Hi, my name is ______, and I am here to blog because I can’t seem to stay sober.
My name is not important. Nor my past. What matters is my present and future. I am here because I can’t stay sober. I need an outlet to write. And I am tired of people not understanding. I am tired of losing people. After giving the last 3 years of my life to other people. 2015 to my brother who died in a drunk driving accident. 2016-2017 to a narcissist who drunkenly raped me, and someone I once called a friend, this year... 2018 is MINE.
That Narcissist I mentioned? Don’t worry, the drunk me decided to pull a stunt to end things once and for all this past Wednesday, so he’s out of the picture. Never have I ever been in such an abusive friendship. Though in a sick way I miss him.... never again.
I have been trying to find a reason to keep going. To believe I am worth it. To feel some sort of spark of life again. After losing 2 friends in my life this past week, I am bulletproof. But also grieving.Â
Reach out if you wish.Â