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American Psycho is my heartstopper 🥰🥰

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The start to a little comic I am working on for my fic, Constant and Sharp on Ao3!!! I’ve never posted my art before so!!! EEK!! This is based around the song “Tear You Apart” by She Wants Revenge!!! This song was literally written for them btw.

[acefuruya]

the longer I sit with obsession the more empathy I start to feel for entity!nikki. this creature that was created solely to love one person with this all-encompassing intensity that needed to be stronger than anything anyone felt in the entire world. entity!nikki whose entire world was just one single focal point; she'd do anything for bear to love her. she didn't know anything when she came into existence, but she was willing to do anything to get this man to fall for her.

it must have been equally terrifying for her as it was for the real nikki to have someone else fight for control over what she perceived as her body. the scene where she's sobbing in the corner, terrified of her dreams is now more sad than terrifying to me. real nikki, who has just been raped by her once best friend hurting so badly that it seeps into entity!nikki's nightmares. entity!nikki who doesn't understand why the thing she wanted so badly is causing her so much pain. why she can't bring herself to lie in bed next to the man who is the center of her world.

and the worst part is bear doesn't even seem to like her. she's trying so so hard; she made a lovely memorial for his dead cat, she waited for him to come home all day without moving an inch, she made sure to be the most doting girlfriend at the party, and he's not pleased by any of it. he seems disturbed and angry and scared and she has no idea what to do to make it better. to make it worse, he keeps asking her to behave like the original nikki but he was the one who wished for her!! she can't be like nikki because nikki was simply not capable of loving bear even a fraction of how much she does!

she can't seem to reconcile it; he wanted her so badly he conjured her into reality and now he doesn't want her anymore. she doesn't know what to do. she tries everything. she obsesses over him, she threatens to hurt herself, she gets rid of that bitch sarah who keeps distracting him and trying to steal him away, and then dresses in her clothes for good measure and he still doesn't want her.

and then finally in a fit of desperation, she makes the wish and for one beautiful moment its all perfect. he's finally looking at her the way she looks at him. and then he's dead and she's lost everything.

her entire existence, from the moment of her conception to her death was painful, and confusing, and so very sad.

[selfvirtue]

i've been trying to understand why the director said that nikki wasn't possessed but your explanation of an entity being created, which is very different than demonic possession, makes complete sense. a life created solely to fufill bears wish, fighting for control over a body she shares with the real nikki. literally learning as she goes and the center of her life constantly meets her with discomfort or anger. reminds me a lot of frankenstein and the creature.

[wingly-coded]

This is my Roman Empire tbh

[yyyyddmmsupremacy-deactivated20]

one person's "ugghh this trope is so overdone" is another person's "oooooohohohohohohohoho"

[sleevebuscemii]

how i watch half man

[thoraelrlffnem]

Season 5 should've resolved the previous plotlines, not introduced new ones

Season 5 should've focused on the actual main characters, not a bunch of new ones

Season 5 should've had the apocalyptic theme they left off season 4 in, not just covering the upside down with metal bars and call it a day

Season 5 should've had the core four be together, not being seperated again

Season 5 should've given Jane independence, not making her entirely dependant on men like she had always been and not even making her last moments about herself.

Season 5 should've developed Steve and Nancys platonic bond, not forcing Steves romantic feelings again

Season 5 should've either bought Will and Mike together or fixed Mike and Jane, not just ignoring their problems and leaving it ambigious if they were dating to queerbait us

Season 5 should've given Will a love interest, not an imaginary epilogue boyfriend

Season 5 should've focused on Mike and Nancy, not Holly

Season 5 should've created new iconic moments, not try to recreate prior seasons iconic moments (and fail)

Season 5 should've given Lucas his own arc, not just make him Max' boyfriend

Season 5 should've made Erica a main character, not sideline her give her a total of 15 minutes screentime

Season 5 should've made the painting pay off, not just abandoning it yet still putting it in the epilogue

Season 5 should've focused on being its own thing, not just nostalgiabait

Season 5 should've been for the outcasts and freaks, not the tiktok fans who probably forgot about the show until the trailer came out

[lusciousapparatus]

Martin make up your damn mind

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an angel loses its wings every time a queer ship becomes cannon at the loss of all the depth it once had.

oh wait.

[outromoony]

“They’re just fictional characters” ok then why do I feel like their heartache personally cracked my ribs?

[outromoonyy]

I still don't know my purpose on this planet but I do love reading fanfiction.

[samwwise]

you know what. maybe it’s for the best it was just a 90 minute movie. getting that ending after sitting through six episodes? i would have walked into the ocean

[daylightglitch]

aw they're gonna kiss when they're finally alone in the bookshop- nvm

aw they're gonna kiss after they made their decision- nvm

aw they're gonna kiss before they disappear- no what is the hand thing- nvm

maybe they'll kiss as humans- and then they pointed at me and laughed WELL FUCK ME THEN

[ghouell]

had a horrible time on capcut

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seeing a paulpat edit is like winning the lottery

actually, it’s better

[patrickbateussy]

Didn't realise how many PaulPat Ao3 authors were on here... Thank you for your service 💌

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🫡🫡🫡

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Haaiiiii i’m so excited to see yr writing again … idk if u ever stopped but constant & sharp almost put me in the grave…//….…….. anyway i lov u……..

thank you so much!!! i never necessarily stopped writing, i just have sooo much less time for it nowadays!! plus i go through periods of horrendous writers block or complete lapses in motivation. but i never really fully stop! i’m always jotting random things, ideas, quotes in my notes etc….

honestly if the whole editing process could go to hell and be skipped entirely, i would be much more productive as a writer.

anyways!!! thank you so much!! i’m so glad to hear it, and i sincerely hope that Full Circle ends up being able to live up to my thoughtchild that is Constant and Sharp!! Much love xxxx

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OKAY i saw someone ask u about ur beautiful fic full circle WHICH I REMEMBERED IMMEDIATELY and I LOVE ITTT i download it as epub and planning to print it so that i can read it whenever i like <3 seriously your fic is ssooooooo good great beautiful it's so engaging and so fast paced like my kind of tea! also patrick is a fucking jerk and deserved EVERYTHING worse <3 also he really really likes paul which makes him like a complete idiot lol

wait omgomgomg this is incredible!!!! lmk if you do end up printing it!! my gf bound Constant and Sharp for me like a book, and it turned out so cool!! literally in disbelief that my fic could be important enough for ANYONE to want to immortalize it on paper, that means the world to me omg!! i’m so excited!!

and i’m glad we’re on the same page. Patrick is such a POS i’m honestly too nice to him 😭😭

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engagement post caption idea:

i walked up to you and i asked. and you said yes. it was the best thing i’ve ever done.