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nonbinary - 27 - he/they/it - otherkin/fictionkin | this blog is full of cryptic and lonely rambles

[ashanbones]

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Hallo. I am Crow, but also don’t mind being referred to as Beast.

My pronouns are he/they/it. I’m 27, and would prefer people under 16 to not follow me.

This is my main account, where I post vague memories and vents about my life as the Beast. My main and strongest kintype. I also am dragonkin, kenkukin, and cryptidkin. I don’t post as much about those specifically, though.

My main tags for talking is #beast speaks

My vent tag is #beast vents

My art tag is #beast scrawls

My tag for suggestive posts is #beast's spice

I have a fictionkin sideblog that I mainly reblog art onto, but believe I will start posting on there a bit more frequently perhaps. I’ll tag it below.

@3nders

I am mostly alright with being messaged by mutuals if anyone wishes to talk, but I may not reply quickly. I can’t promise I’ll click and be comfortable talking. I take a while to trust.

The only thing I ask of followers to tag is unreality and animal death. Though, I understand if that can’t be done.

[ashanbones]

its also probably a little ironic that in this shape i cant handle sun because my skin burns too easily

but as a dragon, i have memories of the ocean and of a den overlooking a rocky beach that the sun shone on commonly

remembering just taking a luxurious nap while soaking up the sun is wonderful and i wish i could do that again

but nope, have to be careful because im squishy and scale-less now and the sun hates me

[ashanbones]

miss my mate

want to curl beside them and rest muzzle on their chest and purr and have their fingers in my mane

miss their scent and warmth and physical affection

[ashanbones]

i dont want to have to human anymore its so exhausting

[ashanbones]

returned from visiting my mate this sunday

even though its been just 3 days away from them- i am... having a hard time

feels like i left a chunk of my heart and soul and very being behind when i had to leave them behind

going from being able to touch them, hug them, kiss them, and curl next to them for a whole week- to only being able to message once more- is challenging

i am a very sad beast but im trying my hardest to remind myself the distance is hopefully temporary

one day we will be together and not have to say goodbye, but instead just goodnight

[ashanbones]

three days til i visit my mate

im vibrating at speeds previously undiscovered

excited beast noises because im going to finally be able to curl up with them and affectionately chomp and nuzzle and purr and rumble at them and theyll accept me bc they know im a beast and theyre a creature themself

just

im so excited to be with them soon♡♡♡♡

[ashanbones]

i wish that it was more feasible for me to go on walks in nature to indulge in the nonhuman instincts of myself

but gods. human responsibility and job keep wearing me down and keep me from having the energy to seek out places near me that i can go

there is very little accessible forests near where i am and thats... truly saddening

[ashanbones]

22 days til i can see my mate and curl close to them ♡

[corvid-canidae-art]

Vent comic abt being autistic and a therian

[ashanbones]

i hate being suddenly so unmotivated, utterly exhausted, easily irritated, and easily upset

and k n o w i n g that its because its close to time for this body to bleed and cramp for a week

ive said before but gods i wish i could just dig claws into my guts and scoop out my uterus because i have no connection with this squishy fucking organ and have no want to ever birth children

[ashanbones]

tired grumbles and growls

today's a day that i really don't want to have to deal with being in the factory that is my workplace.

its supposed to actually be good weather today so im going to see if i can sit out and soak up some sun and warmth for a bit after work

daydream a little that its my scales and the leather of my wings im warming and not just thin human skin

[ashanbones]

mm am content beast

can call my partner my mate and theyve called me their mate too

i love my mate♡ theyre so good to me and im so happy to have them

im going to be visiting them soon too and im really looking forward to being able to curl up with them and just soak up affection as much as possible and kiss them so much

[ashanbones]

ehe

got called 'mate' again by my partner a couple days ago and im still real pleased about that hehe

we're just two creatures in love

[ashanbones]

getting gender envy from a robot character and then feeling weird and uncomfortable in my flesh and blood and bones in a different way than normal

i shall simply ignore this for now bc i simply Do Not have the mental energy to explore this feeling currently

already not able to much settle into being in a beast mindset because of work and home stress without adding questioning another thing about myself on top of it

[ashanbones]

grgrgrggrrgr

just a few months until hopefully gonna be able to visit my partner

gotta work out details and get tickets for travel but im so fucking excited and nervous all rolled into one beastie package

[ashanbones]

i think itd be neat to make a mask relating to my urzuk kintype

i would just have to figure out how to do so. what materials to use

... as well as find the time, motivation, and saving up the money for materials haha

[ashanbones]

i wanna just gently bite my partner and curl around them and wrap wings around them so much

hoard them away like the dragon i am because they are so precious to me

more precious than any treasure i could own

want to tuck close to them and give them so many kisses

distance sucks so much