~A shadow with feelings~

Well you made it here... good luck

[ashadowwithfeelings1111]

God help me not to have a mental breakdown at work thanks 😁

[ashadowwithfeelings1111]

Peasants thinking they are princesses and princesses thinking they are queens

[ashadowwithfeelings1111]

When we were picking out beads for our eye color bracelets and you got all flustered when I was looking into your eyes... it's the small things that really show me you care...

[ashadowwithfeelings1111]

Your gaze is addictive. Even if I avoid it

Just knowing you're looking at me...

[ashadowwithfeelings1111]

The way you said

"You're so cute" to yourself thinking I was asleep on you.

How flustered you got when I opened my eyes and look at you

The awkward little smile that you had...

"I thought you were asleep I was talking outloud..."

[ashadowwithfeelings1111]

Oh yes disappear

Like you are so very good at.

Good job

Grow up..

[ashadowwithfeelings1111]

You hurt me

You don't ever think of how things make me feel

Ever...

[ashadowwithfeelings1111]

You always drop everything for them. What about me?

What about telling my family members you'll help them and you never showing up lmao...

Am I not supposed to feel irritated at that?

You once said I deserve to be taken care of.

Well not showing up because your family asked something all of a sudden of you

Putting me in situations where I have to do stuff a girl isn't even any good at because you don't show up

Thats not taking care of me

Am I ever going to be first for you?

No

No I'm not

Beer

Or your dad

Or your mom

Or you

Will always

Always

Always be first

Don't take me wrong it's great that you are willing to help them

But sometimes you have to be willing to say

No sorry I had plans to help my girl today or

To help my girls dad today

They'll get over being butt hurt

Because to be honestly your brother would do that shit for his girl in a heartbeat

I'm over feeling last place

Absolutely over it

[ashadowwithfeelings1111]

No one will truly ever understand

The girl that ran the school hallways to find him

The girl that said anything to make him happy

The girl that wasted time finding gifts for him and receiving nothing in return

She won't chase you anymore

She won't deny her actual feelings for your happiness

She won't waste time and effort to be unappreciated anymore

The girl whome loved all three of of these lessons

Congratulations you're teaching her to know her value but...

You're also teaching her not the reveal the kindness in her heart. Reality is so

In this world

People take advantage of such kind souls.

It's better to pretend you are cold...

As cold as the world around you is.

Be brave kind soul

Maybe one day you'll be happy

[ashadowwithfeelings1111]

Actually tired of feeling like all I'm doing is chasing after someone who barely cares so show me any type of attention other than when he wants something out of me.

[ashadowwithfeelings1111]

Think I'm just tired of pretending like it's fine. I'm also tired of you ignoring what you KNOW; which is how your actions make me feel.

[ashadowwithfeelings1111]

Grow up honestly 😁

[ashadowwithfeelings1111]

I mean crush away but I'm the one he calls Mommy at the end of the night 😂🖤

[ashadowwithfeelings1111]

I think of you all the time all day and all night and it's just super apparent that it's not the same for you. It hurts I can't lie 😅

[ashadowwithfeelings1111]

Take the massive anxiety and self deprecating feelings away and just let me feel like I'm doing something right for me and that I deserve to be where I am at.

[ashadowwithfeelings1111]

I'm dancing alone inside my head somebody save me. Do you know what I'm thinking of?

[ashadowwithfeelings1111]

Is it loving people from a distance or running away from people that did nothing but love you

Your sister just called you on something that bothered her and your egoistic self couldnt handle it and cut us all off

Don't talk about loving people from a distance when your only reason is you couldn't get past your hate for our mom

What about the trauma your dad put me through and I still loved you even when you ALL just acted like nothing happened 😂

Don't love me from a distance I don't want you to because it isnt love anyways

Love gets past obstacles not runs away from them

I really hope you're proud of yourself for listening to the people that had your ear

I don't love you from a distance so don't waste your time on me or my siblings

You abandoned us so call it as it is.

By the way if you're gonna make posts like that

Don't forget to hide them from everyone 😂

Cuz you missed some

Thx