hallo, les! me again (the other little that sent in an ask a while ago, though i did not sign with anything....). i like the picture of your maman you posted! is she the one who helps you out when dan can't?
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Maman is complicated. She helps sometimes but sometimes she can be super mean. She makes sure I don't have any boo boos though. Do you have someone to help you?
Can I have some Loustat agere (Little Lestat) with them reminiscing over Claudia together
It happens every time Lestat's mother comes to visit. Like clockwork.
He's a little strange while she's around, but he holds it together. Louis sees the cracks, of course, and he wonders if it's possible that Gabriella can truly not see them, but he has to admit that Lestat can be very good at holding himself together. For a little while.
Then, inevitably, Gabriella leaves.
When Lestat falls apart, the devastation can echo for decades. So can Louis really complain when Lestat falls apart by becoming small instead?
It's almost cute— Lestat, his big, bad wolf, laying on the floor on his stomach in his striped pajamas, playing with the train set Daniel and Armand gave them for Christmas or flipping through old magazines to find pictures to cut out and glue into chaotic collages that will find their way into the drawer where Louis keeps all of his Lestat memorabilia, safe from any future versions of Lestat who might want to throw them away. He's quieter like this, and he lets Louis play with his hair as much as he likes.
The hardest part is that when Lestat is small, he doesn't remember that his sister is gone.
"When will Claudia be home?" he'll ask as he uncaps a glue stick, a throwaway question, no weight to it at all.
At first, Louis had tried to explain to him, gently, that Claudia was dead. Lestat hadn't reacted with anger or sorrow or even confusion— he'd just kicked his feet and asked again, "When will Claudia be home?" It was as if he couldn't hear the words.
Louis had done some reading after that. A lot of reading, actually. Funnily enough, it wasn't anything about dissociation or trauma that had helped him in the end. Frustrated, out of ideas, he'd picked up at random a book about dementia.
"When discussing a diseased family member," the book had said, "it is best not to lie to your loved one, but trying to remind them that a lost loved one is gone is likely to cause agitation and confusion. Instead, ask them questions about their loved one. Reminiscing will help your family member to feel connected both to you and to those they have lost."
So that's what he does now; he encourages reminiscing.
"What are your favorite things to do with your sister?" he asks, or, "What is your favorite thing about your sister?" or, "What do you think your sister would want to do if she were here right now?"
His voice almost always cracks on the questions, but Lestat doesn't seem to notice.
"I like to play chess with my sister," he might say, or, "My favorite thing about my sister is that she is the best hunter in the world," or, "If my sister were here right now we wouldn't be at home, we'd be out in the park, listening to people's thoughts and laughing at their silly human troubles. Can we go to the park, Louis?"
"Yes," Louis says, his voice tight in his throat. "Yes, baby, we can go to the park."
Hello, Little Lion! What is your favorite app on your phone right now or favorite game? I imagine you need some because you travel so much.
Great question. I enjoy the piano tiles it is one of my favorites. I am at a very high level if you can believe it. I believe it's because of my years of skills on the piano.
hallo les! from one little to another- do you have any tips when it comes to regressing around other people? you mentioned dan helps you out, but i imagine it's tricky in such high-profile stressful settings!!
My biggest advice is to have someone you trust to at least know about it. They don't necessarily have to take care of you but if they know about it they can help you get out of a situation where you're clearly around others who don't know.
And another way to think about it is would you rather do something that could be considered slightly embarrassing with people who are close to you or repress it so long that it happens when you're around people who don't know you.
I have been known to choose the second option and that's never fun for either party.
Hello, Little Lion! I heard you recently took some very grown up medications. How are you feeling after everything? I hope your trip wasn't too scary!
I'm on the bathroom floor. But I'm going to make it back to my bed soon. My head really hurts and people had weird eyes and weird mouths and weird noises. It was kind of scary but I am super strong. Super strong vampire boy. My mommy is coming to help me.. You can't tell her I called her that. Shhh!
little lion, does your grownup Dan know that Armand is mean to you?
Yes! He tells him to stop but I feel like because they have a stupid maker bond it's different :( Sometimes I do start the issues but Armand shouldn't be allowed to bite! >:(