I'm not sure what to say. I'm mobile so I can't do a readmore so on sorry if this is annoying. So I guess the Boss/Steve ship is all over. Makes me really upset to say it, because I really enjoyed it and it made me happy. Nothing really makes me happy anymore. I sound so dumb, but make fun of me all you want. I don't care. I don't care anymore. I guess I also seem like I'm immature to pretty much being done here over it. Though the truth is that Boss had been really the only person here to consistently rp with me. Yes there are some amazing people here that I have met and have done a rp or two with me. Though I constantly feel overlooked/ignored here. Might stem from my anxiety though I don't feel right reaching out for stuff and just overall feel annoying. I don't seem to connect because I've been abandoned countless times by family and friends in my life. So the pleny of times I've had people say "you can talk to/rp with me anytime!" And that's that doesn't do anything for me. I just disconnect myself from it, trying to avoid the inevitable sinking feeling. And I suppose its happening again. With that explination I guess I'm just feeling a sort of inability to continue here even of I really want to. I loved rping here, so fucking much. And its all gone. Probably mostly my fault. I've got a lot of issues. Sorry.









