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Dear J,

Meeting you was unexpected, I was so scared. I was not gonna show up that time, I was about to cancel on the last minute. My friend told me if I won’t meet you, I’ll definitely regret it. 

Being with you and talking you was no effort. It clicks and it syncs. Maybe to all the ones that I dated you were the one I am most attracted to. I was not afraid to show you, or do something for you. Maybe it was brief and you are going through something and you honestly told me that. I appreciate the honesty that we had to each other. I was afraid to become vulnerable again, to share pieces of me my fears and insecurities. Maybe we were rushing, two desperate hearts craving for something real and happy, maybe there was a connection.  I’m afraid that I may not meet someone that connects to me the way you do. I’m overthinking. Maybe I’m just romanticising what we had. Thank you for doing things with me and introducing me to your friends. It was fun.

I don’t know if our paths will cross again but somewhere deep inside of me is wishing you will come back. 

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Hello A,

Sana maging okay ka. Wag mo na saktan mga tao sa paligid mo dahil nasasaktan ka. Ikaw lang mahihirapan. Kung kailangan mong pagdaanan lahat ng bagay para maging okay ka, go gawin mo. Pero wag mo takasan.

Kailangan kita bitawan. Madali ako maattach e. Mauubos ako. Dapat di ako nag eexplain e. Thank you sa attention and sa affection. It was nice meeting you. Bye 👋🏼

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Minsan ang weird ng attraction, may dadating na guy tapos you like how he thinks, his looks, how he talks cause he all ideal to you just like what you are searching for pero suddenly bakit di mo pa rin gusto

But then nung may dumating na guys na taliwas sa pinaniniwalaan mo, sa mga gusto at interes mo, sa “ideal standard mo” bakit yun pa yung gustong gusto mo?

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“Do boys only love when its torture?”

Quoting from Taylor Swift’s Blank Space, do boys really love when its just torture? Is the game of “chase” really something to work for?

I recently got tired in chasing, playing hard to get, and lying to yourself that you don’t like when actually you really do. I have been single for four years and i’m tired of manipulating love. I am a romantic who doesn’t believe that love should be played. Naturally love must be authentic and true.

A prof in college told me one afternoon that there is politics and economics in love. In a relationship, there is someone who loves more and the other who loves less. The one who loves less controls the relationship. Sometimes i wonder why those who give more are the ones often left with nothing. In a generation filled with hookups and one-time lovers, did we turn ourselves into autopilots hurting each other and continously creating more emotional baggages.

Did people learn how to save themselves that’s why they choose to be the love as a lesser person? I hope one day i find that love that I won’t feel the need to torture anyone. Happy Valentine’s Day People

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Dear K, 

Recently my emotions are in mayhem.

This past few month, I “dated” a lot of guys then one random day I stumble in your profile and all the hurt suddenly came back. I still can’t see you with someone else. You were never been mine in the first place. I can’t say if I still love you, I don’t even know if I was in love back then.

You were my favorite story to tell. You were my favorite heartbreak.

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❝ Oh, my friends, my friends forgive me— that I live and you are gone. There’s a grief that can’t be spoken, there’s a pain goes on and on .

Oh, my friends, my friends, don’t ask me what your sacrifice was for. Empty chairs at empty tables, where my friends will sing no more.❞

Send me GIF requests, if you want! :) I like making these.

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Finally, the Philippines has made something worth watching.

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CALARUEGA RETREAT HOUSE, Nasugbu, Batangas. There is no doubt why this place is famous for weddings. It is named and replicated after the hometown of St. Dominic of Calaruega.

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To illustrate our increasing dependence on technology in a raw, personal way, artist Ted Lawson used a robotic printer to draw a nude self-portrait using his own blood, sixpenceee

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Taking nudes to another level 

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TABULARASA

Posting nudes is like a taboo in my place. Recently, I met someone who has an interest with these kind of art. Just appreciating this kind of canvass. Sorry for my petite physique hahahaha.

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Ayoko na sa lamig Dahil yun na lang ang nabibigay mo Dahil yun na lang ang nararamdaman ko Ayoko na sa gabi Dahil ang dilim dilim nito Dahil nakakatakot ang pagkawala mo Ayoko na sa mga bagay na nagpapaalala sayo Nasasaktan lang ako. Paulit ulit na ayoko Pero andito pa rin ako. Naghihintay sayo.