Window seat

Fries are more than shit

[aslightasair]

今天的我才发现自己的人生是多么的可笑。

学会不指望太多或许对自己才是最好的。

It hurts less when you know nothing.

[aslightasair]

For me, you are irreplaceable.

But for you, I am replaceable.

Do you know the reason behind it?

Because you were my first love.

Never a day I stop thinking about you.

I guess you will always have a special place in my heart.

[aslightasair]

Yesterday was the first time we see each other after seven months.

I thought I can handle it. I thought I have moved on. But those feelings came back seamlessly and I should have expected it.

[aslightasair]

I miss us. 17.08.2018

[aslightasair]

活在这世上好累。已经不知道活着的意义到底是什么。我还能承受多久？

[aslightasair]

It hurts. It still hurts until now. When will I ever move on?

[aslightasair]

I dreamt about you again last night, after so long.

[alecsgrg]

Lago di Carezza | ( by Jake Guzman )

[aslightasair]

Reality

That was the last time I put efforts on us. 

The moment when you talked about your future without me, I knew that seeing you again is another mistake. 

Why did I keep telling lies to myself? Why did I keep hoping on something that has no results? 

You told me reality shows that we can’t go forward. And it took me two years to accept that reality.

Goodbye for now. 

[courtmoly]

[aslightasair]

Week One

It has been a week since I have stayed with this lovely Italian family. The dad is a funny man while the mom makes really good food. I spent most of my time with the two boys during the morning and afternoon. They gave me a little tour around the town of Lomazzo on the second day and had my first gelato. On some days, the boys fought a lot even on little things such as which way to use to walk back home. 

D and I met yesterday and we enjoyed every moment we have spent together. We stayed at Valmadrera and went to visit Como Lake in the afternoon. We decided to go Bellagio to see the lake and had a dinner at Varenna. The next day, we went back to Lomazzo and had a lunch together with my part time family. D went back to Trento afterwards. 

June 17, 2018

[aslightasair]

Two years ago, I made the choice to leave. It took me a long time to decide whether I should stay or leave. Two years later, I made the same choice again. Never a day I didn't think about you. I wish I could tell you how much I want to stay. I wish we are not miles apart. I wish you are happy.

[aslightasair]

Don’t wanna cross the border because I’m afraid of getting hurt again. 

[746a70]

[thelovejournals]

…I want you to know how sorry I am for pushing you away when I had only meant to bring you closer.

Lang Leav, “For You,” Lullabies (via wordsnquotes)

[aslightasair]

I walked into your life and let you destroyed me emotionally. You are the worst thing I could ever ask for. 

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