Well, time to make it official
//Going to be honest, I’ve been talking about closing this blog for a long while. I’ve not got the energy, nor the will or the focus to run it. However, I still think that it has potential. But not as I am now. RIght now, I’m a ball of stresses and mixed emotions and goals that need to be prioritized. . So with this post, I am officially on hiatus. I’ve got things IRL, and online, that I want to set straight. Everyone’s moving on, moving forward yet I’ve let myself get stuck in a rut of self-pity and burned out emotions. Right now, I guess I’m not cut out to run a tumblr RP blog. Maybe in the future I’ll return and pick up where I’ve left off, but right now this is another burden atop a list of burdens. Going to be honest again, the reasons I started this blog were threefold - one, it was a on whim, two, I wanted to be popular with... well... everyone. But in trying to get popular, I’ve lost sight of what I want, who I am, why I RP. And three: Because I experienced this same burnout in another RP community, and instead of working on it I did my usual trick of running away and hiding from it. But recently... I’ve realised I want to go back there. I guess this sounds really... well... dickish considering, but I feel this is for the best. I’m sorry... I’ve made many friends here, and I love you all and want to thank all of you for being my friends and for putting up with me. I hope we can still be friends even after I leave. But running this blog... I’ve always felt like a burden upon you all honestly, unworthy of your friendship and jealous that I could not be as good as you, as popular as you. Hopefully, without the stress that running this blog brings, I’ll be able to work on bettering myself.
Although that’s not to say I’m quitting tumblr entirely - I’ll be on my personal blog psychicmudfish more than likely if you want to reach me, and my skype is never logged off if you have me added there.
I just... I need to start clearing my head and realising what I want to do, where I want to be, and this blog isn’t really where I want to be at the moment.
So I guess this is... well, I can’t really say goodbye. More like... See you soon. hopefully. Maybe one day I’ll return stronger, more confident, and I hope that we can be friends then too. But until then laters~
