I suppose 'easier' is one way of putting it. Catching my reflection doesn't jar me as much as it once did. I've gotten better at using these new hands, and I'm more aware of my size, my strength. You could say I'm managing well enough but there are- challenges, of course. I continue to feel like an outsider in this body, even though it's perfectly clear that it's my own. Maybe it's because despite everything, I'm still having trouble accepting all of this. Or perhaps it's so difficult in the first place because I still have regrets about the situation as a whole. I guess only time will tell for sure.
...Raven said once that I was always supposed to end up this way, that it was simply who I was meant to be. It's certainly possible that she's right, but even if that were the case, I would have much rather let nature take its course than allow the ill effects of my vanity to accelerate the process.
Mostly I try to keep myself busy so I don't have to think about it.Â