doing feedist kink stuff alone is fine. itās passable. it satisfies a need. but doing feedist stuff with another feedist? whether itās very subtle things, not-so-subtle things, and everything in between. itās all so good.
⨠seeing you look over at me when I get in the car to see how much space Iām taking up in it (yes, I see you. I clock it almost every time Iām in the car with another feedist lol)
⨠noticing how your brain short-circuits and you lose track of your words when I talk about how hungry I am, even in a very normal, non-horny way. and how satisfying it is to see you all nervous.
⨠feeling the way your hands sink into me when we hug and linger for a second longer than anyone elseās do. and how much I love the fleeting feeling of you not wanting to let go of that softness.
⨠how happy you are when I ask you to do something for me that relates to eating or taking care of something that is difficult specifically because Iām so fat, and the flutters I get inside as youāre doing it for me. plus, letās not forget the way you blush when I call attention to how obvious it is that you like doing it for me so much.
⨠the mix of fear and contentment on your face when my huge body is on top of you. like, you donāt want to die right now, but also if you did, youād die happy. I'd never ever hurt you (unless you wanted me to), but thereās something special about having that power and control over you as youāre almost helpless beneath me.
itās hard to even describe the way it feels to be with another person who is on your level in that way. the pleasure feedback loop of it all is amazing. iām lowkey (or highkey tbh) turned on by my body itself, how it interacts with the world, and by the pleasure I get from eating. youāre turned on by my body and by me eating, and the pleasure I get from it, and showing me that you're turned on through looks or touch or words. now iām more turned on because I know how turned on you are, and Iām going to use that to be even sluttier and turn us both on even more and our straight up horniness for each other and reactions get even more intense as we go. and I know this is just how regular person sex works (ideally) also, but when itās this thing that made you feel alone for so long, itās fucking special on a totally different level to participate in it with someone else. it just is!!!
and on a bit more of an emotional note - how good it feels to have a place, in a shared connection with someone else, with a strong sense of belonging. it can be so hard to find that anywhere in the world as a fat person, much less as a feedist, so getting to have it with someone else (online or irl) is essential to my personal fulfillment! and maybe it is for you too!