Ash @ashtheemowasp - Tumblr Blog

I don't know what to do anymore. I want to create. I really do. I want to write. I just don't have the skills for it, or the patience to get good. And I don't have the money to just keep buying books. It's frustrating. Everything I read or watch or hear fills me with inspiration, and then anger because I can't create something like that.

#rant #writing #sorry

Funny thing I found at a mall after watching Obsession at the cinema.

#I have no idea who “Ian Spice” is.#funny picture.

I am officially 19 now. hurrah, I guess :p

#birthday

I turn 19 tomorrow. Do with that useless information as you will :p

#idfk #birthday soon #AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA balls :3

nonbinary-wrath-month

It is true that if you want to be a girl, you can be one; and if you don't want to be one, you can decide not to be one. And the same is true of boys. But I want to posit something else: that you don't need to buy a whole package deal. You can pick and choose the traits and words you like.

I conceptualise gender and masculinity/femininity not as boxes that one needs to conform to, or labels that one has to choose to adopt or reject, but as toyboxes full of trinkets. I can take whatever trinkets I like. I don't have to take the ones I hate. If I hate all of the toys in a box, I can just close the box. If I like only some of them but hate others, I don't have to bring the whole box with me. I can put them back in the box if I don't want them one day, and I can take them back out if I want them again later. I can play with the toys and paint the toys and mash the toys together and experiment with the toys and break the toys and cherish the toys at my leisure. And I can buy them from elsewhere, or even make my own, if I want more toys but can't find them in the toyboxes provided.

You are under no obligation to follow the rules of gender. You are under no obligation to pick an entire set of traits and stick with it forever. You are under no obligation to avoid things that sound contradictory to others who don't understand what you're doing. You can be a girl who uses he/him pronouns and takes T. You can be a boy all the time except on Tuesday at 5pm when you become a girl for a little while. You can wear a dress with your waistcoat and a big pink bow with your big curly mustache and give yourself it/its pronouns and be a lesbian and a gay man at the same time. You can decide you hate all of this shit and throw it all out the window, and you can be any of these things sometimes and something else later. The list goes on. There is absolutely nothing stopping you. There are no rules. You can be a gender scavenger. Try it out and see how you feel.

I'd love to learn how to write. I'd love to be a writer. I love horror, splatterpunk, fantasy, dark fantasy, comedy, etc. my only worry is that I'm not going to have fun. I've never written anything. I don't expect to be good immediately. I'm aware that it takes a lot of time and effort. I'd just want that time to be fun instead of purely miserable. If I'm not having fun learning something new, what's the point?

#rant #sorry I have no idea how to tag this. I'm still new-ish to the platform.

Haven't posted in a while so, uh. Here's a book I just bought. Idfk :p

#horror #extreme horror #book

I feel the urge to just dig my nails into my arms and relapse. I feel fucking awful.

#tw sh related #tw vent

Name Taken was such a good band. It's a shame there aren't any new bands like them :(

#emo #emo pop #2000s emo #Spotify

I really want to get into extreme horror and Splatterpunk books. Where should I start? Should I start with the original 80s guys like David J. Schow, John Skipp, and Craig Spector or something more recent?

#splatterpunk #asking for recs #horror literature

Norm has relapsed

#norm of the north #balls #utter bullshit

Is that goddamned fucking Comic Sans?! On one of my favourite albums of all time?! Why?! TwT