Damaged Beauty

Artemisia Selwyn. 28. Ex Huffelpuff Perfect. Auror.

[aselwyn]

Although she really didn't like Evan Rosier, Artemisia needed to put it on side. Just this time. Hearing about his daughter was quite unexpected and something she will probably never have. In the past, she would often think of being a mother, but right now, it seems impossible. Not like she even knew it was possible to have kids. With the fact who she was now, the probability of it was very poor. 

"Well, I guess I have always been that way. That is one constant that surprisingly didn't change. How old is she?" 

[aselwyn]

Although she really didn't like Evan Rosier, Artemisia needed to put it on side. Just this time. Hearing about his daughter was quite unexpected and something she will probably never have. In the past, she would often think of being a mother, but right now, it seems impossible. Not like she even knew it was possible to have kids. With the fact who she was now, the probability of it was very poor. 

"Well, I guess I have always been that way. That is one constant that surprisingly didn't change. How old is she?" 

[marxmckinnon]

Marlene nodded her head and tried not to sigh. It was more than just missing her old life, she missed her brother. It was hard, living with the crushing guilt every single day that told her that it was all her fault that all of this had happened. Guilt kept her up every night, and she knew that it would for the rest of her life.

"Yeah. Can't go back, though, can we?" She said with a sigh. Glancing down at the cake, she didn't really want it, but that would be rude to deny it.

"You should get a fork too, I can't have this all by myself," she offered, taking a bite of the cake. "It's good, thank you."

[aselwyn]

It was hard to feel well lately, Artemisia knew that the best. After becoming a werewolf, she tried to find the reason to live. The worst thing was that it wasn't even near over. She knew very well that the Dark Lord won't be calm until she join him.

"Yes, that is unfortunate. I would gladly go back." She admitted and it was all true. She couldn't bare with her situation, not by herself anyway.

"Oh, well, I can't say no to cake."

[aselwyn]

It looked like everybody already choose their path expect of her. Artemisia really thought that people will have different point of views in this situation. It doesn't need to be all black and white. There is grey as well and that was definitely her.

Looking at Rosier, she needed to admit she didn't hate him. She just personally didn't like the choice he made for himself. But who knows what kind of reasons people have to be next to the Dark Lord. Maybe he is just being better towards them.

"It's not too bad, I can't complain too much. I am good as long as I got my first coffee."

[aselwyn]

It looked like everybody already choose their path expect of her. Artemisia really thought that people will have different point of views in this situation. It doesn't need to be all black and white. There is grey as well and that was definitely her.

Looking at Rosier, she needed to admit she didn't hate him. She just personally didn't like the choice he made for himself. But who knows what kind of reasons people have to be next to the Dark Lord. Maybe he is just being better towards them.

"It's not too bad, I can't complain too much. I am good as long as I got my first coffee."

[sofiadaily]

Sofia Carson photographed by Nino Muñoz

[strangebastan]

aselwyn​:

Artemisia took a look of the man standing in front of her. She knew him, not very well but she was talking with him few times. Her common sense was telling her to back off and to try to run away. She did have a trust issues but on the other hand she needed help.

Rabastan Lestrange probably was Death Eater, Artemisia kind of knew it. But she didn’t want to make a wrong assumption or being led by hatred. She offered him a little smile, who knows how long she didn’t smile.

“Yeah, thank you. This is the first time it was this bad.”

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A smile. That was positive progress. Yeah, sure, it was small progress and she’d looked arguable concerned to see him moments before, it was progress nonetheless. He’d take it. 

No beating around the bush then either if she was willing to acknowledge it so directly. “I don’t know much about how it works,” he said carefully. Bastan was curious, but he didn’t want to over-pry and scare her away. “What’s it usually like?”

[aselwyn]

Artemisia didn't know how to react in the moment. She wasn't used to anyone taking care of her for a long time now. Even if it was in hospital. He didn't trust Rabastan at all, but she was conscious she needs a help right now. The pain wasn't too bad at the moment, so that wasn't a bad sign either.

"Well, sometimes it comes with full moon when I am fully ready. But last night was totally unexpected because it wasn't full moon. It is usually much less painful, to be honest. This was the worst ever."

[aselwyn]

She couldn’t understand why she did this. It’s not like anyone was even trying to make her happy. Artemisia was sad most of the time. It didn’t matter even the fact she was a truly brilliant auror.

Marlene was probably going through a lot of things herself as well. If something, Artemisia knew how to feel the pain. That feeling for her was so common as brushing your teeth in the morning or shower.

She sat down next to her, even she wasn’t sure how smart it was. It was much stronger than her ; the urge to help everyone even when she really couldn’t help herself. There was a nice feel to it which makes her feeling good after a while.

“Is your birthday today? You seem to be incredibly sad if that’s the case.”

[marxmckinnon]

Marlene smiled faintly at Artemisia. Even though they were both in the same department, Marlene hadn't worked much with her. It was just the way that things went, she supposed. She appreciated the effort though.

It was hard to explain how she had managed to ruin her entire life, and her family's life too. It was hard to look her parents in the eyes when she knew that it was her fault that Marz was gone.

How did you tell your parents that you had joined the Death Eaters not because she wanted to but because she had to? How did you explain that even though she made the choice they wanted she was still being punished?

"It is," she replied with a faint smile. "Just...one of those days, you know? Missing someone that should be here and all of that. If it were up to me I would be home tonight, but I know he would want me to celebrate."

[aselwyn]

Artemisia didn't see that kind of sadness in someone for a really long time. The last time she saw it was herself. She really felt like she doesn't belong anyway. She could always try to find other werewolves but she knew it wouldn’t be good. She wasn’t a born werewolf so she didn’t belong anywhere in reality.

She offered a little smile to Marlene, it seemed like they have so much in common. Artemisia lost everything and Marlene was probably pretty much the same.

“I guess we all want to change certain things in our lives. I miss my old life as well. You better eat that cake now or I probably will.”

[aselwyn]

Artemisia decided to go to Leaky Cauldron after a long time. She wasn't sure whether it is a good idea or not. She was isolating herself quite a lot in the last time while she really shouldn't. People were selfish and weak and they couldn't understand her pain. She wasn't responsible for what happened to her. For such a long period of time, this was the first time Artemisia was looking after herself first. Enough is enough.

When she entered the pub, she could see a few looks in her direction. She couldn't even care anymore. Sometimes she would feel like she went through so much pain that it didn't matter anymore. They couldn't hurt her more than they already did, she repeated that to herself.

She has noticed a woman sitting all by herself, looking confused. It was probably her birthday, she thought. After everything what happened, Artemisia didn't even had a strength to celebrate her birthday. For what anyway? For the fact she is living damn beast? She went to the waitress and asked for a cake. She didn't know why in the hell is she doing that or what will woman think of her, but she did it anyway.

"Um, hi. You looked like you need something sweet so I just wanted to give you this."

[marxmckinnon]

Birthdays signified the passing of time and of change. Marlene didn't want change. She wanted to go back in time to her seventeen year old self to tell her to close her mouth, to stay under the radar, to stop trying to be different. If she had heeded her parents and older brothers warnings than maybe she wouldn't have the damned mark, Marz and Lily would still be here, and her life would be okay. But she couldn't go back in time. She was stuck in this miserable present.

Every time she looked at the mark on her forearm she was reminded of all of her mistakes, and how her life was no longer her own. Did she think that she was going to make it through this? No. When she was no longer useful she was sure he would throw her away, and her parents would have another child to grieve.

She had no idea why she had even attempted this. The longer that she was at her little party the more that she desperately wanted to run away from it all. McKinnons didn't run away from their problems, but Marlene was starting to think that maybe they should.

Glancing up, recognition passed through her gaze as she looked at Artemisia. "Thanks," Marlene said, her voice a little hoarse. "That's really kind of you."

[aselwyn]

She couldn’t understand why she did this. It’s not like anyone was even trying to make her happy. Artemisia was sad most of the time. It didn’t matter even the fact she was a truly brilliant auror.

Marlene was probably going through a lot of things herself as well. If something, Artemisia knew how to feel the pain. That feeling for her was so common as brushing your teeth in the morning or shower.

She sat down next to her, even she wasn’t sure how smart it was. It was much stronger than her ; the urge to help everyone even when she really couldn’t help herself. There was a nice feel to it which makes her feeling good after a while.

“Is your birthday today? You seem to be incredibly sad if that’s the case.”

[strangebastan]

aselwyn​:

Pain

Where? St. Mungo’s Hospital for Magical Maladies and Injuries

Who? Open

As always, she could feel the pain all over her body. Even with the potion she was taking to release the pain wouldn’t work this time. She went through transformation so many times and she was sure it will stop. But it didn’t and it was all because of her. All because she couldn’t deal with the fact who she is now.

Barely walking, she made it to the St Mungo’s Hospital. This was surprisingly the first time she was that injured. Damn Death Eaters. Even after what he did to her, the Dark Lord didn’t give up. It was like she had no other choice than to join Death Eaters. By knowing herself it will happen over her dead body.

She wasn’t really far away of being dead either. The worst was is not being able to talk to anyone, to share her fears, to get advice. She never was so alone as now. But Artemisia could manage it, she will continue to go on, no matter what.

“Hi, I need a little help here, if you don’t mind.”

Originally posted by wyngarde

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Although his healers trusted Bastan enough to source and take his potions himself when he needed another dose, they insisted he come in for occasional checkups. That’s why he was there waiting to head up and see a healer when he heard someone shuffling in.

He wasn’t sure she’d been speaking to him, but Bastan knew Artemisia Selwyn. They’d interacted some over the years, yeah, but it was her reputation that stood ahead of her. Bastan knew he should be afraid. Common sense said to be wary of a werewolf after a full moon, but if there was anything his recent interactions in his new circles had shown him, it was that a werewolf was perfectly human outside the moon itself.

“I gotcha,” Bastan said as he took her arm and put a hand against her waist to try and give her some stability. She looked rough. Was it always like this for werewolves after a moon? Truly horrify if it was. “Let’s get you up to the front desk.” He looked up and made eye contact with the witch waiting there. 

[aselwyn]

Artemisia took a look of the man standing in front of her. She knew him, not very well but she was talking with him few times. Her common sense was telling her to back off and to try to run away. She did have a trust issues but on the other hand she needed help.

Rabastan Lestrange probably was Death Eater, Artemisia kind of knew it. But she didn’t want to make a wrong assumption or being led by hatred. She offered him a little smile, who knows how long she didn’t smile.

“Yeah, thank you. This is the first time it was this bad.”

[aselwyn]

Pain

Where? St. Mungo’s Hospital for Magical Maladies and Injuries

Who? Open

As always, she could feel the pain all over her body. Even with the potion she was taking to release the pain wouldn't work this time. She went through transformation so many times and she was sure it will stop. But it didn't and it was all because of her. All because she couldn't deal with the fact who she is now.

Barely walking, she made it to the St Mungo's Hospital. This was surprisingly the first time she was that injured. Damn Death Eaters. Even after what he did to her, the Dark Lord didn't give up. It was like she had no other choice than to join Death Eaters. By knowing herself it will happen over her dead body.

She wasn't really far away of being dead either. The worst was is not being able to talk to anyone, to share her fears, to get advice. She never was so alone as now. But Artemisia could manage it, she will continue to go on, no matter what.

"Hi, I need a little help here, if you don't mind."

[marxmckinnon]

Date: January 25th Location: Leaky Cauldron Open

How did that Muggle song go? It's my party and I'll cry if I want to? It may have been Marlene's birthday but she hadn't been in the mood to celebrate. It was hard to want to celebrate anything when Marz wasn't there to celebrate. Marlene's birthday had always been a big deal, birthdays in the McKinnon family were big deals. Marz would always want to go out drinking and partying, and they were always one of the few times that the McKinnon siblings would ignore any drama or problems to drink together and enjoy themselves.

But now he wasn't here. He wasn't here and everything felt wrong. Marlene had just thrown together a small little thing at the Leaky Cauldron, she hadn't wanted anything more. If it were up to her, she wouldn't even be celebrating.

"Oh, um, thank you," Marlene said distractedly when someone came up to her. She hadn't even really heard what they had said, she just...assumed they were wishing her a happy birthday.

[aselwyn]

Artemisia decided to go to Leaky Cauldron after a long time. She wasn't sure whether it is a good idea or not. She was isolating herself quite a lot in the last time while she really shouldn't. People were selfish and weak and they couldn't understand her pain. She wasn't responsible for what happened to her. For such a long period of time, this was the first time Artemisia was looking after herself first. Enough is enough.

When she entered the pub, she could see a few looks in her direction. She couldn't even care anymore. Sometimes she would feel like she went through so much pain that it didn't matter anymore. They couldn't hurt her more than they already did, she repeated that to herself.

She has noticed a woman sitting all by herself, looking confused. It was probably her birthday, she thought. After everything what happened, Artemisia didn't even had a strength to celebrate her birthday. For what anyway? For the fact she is living damn beast? She went to the waitress and asked for a cake. She didn't know why in the hell is she doing that or what will woman think of her, but she did it anyway.

"Um, hi. You looked like you need something sweet so I just wanted to give you this."

[sofiadaily]

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[aselwyn]

Where? Borealis Cafe

Who? Open

Artemisia really didn’t know what to do, everything seemed to be even harder for her. People are say that with time everything is getting better but not in her case and definitely not now. She wanted to escape to another country but what would she do? All she knows about is this world. Even if she tries, how could she manage in human world, especially know when she is a werewolf.

She wanted to gather strength to move on but sometimes it was too hard. She already lost so much and sometimes she thought there is nothing more to lose. She would find herself sitting in the dark and just looking at one spot, like she is waiting for a miracle. That’s what she desperately needs anyway.

Artemisia really doesn’t know how she got out from her apartment. Usually when she is not working, really wouldn’t be able to do anything. But today she decided it is stupid to get on with misery. Besides, nobody really cares, she learned that one. Even the people who were considered as her friends turn their backs on her so easily. But, not everyone you lose is a lost anyway. She approached the front table and decided to order. Today she will treat herself, after a long time.

“Hi, can you please give me coffee with milk? Thank you.”

[healer-rosier]

“Do I look like…” The rest of Evan’s thought hung in the air and he narrowed his eyes at Artemisia, studying her a moment. He wasn’t in a bad mood so snapping truly wouldn’t have been his usual approach. There was merely the matter of being thrown off at being treated like someone that worked at the place instead of as a patron.

“But yes, fine, along with my usual,” He nodded then offered the payment to the barista, hesitating before he said anything else. “Extra sugar on mine since a day of meetings certainly calls for it. Was there a pastry with that as well, or was the coffee it, Miss Selwyn?”

[aselwyn]

At the minute she noticed Rosier is there, she kind of froze. Artemisia kind of knew who is on the Dark Lord’s side and he was definitely one of them. She couldn’t bare with them and she did have her own suspicions about her brother as well.

He looked offended by her assuming he was waitressing. That kind of make her laugh, so she allowed herself a little smile. Art knew it is not nice but she still couldn’t help it.

“Oh, sorry, I was obviously wrong. No, coffee will do just fine.”

[aselwyn]

Where? Borealis Cafe

Who? Open

Artemisia really didn’t know what to do, everything seemed to be even harder for her. People are say that with time everything is getting better but not in her case and definitely not now. She wanted to escape to another country but what would she do? All she knows about is this world. Even if she tries, how could she manage in human world, especially know when she is a werewolf.

She wanted to gather strength to move on but sometimes it was too hard. She already lost so much and sometimes she thought there is nothing more to lose. She would find herself sitting in the dark and just looking at one spot, like she is waiting for a miracle. That’s what she desperately needs anyway.

Artemisia really doesn’t know how she got out from her apartment. Usually when she is not working, really wouldn’t be able to do anything. But today she decided it is stupid to get on with misery. Besides, nobody really cares, she learned that one. Even the people who were considered as her friends turn their backs on her so easily. But, not everyone you lose is a lost anyway. She approached the front table and decided to order. Today she will treat herself, after a long time.

“Hi, can you please give me coffee with milk? Thank you.”

[youthtele]