from smalltown, anywhere

Dani Suarez. Twenty one. I work at a little place called Forte. I live with my best bud in the whole word, Elliott. I'm an aspiring musician, but I feel like that's usually the case.

[askdanisuarez]

It's been five days. I think I'm still hungover. I hope everyone is fairing better than me. 

[askdanisuarez]

Merry Christmas!

Dani,

I'm so glad we found each other again and I was feeling a bit nostalgic, so I got you a few things for Christmas. I hope you're having a good holiday and my parents say hello!

- Sebastian

Your nails always look super cool and black, so I got you some new black nail polish! (My sister might have picked this one out.)

Okay, this is another sentimental one that mom made me send you when she found it. It's a picture of us from behind when we were really little. If you tell anyone I'm being this soft....just....don't.

You can totally wear cool things, and I thought these sunglasses were super cool. They were featured in The Great Gatsby, which makes them cooler. Hope you have a good Christmas and text me soon!

[askdanisuarez]

TEXT MESSAGE ⇄ SUGAR

D: Hey, Sugar. Thank you so much for the Cap strap. I can't wait to put it on my guitar. I didn't even think about Christmas gifts because it's not something I really celebrate. You are amazing.

[askdanisuarez]

Dani, 

We've oly had one conversation but it started off with food, which makes you a supremely awesome being. I think you mentioned Captain America somewhere.. so.. Merry Christmas!

- Sugar.

[askdanisuarez]

Hey, Dani. Thanks so much for the hoodie! I know it must have been hard for you to buy instead of getting me a red, white, and blue one, but I love it. Thanks again and Merry Christmas!

It hurt a lot. I have to physically use my other hand to make my one hand pay for it. But I'm glad you like it. I hope you wear it a lot. 

[askdanisuarez]

Hello there.

I'm sure we've never had a conversation but that's not to mean that I wouldn't want to. From afar you seem like a wonderful person. I hope this isn't too strange but in the spirit of gift giving at Christmas, I was given your name. I looked through your blog here and saw that you're a Captain America fan. That's a movie I've seen so I can say I know something about him too.

I also see that you're a musician. Righteous! 

Hope you enjoy your gifts.

Have a blessed Christmas.

[seb-ask-tian]

Mind Eraser | Dani + Sebastian

[askdanisuarez]

Tagged → Dani and Sebastian

Location → Uptown Bar

Timeframe → Late Afternoon, Dec 22

General Notes → Sebastian and his old friend go out for some drinks. Sebastian tries to forget everything that’s happening.

Sebastian:

Sebastian’s mind was everywhere that he didn’t want it to be. Thinking about Blaine hurt, but trying not to think about Blaine hurt even worse. The alcohol had already begun it’s numbing effect, and he was beginning to relax a little. He was glad to have a friend like Dani, a friend who knew him when he was younger. A friend who missed all of the bullshit that he did when he was a teenager. She knew who Sebastian was though, and Sebastian appreciated it more than anything. He took another sip of his whiskey and ran a hand through his hair, eyeing the bartender. It would be so easy to revert back to everything he had once known and just end things with Blaine. He didn’t want to, and losing Blaine sounded like torture, but he was so good at numbing pain.

Sex and alcohol were the main components in the numbing process, though other things were involved as well. For one, he had used marijuana on more than one account. He liked it a lot, but never got really in to it. Maybe he could get back in to that. He could go back to the one night stands and the blacking out and the waking up in strange places. As much as he didn’t want to, it was beginning to look as if he would have to go back to his old life. He didn’t want to look ahead at that, and he wanted to give Blaine time. But the bartender was looking at Sebastian like he was a god, and he missed that. He wanted to feel wanted. But he would never cheat on Blaine. As long as they were together, it would only go as far as flirting. Because somewhere along the line he had become noble.

He ordered another drink, tapping his fingers on the table as he waited for Dani. He checked his phone every five seconds, waiting for a call from Blaine or something. He knew it wouldn’t come, and he might not get a reply after the hostile text he had sent, but he had hope. False hope. He needed Dani there so he could vent.

DANI:

Wrapping a coat tighter around her, Dani hurried down the street. She held her purse tight to her body. It was too fucking cold, but Sebastian needed her. It didn't matter that it had been years since they had seen each other. He was her friend and he asked her for something. It wasn't often, that she could remember, that Sebastian asked for things. 

Finally reaching the bar, she shivered and pulled open the door. It was warmer inside and she knew the alcohol soon to be coursing through her veins would heat things up even more. She looked around the bar until she spotted Sebastian. He was firmly planted at the bar, his eyes hungrily eyeing the bartender. She pushed her way towards him and poked his side when she got close.

"Hey, stranger." She popped a kiss onto his cheek noticing how warm he felt already. She plopped down on the barstool next to him, angry about how her legs barely reached the bar. "Order me whatever you're drinking. I need to catch up."

[askdanisuarez]

Texts | Dani + Seb

Sebastian: Alright, see you soon.

Dani: Yeah, yeah. See you soon.

[askdanisuarez]

Texts | Dani + Seb

Sebastian: He is not.

Sebastian: I'm on 54th. Uptown Bar. There's a cute bartender.

Dani: I'm not arguing the truth with you.

Dani: Alright, on my way. Please, I'm the cutest bartender. He can be a soft second.

[askdanisuarez]

Texts | Dani + Seb

Sebastian: He's not an asshole. I just told him not to talk to me, which is unusual because when I'm angry I typically yell until I feel better. But I don't even want to deal with him or this right now. Him and Kurt deserve each other.

Sebastian: I may or may not have already started drinking.

Dani: He's definitely an asshole. No ifs, ands, or buts about it.

Dani: Where are you? So I can head over.

[askdanisuarez]

Texts | Dani + Seb

Bas: Let's go out though. But I just...I just want to stay there, okay? I don't know if Blaine and I will make it and I don't want to think about it and I just want to get drunk and harmlessly flirt with multiple men. Even though I won't because I'll just think about him more.

Dani: We can go out. Yeah, you know you can stay. Why the fuck not? Make him suck your dick in public. He's an idiot and I hate him. I don't need to know him, but if he's fucking you over during CHRISTMAS, he's an asshole.

[askdanisuarez]

Texts | Dani + Seb

Bas: I don't know. I can't be in this stupid apartment. Want to go get drunk tonight?

Dani: Whatever you want. We can definitely get drunk. And you know my place is as good as yours.

[askarchived]

Finals are next week.

[askarchived]

Were you working when I was singing or something? I knew you looked familiar from somewhere. What other hair colors have you had? Oh, and thank you for the compliment.

[askdanisuarez]

I think so. Well, I mean, I know I was. Since I remember you. And your voice. And your face. But mostly the name and the voice. Blonde and brown. Right now it's blue. You're welcome.

[askdanisuarez]

-text- I need to stay with you. For a day or two, that's all. I leave for Ohio on the 23rd.

-text- Yeah, no problem. What's going on though? Do you need me to come get you? 

[asktinkerberry]

I believe a few thank yous are in order...

I’m sure many would view 19 as a rather innocuous birthday to simply pass by before the bigger and better 21st comes along, however, I can confirm to any fans or followers still waiting on tenterhooks that I had the very best birthday ever. I should probably apologize for my relative lack of posting over the past two days but, as I will clarify later in this post, I have simply been too busy to stop and fill you in on all the wonderful developments in my life. I would like to begin this post with a series of thank yous to several people who ensured that my birthday reached the levels of brilliance previously only seen when Ms. Barbra Streisand herself takes to the stage.

First off, to all those of you who sent me birthday wishes, and the occasional gift, I say a heartfelt thank you. It is always lovely to know that my birthday has been remembered, and is being commemorated, by so many different people, and it is a wonderful contrast to the years I spent struggling in relative anonymity. I was hardly expecting my fans to be so active so early on in my career — exempting, of course, the usual creepy gift, courtesy of Jacob Ben Israel, — and yet the lovely Callie (who you can find at her own blog eveningshadows), provided me with a fantastic new Barbra-themed phone case. I can assure you it is already adorning my iphone, and letting the whole world know of my love and dedication to the one true diva, and star. 

Secondly, to my dads. Although we may have been cruelly separated and unable to complete all of our Rachel Berry Day traditions together, I can hardly say your presence was not felt during my very special day. I wasn’t actually aware that they sold gold plated turkey basters and yet such a metaphoric reference to my conception did not go unappreciated. I can only hope that as technology improves, that the sound of our skype calls will even begin to match the true quality of our harmonies on You’re The Top. My life would be irrevocably different without your support, love and pre-dinner shows and I am endlessly thankful for the fact I was born a Berry. For being a Berry means being brave, independent and confident in oneself in a way that I doubt many other parents foster in their children. They have ensured I am not only prepared for the challenges of Broadway, but also life, and I know that no matter what happens, I will always have two extremely proud men giving me a standing ovation. 

Finally, to my perfect, and extremely handsome, boyfriend, I would like to dedicate my biggest thank you. I doubt that even my expansive and often intimidating vocabulary could begin to convey just how thankful I am both for you, and all that you have brought to my life. For those of you who are either ignorant of all things Broadway, and have therefore missed its next biggest star, or have ‘stumbled’ onto my blog, I am of course referring to one Jesse St. James, who is not only extremely talented on stage but also in the planning of birthdays. I’m not entirely sure where to begin in describing the impeccably organized day that Jesse designed for me, so I have taken the rather unprecedented decision to keep the majority of the day a private matter. I suppose you could view it as simply preparations for my impending stardom, and the battle I will have to wage to keep our lives as private as possible, but in fact, the day was simply too incandescently wonderful to taint by making it public knowledge. 

I will, however, reveal one of the many presents I was lucky enough to receive from Jesse and simultaneously push this post towards looking towards the future and the next year ahead of us. I am, of course, referring to the fact I was invited to move in officially with Jesse. I know that several of my friends viewed Jesse and I as practically living together anyway and yet to make it official is decidedly more thrilling than I had ever previously imagined. I think it is the perfect time to take on this new challenge as we embrace the new year together in our very own home. I would think this has clarified what I spent the majority of yesterday doing as I moved everything from my vintage record collection to my bedazzling set into the apartment that is now officially my home. I’m sure the months ahead will present both exciting new adventures, and the occasional strife (a key example being my refusal to let go of my pink throw regardless of Jesse’s unnatural aversion to the colour) but I am immensely excited to start!

I believe now all there is left for me to say is another thank you to all those of you who celebrated Rachel Barbra Berry Day (National holiday pending), and sent me such wonderful well wishes. I can assure you that they were both appreciated and integral to ensuring my day was of the highest calibre! 

Lots of love and stardust, Rachel Barbra Berry ★

[askdanisuarez]

Shouldn't you be busy rehearsing or whatever it is that you do instead of writing a million word posts on Tumblr? 

But happy belated birthday. 

[seb-ask-tian]

Christmas is in, like, a week.

Shit.

[askdanisuarez]

You are really good at calendars. I can tell.

[askthemegastud]

It's been a rough week.

[askthemegastud]

Don’t hold back now. It’s much better than just nice, c’mon.

[askdanisuarez]

It's nice. I can't go into more detail than that. But I can talk about the potato king thing. People would think it was a royal funeral.