Nothingness.
Not darkness, but a void that no living creature could even begin to comprehend. Vast, plain nothingness – a non-existent space, yet oh so real, which seconds ago had been a room with his mother’s blue rocking chair.
Feliciano had been in this place – if you could call it a place – many times before, but he knew he would never get used to it. Well, technically, he was not here... his soul was. Detached from his body, torn by the channeling, his cracked soul flickered in agony, shrieking. The familiar feeling of drowning in the airless void made his chest burn.
But Feliciano had experience this time and didn’t let the pain blur his thoughts for long. Himawari’s advice echoed through his mind – “It will be alright. Look for your Guardian”.
Look for your Guardian.
...
Ludwig.
He cried his name desperately, and somehow the sound travelled through the dream-like void, only to scatter fruitlessly.
No answer.
He tried again, with the same outcome, and spun around aimlessly trying to find him.
Why? Why couldn’t he see Ludwig’s soul?!
Wait... Feliciano remembered that he had been alone when he had sat in the rocking chair. The thought made him panic. Ludwig was not there, he could not help... He HAD to wake up by himself.
Wake up. An agonizing feeling of dread made his thoughts spiral out of control. Wake up. Wake up. Wake up wake up wakeupwakeupwakeUPWAKEUPWAKEUP PLEASE NOT LIKE THIS PLEASE JUST ONCE MORE, LET ME WAKE UP AND SEE THEM JUST ONCE MORE. OH GOD I’M DYING I’M DYING I’M– Or was he already dead? How could he know? Destined to float in the middle of nowhere, drowning for all eternity, on his own, slowly losing all his memories and with them, all the traces of his humanity.
Suddenly, he felt a stinging pain in his knuckles.
In his knuckles...
He wasn’t dead yet! He HAD to be alive! His body was scratching his damaged knuckles, as it always did, out of pure instinct. There was hope... as long as there was pain, there was still hope.
He only had to focus on the pain until his Guardian and Priest arrived.
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[There you go, a glimpse into Feli’s mind. This format really lets me convey more information faster! Sorry for the delay, I needed a rest from social media.]
((Anon!Event: Back to Italy 3/3 - PART 6.1 - TO BE CONTINUED))
Part 1 || Part 2 || Part 3 || Part 4 || Part 5 || Part 6
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[I need to really thank this fragment’s beta readers:
@bella-ciao-procrastinates and @knivvez
Thank you so much <3]