The Unfilled One

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Hi Dear! Been missing you since a while. A lot much happened in between a lots of smiles, lots of learnings I had been through. Thanks to Miss. Vedanti who showed a sort of interest in my writing business, a new reader on the go.

Last month I had been able to complete an eventful journey to Nashik, what a journey it was! Such a lovely journey, mesmerizing scenes, such peaceful and divine environment, in the city of Lord Shiva. There was thrill, there were a lot of emotions, there was trek, there was risk, but only we wanted was fun, and indeed we achieved. It was never easy to get through such high and risky treks, on Harihar fort, it was a such a terrible trek but the scenes we got to see was what we expected. A lot of fog on mountains and we were passing through those clouds seemed to be like walking in the clouds. My words could not justice with those scenes that I've experienced in that week with such crazy guys, who made it my trip a memorable one. Earlier, I was being questioned for the budget of trip, nobody was accepting that it would require a budget of almost 3.5k, sounds ridiculous. Right? Yeah it was my crazy precision and the best decision after I've achieved, for everybody costing it to 3.2k, was the best part. The moments I've enjoyed with these guys is unmatchable. I would thank them from my bottom of heart that they stood with me in the entire trip and helped me to complete it, they've showed a lot of faith after a failure for not getting rooms in the decided hotel. I had decided to end the trip on Day 1 but the belief they showed and they've stood with me, it requires a lot of courage. I thank them a lot, such a brave bunch of homies I've got.

Thanks to Vansh, Manav, Tarun, Kartavya, Ronit, Durgesh for being a part of such a trip. Special thanks to Aarav Tiwari who was the 8th man of our group and had been an interesting addup to our team.

Guys who unfortunately missed out Yashash, Shreyash, Darshan, I wish this guys to be part of next trip.

A lot of things have changed by then, we guys have become brothers of each others. It's been an interesting bond with them. Cheers to you Guys! I've been a busy man now, these assignment, practicals and now exams have been it's been just chaos everywhere. Miss Vedanti after reading the previous blog was flaggerbastered and was stunned. But she never complained thereafter, else she's been a good friend of mine whom I tease, sometimes trick her but enjoy talking to her. Though I call her childish, yeah sometimes she behaves like that but she's been enough mature and I hope that she should another best one like Divya Bhingare, my Little Sparrow.

That's all for now, till then, goodbye and Cheers!

[ashvibes193]

Hey tumblr,

Feeling happy to come here back with a lot of stories and upcoming events or simply programs in my words. Just Kiddin'! Today was physics practical for which I wasn't prepared anyway. I wanted to study but unfortunately didn't got much time for any revision. Today's day began on a depressing note when our Maths lecturer bloke out with her most unexpected and thorny words, which was very difficult for us to digest when she mentioned she's tired of us guys, THE BOYS! The only thing that attracts her in class is the girls of our class. That was quite heartbreaking, and wished she won't be happy to continue with us for next sem's. That's really a bad news for CSE guys, because we're being thrashed and slapped for some reason we actually don't know. Like we CSE students are the most sincere in the class but how she reacted today was totally out of syllabus. NO REPLIES NO WORDS for this.

After this surprising shock we were speechless and got indulged in our test for which we've prepared a bit, but in the end came out to be an open book test, which was the easiest way of exit but was not correct according to me. But anyways we did the most expected thing CHEAT and MATE.

After that we got a very inspiring speech from Randhawa Mam which was very needed after that morn surprise. She explained that how the exam is gonna easy if we prepare from now and then work on presentation then surely we could make through it. This was very unexpected but we really needed this.

Then comes the break which we spent discussing about farmhouse plan for Vansh's birthday, we then had our lunch in the restaurant in front of college and did the very work. After lunch we got busy in our practical completion and all. Vansh and Manav were searching for affordable farmhouse on Google but everybody else knew it was very late for that kind of plan. We got to see an excitement in Vansh's actions, like he was excited to celebrate his birthday with his dearest guys with US! I realized that later on.

Then after taking a windy break in the chemistry lab sitting in front of cooler, we moved for viva, we got to know that viva is gonna be online and that was the fuckin' easiest thing for us to deal with. But we already had the answers and we were through. KUDOS for our hardwork. LMAO!

After all this, I had a wedding in the night and there enjoyed a lot of dishes Chowmein, Pani puri, and Paneer, delicious meal, just loved it.

Then late in the night we guys had a conference call discussing about tomorrow plan and all. Everything was decided and I started chatting on group and I made some conditions that Tarun would get charged up. I know from very early that this guy is having a lot of gloomy moments in his life and has not expressed it to anyone yet. Maybe he's suffering from someone's betrayal or someone would have left him alone in the way. This pretty smiling face is not easy to wear around when the world desperately wanna see you crying. To spread joy requires a lot of courage and a lot of positivity. How the hell that guy could resist? Though sometimes behaves like a kid and behaves annoying, also he's short by height but has got a tough covering around his heart where on the other side there are many emotions hididen. Today I threw some words and he broke out, I know that it's difficult for me to know the real reason but someday or the other he would narrate himself.

On this note I need to go now as I wanna study. Till then GOODBYE Buddy!

[ashvibes193]

Hey tumblr!!!

Meeting after a while, nowadays time is slipping such quickly, I am flaggerbasted to see that the day dawns and winds up quickly. Anyways, apologies for not attending you on my 19th birthday, I was surely busy in attending my other colleagues, what an eventful day it was!

We went to a travel to one of the tourist places in Nagpur, Surabardi. There was a temple where idols are kept and the temple is sort of a cave. Then afterwards went to Surabardi Lake, we had a bad fortune we stuck at that place due to rain for half an hour, but outing with these guys gives a surreal experience of real world. I felt bad as Yashash refused to join us because of his short conflict with Manav. It was unexpected and incorrect, but he missed it. During our return we enjoyed that ride in the most extreme way, by splashing water on following vehicles. Usually kids do this kind of nuisance but, as the road was empty and the potholes were filled with water, splashing was our game, eventually I was a victim in this game for one time only.

Then we stopped at a restaurant near to our college and had some snacks. I remembered one thing, that Kripalini once said she's a foodie and is fond of eating, it was my birthday, so I wanted her to join us. I asked her, and she accepted gracefully. It took some time there, for us to assemble there, eventually it started raining heavily and enjoying a kind of night with your mates out, raining clouds, hot snacks, sip of tea, the essence of this bond, and retro songs I was singing to myselves, it was a different treat.

Today, I was not here just to tell you about my birthday. There was some different reason also. After a long time a different feeling has aroused in mind, it's not the achievement but I think I'm gonna make up with one of my friends. I don't know what's correct what's wrong, even I dunno what to say to a girl if you think about her, when you continuously look at her like you're attached to her, she's the ray of hope for you. I feel, I don't wanna accept but I'm stuck into somebody's emotions and that's gonna be my problem for now. I don't know whether to go for it, I'm stuck. Mind's avoiding to go there as my career is more important than these all these stuff, but there enters my foolish heart and orders me to go for this chance.

I'm interested in somebody that's part of story but some other person is interested in me, I'm stuck in a triangle. It's gonna be interesting contest for me to deal with both sides but surely I'm gonna reject one of them, but whom to go with, whom to refuse is a big question.

Because the one whom I like is the most fresh one in my friend's list, but the other one and me are friends since school time. Both are studious, but the thing is I haven't spent time with both of them and so I'll test both of them, if any of them is ready to agree with my conditions, I surely will go with them. But if both of them rejects then it will be lot more easier for me. Once again, I could trust my luck for this kind of requirements. I could wait for a long time for the right person I need.

I feel next time I come to you, I can reach to a solid conclusion, or I would like to pull my hand out of it. I think this is the most rubbish thing I am thinking about.

I have thought a particular time for this kind of stuff, will try to move things in that time. Though, I won't be able to enjoy, won't take any risks, will play safe and take my time to make all this things legal for me. Till then, I would prefer to avoid this things.....

Now, I think it's time now, will come next day to meet you mate. Till then, GOODBYE!

[ashvibes193]

Hello Buddy

Where to start from? It's been a chaotic day for me. Earlier, I was desperately waiting for my physics practical to get checked as the same work has taken 4-5 or more than that but didn't moved ahead, still stuck for one to get checked. Enjoyed with my fellow colleagues by ditching two of our today's lectures, spent shamelessly in playing nostalgic games called 'Aath Chitthi'. Though I lost every game, but it was indeed fun. After game we attended physics practical and waited there for more than hour, further we got to know that mam was busy in a meeting and it was indeed a surprise for Batch 'B'. Then after reaching home, I severely got engaged in the work or say, practical and started coding.

Then in all this stuff, I was discussing about the work with two of our guys Shreyash, Tarun. They guys were also helping me out from their sides. In this work, I was talking to one my first female friends Kripalini, she asked me for notes, and I gave her immediately. But, after sometime, I scolded her for a silly reason, that she doesn't talk to me other than for asking notes, for a moment I stopped myself from climbing on, but eventually the arrow was released from bow and there was no chance of return. She was so kind, she didn't even complained for this, for a moment, I realized, I'm doing something wrong. I refrained from the truth and told it as a trial experiment for mental activeness, though she also agreed, but I know she was hurt. I'm realizing this after a bit while I didn't even apologized her. I've got many few kind people to hear my nonsense, but a slight blow blews away my card's castle. So delicate it is! I haven't told you dear, she's my first female friend, not a great thing to discuss about, but the kind of kind and sweet person I've chosen, that matters a lot for me. I don't know what's the validity of this fresh consignment, I don't whether she will end this, I don't know whether she rejects me from my life. But there's only one thing and that is she's been my good friend. I'm truly sorry for my deeds, didn't wanna lose more people.

Sorry to you also for not attending you daily, but will try to make my mind the next day. Till then, goodbye @Tumblr.

#GoodFriends

[ashvibes193]

Dear Tumblr,

❤❤❤

Happy Valentine's Day buddy,

It's 14th February, a day for the loved ones, for the missing pieces of heart. I am sparsely interested in this kind of stuff, but I've also got to dive in love. A normal day for me, got some assignment to write, did shit at physics practical. I was hearing the song....

and suddenly I got reminded of my first unconditional love for my mom. Though I don't have any girlfriend or bff but I'm surely having a valentine and that's my Mom. I didn't confessed otherwise I would've screwed up by dad.

*** 2 min silence ***

The song is also close to my heart, as it also reminds me of one special person I liked. She was like an angel, her small footsteps entering my heart, her graceful smile would relieve all my pain, her tears would be like wounds for me, her company would be enough for me to conquer my dreams. I know she didn't liked me much but she is surely having a place in my heart forever, though how far she goes, whom does she marry, whom does she love, but I won't forget my first love. Love you forever *******!!

The heart of stone,

Without tears,

Just being solid is never easy.

Don't know what to do,

How to tell?

How to love?

Enters one day, a bright angel,

Radiant as sun,

Pleasant as water,

Delicate as flower,

Lovely as wind.

She talked the way

As aristocrats did.

She walked the way,

As kids did.

Her messed hairs,

Were the swings of moods,

Which blows hearts.

Tried once to open up,

But courageless rock,

Never let his heart speak.

Cries today that rock,

Lost his lead to love.

But, rock never lets her go,

From his heart.

Though she's far, she's engaged,

Or she's not gonna talk to you,

How much she hates you,

Thy heart will forever melt away for her.

Wanted just a dance of lifetime with you love❤

#valentinesday#love#tumblr

[ashvibes193]

It's my 2 year anniversary on Tumblr 🥳

An eventful journey to remember, but simply it's just the beginning. My heartfelt thanks to @ayushtule who brought me onto this platform and made me a sailor of the #oceanotumblr.

[ashvibes193]

Now, at the beginning of few seconds, my heart was beating fast, but at the start, I made slight fun of girls, and after that I was relieved a lot, and started reciting the poem, I am not a great speaker, but tried my best to bring a feel in the words I've chosen to write.

My purpose of writing was not based on facts given in the picture, it was purely based on what I get to learn from it.

So, I would like to tell you the poem also....

Willing The Will To Change The World!

How difficult is it to survive on the mighty Earth,

Not fully, not half satisfied with this thought's birth.

Mommy does tell me money leads the world

but, never told me that it ruins the world.

Girls dream of a good future, good house, good clothes to put on,

But now it's difficult to find a shoulder to cry on.

Never kissing his man,

Never kissing his dreams.

Just living in the luxury and,

dancing in the streams.

A man dreams of a good future, good house, good clothes to put on,

But now it's difficult to survive in the ocean of struggle,

Trying to cruise in the sea of monsters

but, there's a niggle in everyone's level.

Never letting himself go down,

Just trying everytime to lift the crown.

He tired, he's sweating and he goes brown,

For dreaming on day to become renowned.

There's a lot of prisons around but,

Whosoever knows to capture the willingly determined one, It's Around, It's Abound.

It's great one!!! and everybody appreciated it. I think it could've been better, but it was appropriate according to time given. But after this performance, my confidence and self esteem was pumped up..

After this our lec ended and we went to play cricket. We played with our seniors and eventually defeated them in a close chase.... It was indeed a wonderful day, in terms of self development..

[ashvibes193]

This is a small poem dedicated to one of my good friends Divya Bhingare.

The real one's inside you,

I swear the real one's inside you.

Sits quiet, but your presence is neglected.

The one's heart filled with lots of emotions,

Which cares about the past, present and future of her friends and siblings,

You're the talented one,

But never presents it to anybody,

You are becoming better day by day,

Take some time, believe in yourself,

Because the real one's inside you.

Don't regret what you lost

Be happy on what you have.

Today, despite you're struggling,

You will get your day.

Hardships will continue till the end of your life,

But your will will make you happy.

The real one's inside you,

Don't be afraid of making sacrifices,

Bcoz one day you will be repaid by time,

Just try to wait for some time,

Everything will be fine one day,

You will also enjoy all the happiness

Like as of in the heaven.

Don't try to change yourself,

You're the perfect one,

No matter how look,

But still you're good to me,

Try to think over this,

Bcoz, the real one's inside you...

[ashvibes193]

Why is he so silent? Why is he so silent?

Sits in a corner of room, Never sharing his secrets; Making him feel heavy from inside. The one needs to open up everything,

But the fear of 'Other's Say' doesn't let him go.

He shows his smile to everyone, But is unable to express the dark part of life. Why is he so silent? Why he just observes everybody?

Why he doesn't review anybody? Why the feeling of loneliness is deeply attached to his soul?

He spreads positivity in the troop

But, who will decrease the negativity in him? He could be an inspiration for someone Why he doesn't speak?

But who the hell could inspire him??

Why the fear of being neglected teases him? Why his wisdom costs everytime?

Please speak something my friend,

Why you're so silent?

[ashvibes193]

I'm sorry for, I missed yesterday due to some work. But today's day was an absolute bouncer, which struck on my head really hard. Session 1 started off well, with mouth-shivering cold, but nothing to tell much about that. Session 2 began with no Chemistry lecture as our lecturer was sick. Hush!! Second day of no Chemistry class. In the mean time we were given 3 questions to solve, but we were unable to solve any of them because we weren't having knowledge of solving such questions. In the Physics lecture, I asked couple of doubts, then he gave an inspirational speech on exams, for which we were very needy. His words really encouraged me to do well. After, in Maths lecture, we consistently made fun of our lecturer, but equally studied also. The inorganic lecture also went well, tomorrow is our Chem paper, for that he revised us all the topics in short. After that lecture, most unexpected thing of the day happened! My friends Soham, Sujit, Shravan, Kunal were accused for a reason and then were punished for the mistake they did. Actually yesterday, in free lectures, most of the girls were busy in watching mobiles. These people wanted to show our Sir, that girls also use mobile during free lectures, for proof they captured images of some girls and showed it to Mam. But the girls, took that action in a wrong way and complained against us. It was like we were trapped in our trap, then we were assassinated by our lecturers.

In this way my remaining day was spoiled. Session 2 ended with me roaming in garden. I was thinking that could today's matter spoil our relationship? I can't judge that. I think my friends were punished for a false reason told by girls.

Session 3 began with me studying for the upcoming test which is tomorrow.

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Today's day was a very quicker one. I didn't tried to tease that one, left that alone. By the way today is 73th Republic Day of India🇮🇳. Session 1 went in no time, as I was trying to see the live parade at New Delhi which was being telecaated on television. I was just watching that one, when I got the news that the flag hoisting program ended which was held nearer to our home. Session 2 begin with live telecast of Parade. I really enjoyed the defence and cultural shows that took place. It was really depicting our country's cultural heritage and defence sector. After watching this eventful program, I went to fly kites to celebrate the remarkable day of our Country. After that I had lunch. I watched the film 'Chak De! India' which is also my personal. At around 4 pm, I went to play cricket with my friend Om. We played two matches there, and we won both. The second one was really close but my perfect bowling snatched away the match from opponents. Session 2 ended there. Session 3 began with me indulged in studies, preparing for the rest on upcoming Saturday.

During the whole session 3, I was thinking about Ayush, whether my behavior is correct or wrong towards him. I am not able to judge myself. I had discussed this topic with my few friends but couldn't find any solution to this topic. The condition still remains confusing...

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The day was a slower one away from the stumps finding it's way to the keeper. Session 1 began but it was so cold, that it was becoming quite unbearable. Session 2 was also equally good, all the lectures ending one by one. We literally enjoyed Maths lecture today, as our Maths lecturer was in finest mood. The class ended as there was no Inorganic Chemistry lecture. We enjoyed a small music concert during lunch as Aman had brought a Bluetooth speaker, we started playing some weirdest songs, everyone was laughing in the class. It became even more joyful when our Attendant Mam was standing near the door, watching us, at the same time, we played the weirdest song of all time.

The day went in a little bit of disappointment as I am deliberately ignoring my friend Ayush. If I am doing so there is a reason behind that. I didn't talked to him during the whole session, I do wanted to talk to him but the second personality inside me stopped from talking to him. I want him to realize his mistake, then only I will talk to him. Even when I was logging off from classes, he said "Bye! " But I didn't replied to him, I am very upset, couldn't express my feelings right now.

Session 2 ended with me studying Maths, then in session 3 I began studying Physics. But my behavior with Ayush was right or wrong, I couldn't judge myself?

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The day seemed to be like a pacy one behind my legs, which was then after called a wide. I didn't tried to hit that. The Sun was setting in the sky but today it's not brighter like yesterday. As usual NO COMMENTS on Session 1. Today, there was our Physics test, all my friends were feeling nervous, but I wasn't bothered at all, because our calmness could help me to improve better and I could attempt the test better. Chemistry lecture ended in no time and the heartbeats increasing with time, as our lecturer came in class. Everyone was in state of fear, but he didn't took the test. In that strictness, I understood that the fear of being beaten made us study more better. Fear is like a medicine, which increases our Thinking ability. Then the Maths lecture went smoothly as anyone didn't make any nuisance in class. I was quite happy cause I was able to solve some of the questions. After that, the Chemistry [Inorganic] was cancelled as our lecturer was unable to come today. In that time, we were told some instructions by our Attendant Mam. She also declarwd two best students of class, unfortunately I was not in them, because both were girls Vaidehi and Mahak. I wasn't worried at all, because the true enjoyment of life is in being a half rogue. After, I came home, I heard some of my fav songs then sat for study. Session 2 ended with me studying. In the same way Session 3 ended.

The life's boat is sailing, will look on to new challenges everyday.....

[ashvibes193]

What to describe about today, the day was like a alower one outside off, which I left it alone. Session 1 began late as I woke up a bit late today, cause there was no tension of going to classes in hurry and all that, the session was partly cloudy, but session 2 began with bright sunlight, I had my hair cut today, then bathed at around 1 p.m., it was too late, then I had lunch. I studied a bit. I was watching the third ODI between India and South Africa. India had miserably lost the series by 2-0, but the one going today is looking quite to India's side as India scalped early wickets. It seems India may win today's match. As eve began, I went out to play with my friend Om. It was great playing with him. I returned home and the second session ended there, the third session began with me having some snacks, my mom was trying to make cutlets, which I enjoyed much. Then I sat for studying. I've to study the GRAVITATION chapter completely as tomorrow our physics lecturer is going to take a test. If any of us failed to answer any, he would gonna beat us badly. But, I am damn ready for that. I, while having dinner watched match. Deepak Chahar had played an excellent knock, but the supremacy of Lungi Ngidi bowled Deepak out, after that India lost the match, it was a great heartbreak for all Indians, because the Proteas snatched the match which was likely to be won by India. It was really disappointing to see gloomy faces of Indian Athletes, but more that of Deepak, who tried from his head to toe to win this match. India unfortunately lost the series 3-0. Anyways it's just a game, but sometimes emotions also play a part there.

Today, I learnt that life is like a game, we could win, if we understand the mentality of opponents. If you get disappointed you constantly loose. The attitude of success should be there in us.

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Today's day was a googly outside off stump, blocked that out effortlessly. Session 1: NO COMMENTS!! Session 2 began with our Chemistry test on Isomerism and Electrophile/Nucleophile. The test was damn easy, but felt slightly difficult to move on from question 4 and 5. I asked help from one of good friends Aman. He had completed his test and was submitting paper, at the time of submission, he somehow gave the chit to me, where question 4,5 we're solved. I was quite happy, as I had completed the whole test successfully. After that we just enjoyed the free lectures in having lunch and talking. Then began our Maths class, we today also make fun of him, which was a thing of shame for us. At the end of lecture he came towards me and murmured something. Nobody was able to hear, but I heard that. He said, "How arrogant students these are! " I felt bad for that, tried to apologize but didn't got any chance to do so. In the lecture of Inorganic, we just wrote formulae and formulae, no other discussion took place today. After the classes, I came back home soon and had some rest. Then in the evening, went out to play Cricket withy friends, after a two week break. That's too long, as I got 5 batting chances and got miserably got out on every innings' first ball, doesn't that sounds funny. Session three began with me resting as today's Saturday, and mostly I try to rest on this day. Session 3 ends with me studying Gravitation. Our Physics lecturer is going to scalp our wickets on Monday, so I would have to study accordingly.

New day brings new experiences in life, will try to experience something new tomorrow......

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Today's day was bouncer, but I ducked that successfully. Session 1 began very late and as slept last night very late. So I was a little late to reach the classes. Session 1 was ended there, session 2 went out in immense fear of lecturers, for they threatened us today, we have to hear anti-inspirational speech in the Physics and Chemistry lectures. Our physics lecturer was discussing about the various punishment he gives i.e. of beating us badly. On hearing such things from him, I was like, I had some doubts in questions, but was unable to ask him that, due to fear. He strictly ordered us to learn all the formulas of GRAVITATION chapter, due to his fear, I literally read and all the formulas were learnt by me by heart. Today, it was a new experience of FEAR. Today, I learnt that fear of something makes us to perform difficult tasks. FEAR has it's own definition. Session 2 ended, I early departed from classes. Then the ODI between IND and SA was going to begin. I started my television set, and started watching without any hesitation. After 3 p.m. I felt that wasting time is not wise, so i started studying Cartesian Coordinate System of Maths. Tomorrow, there is theory test of Chemistry. I hadn't prepared that much, but I'm damn confident that I can cover whole syllabus of test in one night, for I'm experienced in that. Session 3 began with me busy in studies, it looks like I will have to prepare better for Maths, cause it's my weak side.

FEAR!!! The one who can penetrate our mind to perform difficult tasks, from which we try to ruh away in our life. FEAR, also plays an important part in our life, it's also an integral part of our life. Looking forward to experience some new moral values as today I learnt. Till Then, Enjoy The Moment Of Your Life .

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Today's day was a quicker one outside off, I wanted to hit that but left it alone. Session 1; as usual NO COMMENTS!! Session 2 began smoothly, the lectures ended one by one quickly. Today, we had made too much fun of our Maths lecturer, I think that we've crosses the limits today. Later, we came to know that he had complained against us to our centre head. We had to listen some motivating words from them. Then, we decided not to make his fun again. I came back home enjoyed the sunlight for sometime, then got over my studies. Session 2 with studies. Session 3 began with studies. But, TIMMM...... In the beginning of the third session light goes off for about a hour, I then called one of my good friends Aarya and talked to her about half an hour. It was a great experience talking to her. It was the first time I called a girl and spoke to her. But seriously, loved talking to such a charming girl. Session 3 ended with studies and all that ends for the day. It seems like that tomorrow is the Second ODI between INDIA vs SOUTH AFRICA. I will wish that Indian side will take positives from the defeat in first match then, would win the one on tomorrow. Hope so, India will win.

Will look to focus mainly on studies, not on my future. Ready To Fight!!!