Mr. King Bear

I am 24 and is currently based in Dubai. I'm working as a Digital Marketing Executive in a Editainment Company.

[arthfael-blog1]

Do you need a friend?

Do I? When I feel belonged and lonely at the same time. When I hate the fact that they decide for myself. When I cannot completely liberate. When you already have one. Now, do I really need a friend?

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My Not-So Happy Birthday Review

You feel shit. They want to celebrate but you resist. You have lost the fun and the point of celebrating. You prefer to sleep. You write about how bad it was and it still is. You have a life that suck, at least at the moment.

[henrycharlesbukowski]

I would certainly never be able to be happy, to get married, I could never have children. Hell, I couldn’t even get a job as a dishwasher.

Ham on Rye - Charles Bukowski (via henrycharlesbukowski)

[ihealmywoundswithgrief-blog]

maybe a damned good night’s sleep will bring me back to a gentle sanity. but at the moment, I look about this room and, like myself, it’s all in disarray: things fallen out of place, cluttered, jumbled, lost, knocked over, and I can’t put it straight, don’t want to.

Zero, Charles Bukowski (via ihealmywoundswithgrief)

[sigh]

[henrycharlesbukowski]

[arthfael-blog1]

People empty me. I have to get away to refill. - Charles Bukowski

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Life

You should feel pain

when you lose an important person

when you fall in love

when you fail to achieve your goal

You should also hate

because your mother left you so early

because you think you are not normal

because you think you have lost yourself

You should also be scared

when no one is there to guide you

when you can't love the person you want

when you feel uncertain about your life

You should also be lonely

when she left you very young

when you can't ask for the right love

when no one could understand you

Then on you can only be happy

She left you to become strong

to choose the road ahead of you

and become the person you want to be

Then on you can only be strong

and take the road by your means

believe on your truest self

and struggle for your dream

Then on you can only be alive

when you feel her in your heart

the sacrifice becomes part

and the risk was worth the take

You should feel the pain

and the value that it brings

You should also hate

and let love be its gate

[arthfael-blog1]

I have my heart sank in the river of life

I have my heart sank in the river of life I lost myself and forgot how it was to be me They told me to play the game wisely but I was not wise enough to know the agenda It was foolish of me to parade with them It was foolish of me to sing in the chorus At times I felt the choke in my heart at times I felt the tickle in my heart I thought It was nothing but normal. it was a trap. I woke up in a prison there was no one, not even a single guard there was only me and it was hard to get out it was hard to bail when you are a criminal of an undefined crime when you are a sinner of unkown sin. I managed to stand up I rose in the crowd. I thought I was winning. It was part of the plot. I'm losing my gravity towards my own life I'm becoming a melting fire in the cold ice I was upsidedown totally capsized. I lost my mind in the dark room where there was small coloful lights I felt the stigma in my bone the pure blood of greatfulness embraced me it was out of this world I got addicted to the scent I thought I will live forever The bell rang I woke up again. this time not in prison but in a small hut I was very far from my home but the place felt like it was mine I thought I will be eaten by the brightness but it was glorifying my presence i felt like i was in place they called heaven but i couldn't think of it as I was meant to hell i heard soft voices they were comforting it was relaxing. my heart sank in the river of life But I thought I will stay there forever I had it rescued it survived i did not drown i had my second life to live this time i have safe canoe to hold my heart and never sink again. #poem #poetry #thefrustratedwriterwroteagain #mynotsowittythoughts

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When?

When? when the sun is tired to give off its light? When the place becomes creep and holy dark? When the end is just street away from your heart? It's not a movie. And you don't have to pinch a skin or bite a tongue to wake up. Your eyes are wide open, your consciousness is kicking, your heart is pumping, your blood has its stream, your brain is electric. So when? When everything is old and rusty? When oxygen becomes manmade? When density is obsolete? I will say when, when the birds can still touch my shoulder, when I can hit the road like it's forever. When I can still climb that old tree without a trainer. When I can swim with my only slipper paddle. When I can breathe the smoke of the tree. I will do it. I will not wait. When is not tomorrow. When is not yesterday. When is Now.

#poem #poetry #original #thefrustratedwriterwroteagain #mynotsowittythoughts

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I will tell you something...

I will tell you something; A story about me

I want to tell you something; please let me be

I will tell you something; I hope you understand

I want to tell you something; this feeling I can’t stand

I will tell you something; I know you'll be surprised

But this is not just something; you wish for me to hide

I will tell you something; don't cage me in your mind

I can have someone or something; whoever, whatever I find

I will tell you something; A story I can't tell

my heart is beating faster; it will surely ring the bell

I will tell you something; I want to live my life

I'm not fooling or faking; I'm just not who I am inside

I will tell you something; please don't let me cry

They are done with beating; when they have all defied

I will tell you something; It's good that I am me

I paid the price of hurting; to be happy to be free 

[arthfael-blog1]

Friends.

I still remember the day we first met.

It was on the beach during sunset.

I was attracted by your beautiful brown eyes,

forgetting everything ‘coz you’re beautiful i realized.

we both smile to each other, to satisfy we get much closer.

I asked your name and you asked mine too.

we became friends in just a simple I do.

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I’m over it again.

Is there something that you like to tell me?

I there something that you like to say?

I never want to tell you all about me, baby.

Because I do not want to hurt you when I say,

“I’m over it again. I do not know but I do not feel the same.”

I do not want to hurt you but that is the truth.

so this time I am letting you go.

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This is me running away from all the negativity in life. I surely miss wakeboarding. 

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Moving Forward ♕

This Tumblr Account will be my notepad where I will post all my write ups, share whatever interesting events I have been to and just simply throw in random thoughts (I hope you won’t get annoyed, this is mine anyway... peace (｡◕‿◕｡) . 

Since it has been a long time that I managed my old Tumblr, btw I am not able to access it anymore, this time I will make it a point to update and post in as much as I could. Surely, I badly need a wall to shout out my nerves, so please bear with me :)

I hope my posts will interest you as it SOMETIMES interests me too...ha ha ha

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Love lots (◕‿-)