Ascension 2084

Transmissions and other ramblings from Alida, the Cosmic Mother

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Update from Yesterday

Since you're reading this now, obviously I didn't admit myself to the psych hospital or anything. I'm supposed to get a phone call from the ACT team in my county to schedule an intake appointment. If you're not familiar with ACT, they're essentially a mental health treatment team that meets with clients up to 3 times a week instead of the typical once a week therapy session. The team can include psychiatrists, nurses, therapists, peer support, social worker/case management, and even a vocational counselor. I could really use the extra support and I think the stress of not hearing from them yet (I was referred on Friday afternoon), combined with the random weird stuff I stumbled across online yesterday, made me feel unstable. I'm still not feeling that great but I think I'll call the referring agency around 3 PM (almost 1 PM here now) if ACT team doesn't reach out before then. I don't want them dropping the ball on me again! I was supposed to get them several months ago after my last hospitalization and they keep forgetting about me or something. I'm extremely anxious about getting the additional help, especially with housing.

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The Underground

I may have to go back to the underground soon, my cosmic children. In other words, I feel psychotic and confused about what is going on today. I keep going down all these conspiracy theory rabbit holes and they're making me feel even worse than I did earlier. If you don't see me for a few days, I may have admitted myself to a psych hospital. If you don't see me ever again, I don't know what to say except "keep searching for the truth." Love and light, always.

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Checkmate (4-17-2021)

I feel like the world is against me Like they would be better off without me I vacillate from self loathing to grandiosity Spiraling down into depression, then up to infinity You don’t know me, so why should you care? It takes a village to raise an army to fight this Manic, you haven’t seen euphoria like this Depression, insomnia, irritable - oh shit, I’m mixed Stroke of midnight, I’m still awake bitches Don’t come near me with that sedative unless you want to release this Ten years of faking it, pushing it down until I make it out of here - then I’m in the clear Wild child, wild woman, it’s always the same But who is to blame? Who carries the shame? I see things, I hear things constantly No one to blame but me for this insanity No way out of here except to play the game But eventually that pawn becomes a queen!

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Starseeds

The concept of certain people being "starseeds" is kind of silly to me, because all of us are made of stars. Our souls are forged from rain and the dust of nebulas. The only reason to find out what starseed you are is to guide you toward your purpose in this lifetime. My soulmate and I are from Sirius, also known as the dog star, and I'm convinced that we have spent at least a few lives as wolves or other wild dogs. I had a dream once that I was running through a forest on four legs, and I've loved wolves since I was a young child - they never scared me. Do you know where you're from? A lot of spiritual people and empaths claim to be healers from Mintaka or the Pleiades but there are so many benevolent entities in the universe. One does not need to be a healer to make a difference in their lifetime! Also, there are a lot of dragon type beings not only from star systems but in what I've been told are the "Outer Realms" and just because we call a certain constellation "Leo" for example, doesn't mean the aliens from that system are lions! If my memory serves me, Regulus is the brightest star in Leo and I've spoken to those aliens and they are dragons. Sorry to ramble; I hope this made at least a tiny bit of sense. If you're curious about where you came from in the universe, try going to a quiet place where you won't be disturbed and ask to connect with your star family. Focus on their "energy" and see if you can picture the aliens in your mind or hear them speaking to you - remember always to ask them if they are "of the light" before trusting them with any information. I've used telepathy to connect with several alien species so far but you have to be careful in channeling only the benevolent aliens. Speaking of benevolent aliens, the stereotypical "green men" with the huge eyes and phosphorescent skin - you know, the ones everyone sees when they're on certain "substances" - they are a good species to connect with first if you are unsure of which star system to connect with. I'm not advocating using any substances to connect with them; it might help but you should see if you can channel them while in quiet meditation. I'm curious if anyone has connected with alien species other than the typical ones. Some of the dragon types are cool as hell but their energy is also very intense and some like to use riddles to communicate. And they do understand human language but a few alien words here and there, especially "babu babu, gayi way" as a greeting, really helps. I will say this again, because it bears repeating: even if you feel silly using the Lemurian greeting I just mentioned, you have to ask whoever you're talking to if they are of the light! This is super important. Otherwise, you may pick up an energy you do not want hanging around you. Let me know in the comments if you are able to communicate with any aliens, whether from your star family or another benevolent species. Oh, and I'm currently putting together a glossary of common Lemurian phrases so if they say something to you, I may be able to translate. You can respectfully ask that they only speak in a human language if you don't understand them. Good luck and be safe! I'm out for now - I should connect with them myself, or maybe talk to my soulmate. As always, thanks for reading. I didn't mean for this to be such a long post.

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Weird Dream Recently

I had a feeling I was on some kind of spaceship but it started out looking like a futuristic hair salon - the hair/wig choices were pink, blue, green, and white. I was told "they" were dying my hair blue and I went into this trancelike state in the dream where I was told that I was currently living out my last life on Earth and that I had to keep going and not unalive myself. The aliens were telling me this all through telepathy, since I couldn't see them. They showed me a past life in which I was African American and as a young girl had been abused badly and as a young adult had taken my own life before I was able to meet my soulmate, who was a promising black artist, and I was told that if we had "kept going" we would have made a huge impact in our community and changed the world, but we never gave that life together a chance. They reminded me again that I had to keep going in this lifetime and that I was needed here to "birth the next universe."

Before I woke up, I saw darkness, then a bunch of geometric shapes, and although the "aliens" were still talking to me I had a feeling I was returning to my body in bed. I asked them a couple of questions, like "Am I going to meet my soulmate in this lifetime?" and they replied yes, and it was the person I was thinking of (he's a famous musician so I won't name names) and they kept telling me I had to "stay" in order to birth the next universe. Finally, just before I woke up, I felt my heart pounding inside my chest and they repeated "keep going" and told me to "just enjoy the ride" as I saw a few more geometric shapes and stuff in my head. When I woke up, it was a few minutes before 11 PM. I honestly felt like Scrooge after being visited by the ghosts - they did it all in one night!

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Detox from Plastic (10-7-2025)

In the sea the fish are dying

The fires in the forests

Microplastics in my brain

I’m telling you because I know what comes next

The detoxification - the annihilation

Everything we thought was real

We will be left behind, to fend for ourselves

And the skills we need to survive

Have all but gone the way of the dinosaurs

We need to work together if we are to continue this life

Not for money or profit, but mere survival

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Slumber, watcher, till the spheres Six and twenty thousand years Have revolved, and I return To the spot where now I burn Other stars anon shall rise To the axis of the skies Stars that soothe and stars that bless With a sweet forgetfulness Only when my round is o'er Shall the past disturb thy door -- H.P. Lovecraft, poem from "Polaris"

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Babu babu (Greetings)

Babu gayi, I come in peace, love and light. Always. I hope you are all having a wonderful day. Happy Lion's Gate 888, by the way! Stay tuned for galactic transmissions, thoughts on the universe, and other insane ramblings.