My Little Secret...

SW: 115lbs/52kg CW: GW 1: 100lbs/45kg GW 2: 90lbs/40kg UGW: 85lbs/38kg I just want to be sick & dainty & fragile again.

[skinnyemmy]

[slimpink-deactivated20201227]

she’s so beautiful ✨

[asapslime]

Everyone talks about how good it feels to lose weight with ed, but not a lot of people talk about how it feels to gain all the weight(and much more) back.

I have gained 105 lbs (around 48 kg) because my “recovery” turned into a constant binge-eating.

Nothing fits me anymore.

No more shopping at my favorite stores

No more wanting to go out

No more guys having crushes on me

No more being popular..

I took all those things for granted. I was never happy with my body, always wanted to lose more, but looking back, I should have been. I’m not saying I was happy at that time, I had no energy whatsoever, hair falling out and nails brittle.

But now it’s hard for me to walk upstairs without running out of breath, I have a lot of knee problems because of my weight, stretch marks because of rapid gain weight, being moody all the time because I hate the way I look.

People are constantly commenting on my weight, but this time it’s not them asking me to stop losing weight, this time it’s them asking me to lose weight.

And if only I could tell them that I’m trying, that I’m still not eating properly, that I have probably fasted for more hours than they can ever imagine, I just end up binging because food is the only thing that makes me happy, even tho it makes me the saddest and makes me hate myself too. But since I’m fat, nobody would notice, no one does, when I don’t eat breakfast or dinner for days, or eat an apple in front of my friends every day. “Oh you’re trying to lose weight? That’s great!” Yeh, if you call eating just one apple in three days great, it sure is.

[naiveasf]

[konoko]

[proto-homo]

All my ladies who impulse buy to feel alive, make some noise!!!!

[mysoulcrieswithyou]

Red thinspo

[nomediocre]

[boymadeofglass]

I wanna be scary thin but I can’t even get normal thin.

[skinnylooksgoodonyou]

Um, same

[asecretmess]

i can’t wait to lose weight and be skinny and toned again and wear prettu underwear and crop tops and cute outfits

[asecretmess]

broke my fast (i made it almost 48 hours) and ate 712 calories and i want to die.

[asecretmess]

i’m so fucking sick of being a fat fucking mess why can’t i just be skinny

[asecretmess]

tracking my food

breakfast today:

- 1 weetabix (67)

- 50ml skim milk (17)

- 2 strawberries (10)

dinner:

- sweet chili prepped chicken (108)

- 3 romaine lettuce leaves (15)

Daily: 217 calories

[sevendiets]

don’t let this be another wasted summer

[its-blubun]

Diet Dr Pepper will always reign supreme over Diet Coke

I’m not sorry

[prettygirls-dont-eat]

Honestly, I am such a better version of myself when I’m restricting/fasting.

I keep my room clean, I am more organized, I take better care of my skin, I wash my hair every 2 days, I shave daily, I’m on top of my work, I put more effort in my make-up and clothes, I am more social and I do a lot more instead of always staying in my room.

It’s not just about becoming skinny, it’s about becoming perfect.

[ourdaysgoneby]

summer dreams ~