if you could see me now

strength is what we gain from the madness we survive

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I just want to go home.

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hey hey heyyyy

i have work soon but ill be on this afternoon!!!

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I know you are…it’s just this is so hard with out you..i’m sorry.

You don’t need to apologize for anything, okay? You’re not in the wrong here, I know it’s difficult.

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hey guys!!

forgot to mention that i had staff dinner and staff soccer on wednesdays so sorry for not being on last night!!!

and then 12 hours of work today :))) but im here now!!!

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The baby will be here by then…I’m going to go insane Ash….

I know baby, I’m sorry. I’m trying my hardest to be home by the time the baby’s born.

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Until you have to go back though. It sucks I wish I could be there with you, but I know you have fun with the boys on tour.

I do, but you know I’d come home in a heartbeat. Besides, just a couple more months, and then I’m home completely.

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I know..i just want to lay with you and forget about the world right now honestly,but I can’t and it sucks.

Not much longer baby, then we can lay and forget the world for as long as we want.

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I am too Ash i really am. I know it just sucks i should be able to care for her before me.

Hey, it’s okay. You’re pregnant, and by yourself with another kid, you need to take a little break. You know things would be different if I was there, and I will be soon. Don't be hard on yourself.

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I can’t wait for you to actually be at an appointment. I know..I just I love her you know? Okay good I just figured it’s unisex.

Me either baby, me either. I’m really excited. I know, and I don’t blame you for wanting to be with her all the time, but sometimes you just have to take care of yourself.

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Okay then when you’re here we’ll find out because i have an ultrasound coming up. I don’t know if I can do that I’d miss her too much…but then again i do need a day to myself. I was thinking of doing a lion king type of nursery.

Sounds perfect, babe. You’ll be okay, you don’t even have to give her up for the whole day, just enough time to get you relaxed again. Oh yeah? That sounds really cute.

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I will….Um I still haven’t found out what we’re having I wasn’t sure if you wanted to know or not. Okay…it’s just stressful finding paint I can use to paint and I’m stressed to the max honestly. I’m glad I do babe.

Of course I do! Okay, here’s what I want you to do. I want you to leave Lyric with one of your band mates or someone who you trust with her, and take a day for yourself. Get the best paint you can find, paint your heart out, and do whatever you want for the day. I don’t want anymore stress for you.

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I have..I’m sorry I just don’t want to worry you I didn’t think it was a big deal, but it’s a horrible pain. I do worry about things, setting up the nursery,taking care of Lyric,recording the album and caring for myself and the baby it’s a lot of work. Alright..good. You make me happy.

It’s okay, baby. Just keep me updated with things, yeah? Even if it doesn’t seem very important. Not much longer and you won’t have to worry about these things anymore, okay? I’ll be home soon. I’m glad I do, you make me happy too. 

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You sure? The doctor might clear me to travel…then again he might not I’ve been having sharp pains lately. Thank you though it’s the truth.

You have? Babe, you have to tell me about these things...and of course I’m sure, for that reason exactly. I don’t want to risk anything getting worse, so you don’t worry about anything. We have a break coming up pretty soon, and I’ll be home. Whatever makes you happy, baby.

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I was thinking of seeing if the doctor would let me travel..but don’t get your hopes up. She does not you’re the hyper one I’m never hyper.

Hey, no, no. You don’t worry about traveling, I’ll do that. I’ll find a time to take a break and come home, okay? I don’t want to run any risks. Okay, I’ll let you believe that.

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Well thanks babe…i wish you were here this little one kicks so much. Don’t lie!

I wish I was there to feel it. I’m not lying! She gets it from you, and you know it.