starts and your cute self
