a struggling student

19F. i hardly use this blog anymore but it's my default main - go to secondary @mcfuckingrib

[catilinas]

adam parry………………. gets it

[ashocean]

before the rose

[lifeinpoetry]

I used to read tarot cards, so I have a lot of experience making predictions that won’t come true. For example: next month the pain will be less, and the next month it will simply disappear.

— Rita Feinstein, from Life on Dodge

[lifeinpoetry]

I too am sick of the body. I too am sick of being a body, am sick of being sick about my body,

— Meghan Dunn, from “Response, Years Later, to Two Male Poets I Overheard Discussing How Sick They Were of Women’s Poems about the Body,” published in MUSE/A

[finallyycleans]

a poem

and so the lifeline becomes the poison

i arrive for my dosage but there’s no diagnosis

and i am left with my aching symptoms

i am

lovesick

envious

starstruck

but still alone

in the end

always still alone

maybe i idealized you

as a perfect antidote

maybe i was wrong

i think i’m cursed you see

i can never keep what heals me

with a tantalizing grip

all i need is held barely above me

as the water rushes in

you slip right out of my grasp

i lose what i yearned to have

and never even got to hold

always in my line of sight

never in my arms alone

[alec-sike-lightwood]

ALL POOR UK STUDENTS

Bitch, I’m about to drop some knowledge.

Go to get.printtapp.com/Ivory

To get FREE FUCKING PRINTING. AND THIS SHIT IS SENT TO YOUR DOOR AND DELIVERED THE NEXT DAY IF YOU ORDER BEFORE 4pm.

Colour and Black/White is free and so is delivery!

SAVE YOUR COIN HOES. YOU CAN PRINT LONG ASS ARTICLES…for free.

Plus, they plant a tree for every page you print!

[arystudies]

Hi, everyone!! I’ve had a studyblr for about a week now and have already met so many kind, supportive people. I couldn’t be more thankful. That said, I really wanted to give back to such an amazing community! So here’s my first printable for you! 

It includes:

a 5AM-10PM schedule (for my early hustlers)

‘Top 3 Priorities’ + ‘Can Wait’ categories

a ‘To-Do’ list

Daily Goals, Notes, Doodles

a water tracker (stay hydrated, friends!)

10 Good Things (reflect back on your day and jot down the little things that made you happy even if your day wasn’t the greatest)

They’re available for download in PDF and PNG formats + in pink, blue, yellow, and white! I’ve also made a grid and grid-less version! 

Grid

Blue: pdf / png Pink: pdf / png White: pdf / png Yellow: pdf / png

No Grid

Blue: pdf / png Pink: pdf / png White: pdf / png Yellow: pdf / png

And here’s a link to the entire folder on my DropBox!

Please tag me with #arystudies or mention me if you use these!! I’d love to see them in action. :’) I’m also really curious to see what you all think of them, so please let me know!! 

Be sure to check out my monthly calendars too!

Happy studying!  

[arystudies]

whoa looks like these are making a comeback! happy to see you guys continue to enjoy these!

[thewritingwarrior]

So I realize I am only following like 100 or so writeblrs. I should be following more! So to remedy this, please reblog telling me about a writeblr you follow and why you love them and why I should check them out!

[mirror-of-too-many-books-deacti]

@brynwrites, @byjillianmaria, @cog-writes, @hannahnielsen, @katekarl @novelistcore and @relevy are some of my faves~ Their stories are so creative, diverse and wonderful <3 <3 <3 If you aren’t following them already, I definitely recommend (sorry I couldn’t choose just one)

[ophiaihel]

jdmsmdmskdke I! love! you!!

[katywritesbooks]

@paper-shield-and-wooden-sword @infinitelyblankpage @sleepy-and-anxious @forlornraven @katiehahnbooks @drowningauthor @paladin-andric @lottieiswriting @nicholewrites @no-url-ideas-tho @reeseweston @charlotte-bowyer @lady-redshield-writes @pen-and-sword-writing 

I have not put 100s more on and I wish I could name everyone!

[wyrdgebraecon-deactivated202503]

Thanks @katywritesbooks! I’d recommend her blog as well as @theinkstainsblog @inkbloodthrall @catilinas @ashocean @finneganoriordan @cre8iveovadose @writerintraining-us @sashathewriter and @aphrodihe - all mutuals whose work (a selection of aesthetic and writing-based) I appreciate seeing more than I can say!!!

[aninactivebloggfgfgf]

A few not-as-nice reminders about PRIDE: 

Pedophiles are not LGBT, no adult engaging in a sexual relationship with a minor gets to call themselves LGBT and if you think they do fucking block me and throw yourself into the sun

TERF rhetoric is toxic and stupid and no one needs your transphobic ass any time of the year, much less the time of year when trans people should be taking pride in their identities (which is also year round) 

It is not, under any circumstances, okay to “out” someone. I don’t care if you think your intentions are good. this can destroy someone’s life. A young person could end up homeless. Or dead.

POC belong at PRIDE just as much as everyone else (we would not have this without black trans women, show some respect)

You don’t know if the “apparently straight” couple who you see at PRIDE is composed of two straight people - one could be bisexual, one could be asexual, both could be, I mean, like, don’t be that person

Or they could be there to support someone who might’ve otherwise been alone, like, just, don’t be that person who polices sexualities and shit okay

Bisexuality, pansexuality, and polysexuality all exist and deserve to be respected

seriously it’s completely possible to be attracted to two or more genders or be attracted regardless of gender and our identities don’t hurt anyone 

Just because you are LGBTQIA+ doesn’t mean you aren’t capable of being an asshole, and if you use “I’m gay!” as an excuse you need to grow up (this applies year round)

Asexuals and aromantics belong at PRIDE just as much as any other LGBTQIA+ individual, I really don’t care how many letters are in the “alphabet soup”, you have a valid identity 

polyamory is when three or more people engage in a consensual relationship, not when one person is with someone else behind their partner’s back 

polyamory is not superior to monogamy or vice versa 

buying PRIDE gear for your sexuality/gender doesn’t mean you’re selling out or giving into capitalism, if it makes you happy do it and don’t let people shame you for it

and honestly like isn’t it good for it to be normalized? I am all for Target having a PRIDE section, that’s amazing

Not everyone is okay with using the word or calling themselves “queer”, if they’re not okay with it don’t call them that 

bisexuality is not transphobic and pansexuality is not biphobic 

stay safe at PRIDE - don’t accept open drinks from strangers, ever, no matter what, people can be awful anywhere you go, just stay safe 

you don’t have to come out just because it’s PRIDE month, if it isn’t safe for you (i.e. you’ll be on the streets, homeless, etc) don’t pressure yourself 

that’s all I have, I’m sure there’s probably more

[feministism]

[ashocean]

my first poem to kick off pride poetry month: gods work

I don’t write love poetry, i write about god’s work.

I don’t know much about religion, but everytime i see you, god, i am taken to church.

Anecdote: I went to catholic primary school and once when I was 9,

I kissed my best friend on the forehead and thought it was a crime

So without saying why I told my parents, I have to make a pilgrimage and say i’m really really sorry to jesus christ our lord.

Now? I’m 17, comfortably bisexual, and because I don’t fly easyjet, I’ve never gone to Lourdes.

I’m not that religious. But the only pilgrimage I would make is to you

and I would unlace my boots, bow, kneel down, and pray in your pew.

I don’t know much about religion, but I know about devotion

I’m not saying you’re my god, but something about emotion

Like this is just too powerful to leave it unspoken.

I don’t know about religion, but I know about music.

But side note: I don’t understand it, singing in public makes me feel sick.

But i’d sing hymn after hymn about you and in spite

Of my broken voice, how your eyes fill me with light

And holy watercolour stained glass like i imagine god’s might might.

I don’t know much about religion, but i do know what awe is

The bravery of confession and its terrifying catharsis

I find strange ease in spilling my sins to my silent god upon high

And yet when you’re next to me i struggle to breathe “hi”.

Again, i’m not saying you’re my god, but god help me, in my mind,

The idea of you answering my prayers seems far more divine

And also scary as hell. Hell, so was writing this poem,

‘Cause I don’t write love poetry, I write - well, I don’t know.

I don’t know much about religion, music, awe, or devotion,

Christ, I don’t even know how to describe my emotions

I don’t know lots of things, but there’s one thing I do:

I don’t know about love, but i know about you.

(christ, i love me some religious gay poetry. i’m not going to be posting everyday, but hopefully fairly consistently. i need more gay poetry in my life. feel free to tag your lgbtq+ poems with the tag #pridepoetry which i’m tracking and lets make twentygayteen the most poetic ever. @ashocean out x)

[ashocean]

hello sweetie! when u get this u have to answer with 5 things u like about yourself, publicly. then, send this ask to 10 of your favorite followers(non-negotiable, positivity is cool) 💖💞✨🌸💫💓💕

oooh my, things i love about myself…. not much but i guess, on a superficial level, 1) my funky ass hair, 2) my exceptional vine knowledge/sense of humour, 3) i’m quite a compassionate person, 4) my enthusiasm, 5) i think i can handle disaster well.

don’t know that many tumblr people, but i would like to see my og precious beans @charlotte-bowyer and @puddle–fish be postive about themselves, since we’re all struggling gays.

[wyrdgebraecon-deactivated202503]

Who are you to make me be positive?!? Nevertheless, I will try to say something nice about myself…

1. I’m fairly organised.

2. I can do a perfect eyeliner wing with both hands (#ambidexterous)

3. I have never lost a game of Scrabble.

4. I know a lot of trivia about loads of random things.

5. I have quite good self-control.

[ashocean]

i know, i’m so hypocritical. but i will PUNCH YOU WITH FRIENDSHIP it’s my JOB

[bulbiedorf]

Just saying but the negative aspects of capitalism is literally what is holding the world back from being sustainable. The only reason we don’t have safe drinking water, shelter, food, medicine, education, and clean energy for every person on this earth is because it wouldn’t be profitable for the 0.1% of the world’s population whose entire income is based solely around limiting those resources for lower class and impoverished people.

[smartspo]

i always have a hard time finding good stuff to listen to while i’m studying so i’m here to hopefully help some people with the same problem and share some of my faves! i’ll divide this post into instrumental and non-instrumental albums/playlists in order to make it even easier for you guys to navigate :-) 

happy studying!

instrumental albums and playlists

signs and wonders by elisha david 

interstellar soundtrack 

studio ghibli movies soundtrack 

theory of everything soundtrack

the immitation game soundtrack

the crown season 2 soundtrack

lofi/jazzhop playlist

lofi/jazzhop playlist 2

new feelings by elijah who

don’t make me cry by elijah who

complete harry potter movies soundtrack

peaceful piano

pride and prejudice soundtrack

le petit prince soundtrack

classical music for studying

disney score to study to

non-instrumental (with singing) albums and playlists

reading, studying, and rainy days

acoustic covers

kpop study music

calm indie songs playlist

your favorite coffeehouse

study zone

paradise by slow club

the lumineers by the lumineers

[ashocean]

hello sweetie! when u get this u have to answer with 5 things u like about yourself, publicly. then, send this ask to 10 of your favorite followers(non-negotiable, positivity is cool) 💖💞✨🌸💫💓💕

oooh my, things i love about myself.... not much but i guess, on a superficial level, 1) my funky ass hair, 2) my exceptional vine knowledge/sense of humour, 3) i’m quite a compassionate person, 4) my enthusiasm, 5) i think i can handle disaster well.

don’t know that many tumblr people, but i would like to see my og precious beans @charlotte-bowyer and @puddle--fish be postive about themselves, since we’re all struggling gays.

[ashocean]

what the fuck is up, tumblr

so i’m back. again. conveniently in time for exams, but ALSO conveniently in time for pride month. which is no coincidence.

my aim for pride month is to write a shit load of gay poems.

and so, as a lonely bisexual bean, i will be needing help.

if you would like a sweet / depressing / steamy but al around GAY poem, please send me some vague inspiration, so that i can be FILLED WITH INSPIRATION and GENERALLY BE KEPT SANE.

i’d really appreciate it. i’m too lonely to think of enough gay things.

love u all. happy pride month. let’s make it gay.

ashocean x

[ashocean]

what the fuck is up, tumblr

so i’m back. again. conveniently in time for exams, but ALSO conveniently in time for pride month. which is no coincidence.

my aim for pride month is to write a shit load of gay poems.

and so, as a lonely bisexual bean, i will be needing help.

if you would like a sweet / depressing / steamy but al around GAY poem, please send me some vague inspiration, so that i can be FILLED WITH INSPIRATION and GENERALLY BE KEPT SANE.

i’d really appreciate it. i’m too lonely to think of enough gay things.

love u all. happy pride month. let’s make it gay.

ashocean x