StayBeautiful.

I'm Jesss, that's all anyone pretty much calls me. I dont really have much to say for myself other than after everything that has happened I still find this world a beautiful place. Im happy, and ha's all I ever expect from myself.

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My tattoo in memory of my best friend

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My boyfriend is the cutest

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Jetty walks

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My bestfriend

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Nothing's better than this

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Sunset

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Second home.

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My angel

Everyday I find myself in random outburts where I just cry and wheep for my best friend to somehow be alive and just give me one last hug. I mean its been four years , and everyone says it gets easier but I dont see how. I have accepted it, yes that has been the only easy part. I find myself talking to a rock for hours upon hours every week begging it to answer me but I never get anything. 

Loosing a best friend at the age of 13 has to be something that no one should ever have to go through. Not only is it heartbreaking, but its something that I couldn't emtionally and physically take. It left me crying and hating life for months. I questioned life itself, how could it take my 13 year old friend who never had a chance to become something of himself? Not seeing or talking to someone who I never went a day without was the part that broke me the most.

Now that I am 18 I can understand partically. Maybe he was taken from me to guide me to the right direction, maybe he was taken so he could be away from all means of harm, maybe he was taken because God saw how amazing he was. I don't feel like I have anyone to talk to because it makes many people feel uncomfortable. But just telling people about our memories and how amazing he was makes me feel like hes still here with me. It makes me feel good knowing maybe even though he isnt physically here, telling stories about his experiences can still change lives like how he changed mine. I forever love my best friend, even though God took him our friendship never died. Rest easy Earman Machado.

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Everyone has gone through something that has changed them. Stop Judging.

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Only one in the world I depend on is me. I need nothing from no one.

ADTR

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I just don’t see how a world that makes such wonderful things could be bad.

Ariel, The Little Mermaid (via kingdomcomforts)