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"To move forward" | 2

Matt Casey x reader

Words: 1558

Note: You can find the first part on my blog.

Requested by: @19dreamer01

You opened your eyes to an empty bed, Matt had already gone to work. It had been like that for the past two weeks or so. But it didn't matter as long as you got to sleep in his arms by the end of the day.

You took a shower and got ready to go to work when you got a text from Matt. It said "I love you.". Those three words instantly made your day better.

You missed Matt so much so you decided it'd be a good idea to surprise him at the firehouse. You got a couple of burgers on the way and went straight to firehouse 51.

When you first walked in, all the vehicles were there but you didn't see squad 3 at their usual place. None of them was there, which was weird.

When you got further in, you started hearing them laughing and joking. They were all gathered around and there she was... Gabby.

You saw Matt laughing too while Gabby was telling a story. The feeling of jealousy mixed with fear and anger was so strong, you didn't even recognize yourself. You knew if you got in it would probably show on your face, so you decided to leave without saying anything.

The whole ride to the district, so many things crossed your mind. Like how long has Gabby been in town? Did she just got here? Or did Matt know and chose not to tell you? You felt anxious the rest of the day and didn't really wanna go home in fear of a fight that might start because of this. You decided that you'd act like you didn't know and just wait and see if Matt will say something. You prayed with all your heart he would say something tonight.

When you got home, Matt was taking a shower. You set the table and heated up some lasagna. Matt had finished by the time you prepared everything. When he got to the kitchen, he leaned in to kiss you and you tried your best to look normal and you kissed him back.

"So, umm... Gabby's back in town." He said, while playing with his food and looking down.

You were kinda relieved that he told you but that doesn't mean you felt any less jealous or scared.

"Ohh is that so? How long has she been back?" You asked.

"Uhh I guess she got back yesterday. She came by the firehouse today. I just thought I should tell you so we wouldn't have any misunderstandings." Matt said.

"I'm glad you told me." You said, smiling.

You were in bed, lying on Matt's chest. You just couldn't sleep. The fear of losing Matt was already in your head... you lifted your head and just stared at Matt as he was sleeping. You wished that the time would stop and you two could stay at that moment forever.

The next day, firehouse 51 were celebrating Herrmann getting promoted to a lieutenant at Molly's. Matt had asked you to get there once you're done with work.

When you got there, you congratulated Herrmann for the promotion he got. Then you saw Gabby sitting there with Matt, Severide and Stella. Stella was the first one to see you and she got a bit nervous.

"Hey, Y/N! I'm really glad you came, girl!" Said Stella.

"Hey guys. Gabby, glad you're back." You said, trying to look as normal as possible. Then you sat next to Matt and kissed him.

"Glad I'm back too. I really missed Chicago and my friends." She said. Gabby figured out that you two were dating but that did not stop her from being extra friendly to Matt.

She would touch his arm and make jokes with him. You felt so jealous, she knew him way better than you, they were married, she almost had his baby, all of those things made you more fearful of losing Matt. You couldn't stay there anymore, you had to go home.

"I think I'm gonna head home. You should stay with your friends and we'll meet at home." You told Matt.

"Babe, come on. Stay a bit longer and we'll go home together." He said.

"I'm sorry, I'm just really tired." You said.

You felt like Matt got upset with you but you just couldn't stay there.

When you got home, you bursted into tears. You couldn't hold it in anymore and you didn't want Matt to see you like that. Because he had promised you he would not let you down. You couldn't help being scared. You took a shower, crying through it all. By the time you were out, Matt had gotten home.

"What was that all about?" Matt said, confused.

"What do you mean?" You said, acting clueless.

"At Molly's." He said.

"I told you, I'm really tired and I needed to get home." You said.

He got closer and lifted up your face so he would see your eyes "Have you been crying?" He said, worriedly.

"No. Some shampoo got into my eyes in the shower. I'm gonna go sleep. I have a long day tomorrow." You said, trying to run away from him and avoid the whole conversation.

For the next few days, you avoided Matt as much as you could. You came home late and went straight to bed. You didn't know if Gabby was staying for good or leaving again so you were in constant stress.

Matt started to get suspicious and he knew that you were avoiding him. He decided that he'd go to the district and talk to you. Sargent Platt let him go upstairs to the intelligence unit. You looked up and there he was right in front of you.

"We need to talk." He said, firmly.

Your coworkers started to give you weird looks.

You took him to the lounge area so you could have some privacy.

"What is it? Is everything okay?" You said.

"You tell me. Is everything okay? You think I haven't noticed how you've been avoiding me." He said.

"I think you're just imagining things, Matt." You said.

He moved in closer and said "This is about Gabby, isn't it?"

"I said it's nothing." You said, raising your voice a bit.

"Babe, talk to me." There was a pause and then he said "You have no reason to worry about Gabby or be jealous. You know that, right?"

"I'm not worried. And I'm certainly not jealous of her!" You said, anger starting to show in your voice. "Stop asking me about her!"

Matt could tell that Gabby was what's triggering you.

"You know we can't make this work if you don't talk to me. It's not gonna work between us like this." He said, looking you in the eyes.

"Well, maybe we should just breakup then. And you could be with Gabby again. Like you always wanted." You said.

"Y/N, what the hell are you talking about?! Are you serious?" He said, angrily.

"She's everything you ever wanted, everything I'm not. Do us both a favor and go back to her cuz I cannot be her." You said, with tears in your eyes.

"Y/N..." he said, when Kevin knocked on the door.

"Hey, sorry guys. Y/N, boss says we need to move." Said Kevin.

"I have to go." You said to Matt.

When you got home after work, Matt was waiting there for you.

"We have a pending conversation." He said.

"I said all I needed to say." You said, trying to go to the bedroom when Matt grabbed your arm and pulled you in tightly. You tried to escape his hug but he was way stronger than you.

You wanted to tell him to go to Gabby and to leave you alone for good. But instead all you that came out were tears. You started sobbing uncontrollably. Matt just hugged you tighter and kissed your head and kept repeating to you that everything will be just fine.

You finally started to catch your breath and tried your best to stop your tears and said "I'm so scared..." Matt looked at you confused "I'm scared that you'd realize one day that I'm not the one you actually wanna be with and that it's Gabby and then you'll just leave me... I don't know what I would do if that happens. And I saw how you are with her, how you laugh, your eyes, everything is different with her. And I can't compete with that..."

"Well, you don't have to compete with that. You're different. We're different and I love us just the way we are. I wouldn't give this up for anything or anyone. I will always appreciate Gabby, she was a big part of my life. But that in no way means I would leave you to be with her. Don't ever think like that. Truth is, I have never felt this way with anyone else but you. Not Gabby, not any other woman. You brought me back to life. I love you, Y/N. Don't ever say you wanna breakup again, I can't take it." Matt said, in a serious tone.

"I think I'm head over heels for you Captain." You said.

"You think?!" He said, sarcastically. Then he pulled you into him again. You could hear his heart beat and that was your favorite sound.

[aspyintheclouds]

Hey, I meant kind of a continuation of 'to move forward' where everything is good between the two of them but then gabby comes to visit the firehouse and the reader maybe feels insecure cause she's afraid that Matt would want to get back with gabby so there is some tension between reader and matt but they sort it out. Sorry for being so confusing in my first ask 😅

No, I'm sorry lol. I'm new to this whole thing so I didn't realize there was more in your ask. I got the idea and I'll try to write it as soon as possible. 💙

[aspyintheclouds]

"Fear."

Jay Halstead x reader

Words: 1157

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You were sitting in a restaurant for the past hour or so, waiting for your boyfriend to show up. You felt awkward and uncomfortable sitting there alone so you decided it was time to leave. Especially since this wasn't the first time that he stood you up.

As you were walking to get to your car, you heard Jay call out your name. You were so angry with him so you didn't even turn around and kept on walking. He started running to get to you.

"Y/N come on! Wait up. I'm so sor-" Jay said.

"I don't wanna hear it." You interrupted.

"We were working on a case, I couldn't just leave." He said trying to defend himself.

"This is the third time this month that you do this to me! Couldn't have at least texted me earlier?? I was there waiting for you like an idiot for almost two hours." You said angrily.

"I'm so sorry babe. You're right, I should have texted but I was really busy. It didn't cross my mind." He said, regret in his voice.

"A lot of things don't cross your mind anymore ever since Erin got back." You said, trying not to tear up. You started walking away. Jay following you.

"What the hell is that supposed to mean?" He said, defensively.

"You know exactly what it means." You said, while getting into the car and driving away.

You didn't wanna go home cuz you knew you'll probably fight with Jay. You drove around with the worst thoughts crossing your mind. Like if Jay was gonna leave you to be with Erin now that she's back. You started wondering what they were doing at work, what if Jay was cheating? Your head was about to explode from overthinking. It was around 1:30 AM, you got home and all you wanted to do was sleep. Jay was sitting on the couch, waiting for you to come home. When he saw you walk in, he got up and walked towards you.

"Can we at least talk about it?" He said, sounding concerned.

"Not tonight." You whispered while giving him a kiss on the cheek "Goodnight." He nodded as you went to the bedroom to sleep.

The next morning you woke up to an empty bed. It was the weekend so Jay was supposed to be home. You thought maybe he's gone to see Will, so you didn't give it much thought.

You were watching some videos on your phone when Jay walked in and gave you a quick kiss on the cheek.

"Goodmorning babe." He said softly.

"Morning." You replied.

"I was out with the gang. We had agreed to have breakfast together today." He said, pouring a glass of water.

"Was Erin there?" You said while still looking at your phone.

"Uhh.. yea." Jay said.

You turned your phone off and turned to Jay and said "I can't believe you." You two looked at each other for a moment and then you continued "You spent the morning with her?!"

"I said I was out with the gang. We were not alone. So you don't have to turn this into a big deal." He said, nonchalantly.

You paused for a second and said "So you think I'm making a big deal out of nothing?"

"I think you're being unreasonable." Jay said.

"Ever since Erin got back and you've been making less and less time for me. You keep telling me that you have so much to do.. but you always had a lot to do and yet you always made time for me." You said, voice breaking "you'd rather hang out with her. You have any idea how much that hurts me? The awful things that cross my mind when you act this way?" You couldn't hold in your tears any longer.

Jay moved in closer to hug you. You tried to get away from his arms but he pulled you in tightly and you broke down crying. You had held in so many emotions, fears and doubts for the past month and you just couldn't do it anymore. You just sat in Jay's arms, with him trying to calm you down. When suddenly, his phone rang. It was Will telling him to go together and see their father.

"Are you gonna be okay?" Jay asked.

"Yea.. I'll be fine. You should go." You said, avoiding eye contact.

"We're gonna talk when I get back, okay?" He said, putting on his coat "Just remember..." he softly touched your chin to make you look him in the eyes "I love you."

You tried to distract yourself by cleaning up around the house. You were going through your old stuff, when you came across some pictures of you and Jay from your first date three years ago. And a couple of movie tickets. You started remembering everything you and Jay went through together and all the fun you had. You always thought that there was no way Jay was gonna be with you if Erin hadn't left. And now that she was back you were so scared of losing Jay, jealousy had made you blind.

You took a bath to relax and by the time you got out Jay was already home.

"Hey! How's your dad?" You asked.

"He's doing well. He says hi." Jay said.

"Glad he's doing well. I'll go visit him soon." You said, smiling softly.

"I know he'd be really happy to see you." He said, giving you a kiss on your forehead.

You looked at each other silently for a moment and that's when you said "I'm so scared of losing you. And the mere thought of you leaving me makes me go insane..."

"You have nothing to worry about. You're right, I haven't been spending much time with you but I can assure you that it has nothing to do with Erin. I have a lot of important cases that I'm working on, that's all. I'm sorry I made you feel this way. Seeing you cry today broke me into a million little pieces. And knowing that I caused it made it even worse. I need you to understand that I love you and only you. No one is gonna change that. You have been my rock, my bestfriend and the love of my life and that is not going to change for any reason. Maybe we could forget this whole thing and I take you out tonight, how about that?" He said.

"I think I'd like that." You responded, putting your arms around his neck and tiptoeing to kiss him.

You had a great night, it felt like the old days. You realized that it was all in your head and that you need to trust Jay more and trust his love for you. Every time you looked into his eyes, you felt safe, you felt like you were home. Exactly where you needed to be.

[aspyintheclouds]

"Isn't that what friends are for?"

Jay Halstead x reader

Words: 1138

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You were sitting next to Jay at Molly's waiting for the rest of the team when you heard someone calling your name. You turned around and it was none other than Daniel Lawson, the guy who left for New York and broke your heart a few years back. You felt your heart racing.

"Danny! What are you doing here?!" You said surprised.

"Hey you! I got back a couple of days ago for my cousin's wedding. Wow look at you! You look amazing." He said.

"Oh that's great. So do you!" You paused for a second then remembered that Jay was there "Uhh.. This is Jay, we work together..." you moved closer to Jay and held onto his arm and said "he's my boyfriend."

Jay almost chocked on his beer when he heard that sentence.

"Babe, this is Danny Lawson. We used to date." You said giving Jay a look hoping he would move along with your lie.

"Uhh.. hi. Nice to meet you Danny." Jay said.

"Nice to meet you too. You're one lucky guy." Said Danny smiling softly.

"I sure am!" Said Jay while holding you by the waist and pulling you closer to him.

"It was really nice running into you Y/N. My friend is here so I have to go but I'd love to catch up some other time if you like of course." Said Danny.

"It was nice seeing you too and yea maybe we could catch up some time." You said.

"See you later guys." Said Danny while walking away to sit with his friend.

"See ya!" Both you and Jay said.

"What was that all about??" Jay asked confused when the rest of the intelligence walked in.

"Can we talk about it later? Don't you dare tell anyone!" You said.

"Oookay..." said Jay more confused than ever.

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You and Jay were partners and friends and you two were always there for each other. Over the years Jay had developed feelings for you but he never acted upon them because he didn't wanna jeopardize your friendship and he thought romance on the job is never a good idea. He watched you date other guys and it always bothered him because he knew he's the only one who can give you what you deserve.

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"Wanna talk about last night?" Asked Jay with a smirk.

"You're not gonna let this go, are you?" You said annoyance in your voice.

"Nope." Jay said looking at you with a goofy smile.

"Fine. We were in love and then he had leave to New York for his career and he said he's gonna be there for 6 months so we decided we'll do the long distance thing. 6 months passed and he he said he wasn't going to come back cuz he has had a huge opportunity there and that he was sorry so we broke up. But what he doesn't know is that I did a little investigating on my own and found out that he was seeing someone else there. I never told him I knew... I was really hurt. So last night when I met him again, I panicked and I wanted him to see that I found my happiness elsewhere. I'm sorry I dragged you into this..." you said, sadness in your voice.

"Hey, it's okay. Whenever you need a fake boyfriend just call me, isn't that what friends are for?" Jay said teasing you.

"Yea okay. I'll keep that in mind." You chuckled.

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Voight sent you and Jay to check out the security footage of the outsides of the hotel to see if it caught something in relation to the case you guys were working on.

As you were on your way out, you saw that Danny was there. You stood in front of Jay, grabbed his face and started kissing him. Jay was shocked but pleased nonetheless.

"What..." Jay said extremely confused.

"Danny's here. Just roll with it." You said smiling.

Jay felt upset but then again he agreed to this.

"Hey guys! We keep running into each other. What are you doing here?" Asked Danny.

"We're working on a case." Jay said pulling you in tightly, as if he's trying to tell Danny that you're his and only his.

"Yea we're done here and we have to go back to the district. Would have loved to chat but we have a lot to do." You said trying to make it short.

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It had been days since all that happened and all Jay could think about was that kiss you gave him and how it made him feel. He started thinking how it'd all be if he was actually your boyfriend, but then he told himself that it would never work and he needed to let it go.

Over the next few weeks Jay started becoming distant. You asked him a couple of times if everything was okay and he kept telling you that he's fine and everything was fine. You knew he was hiding something but you didn't wanna pressure him into telling you.

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You were making yourself a cup of coffee when Jay walked in for some coffee as well. He didn't say a word and you watched him as he acted like you weren't there. You couldn't be quiet any longer.

"Jay." You said.

He hummed avoiding eye contact.

"Wanna tell me what's really going on?" You asked "will you please look at me and tell me what's happening with you..."

"I already told you nothing is going on." He said still not making any eye contact.

"Did I do something wrong? Cuz if I did, I'm really sorry. Just know I didn't mean to." You said walking closer to him.

Jay looked at you and said "You didn't do anything Y/N... it's all me. It's my problem not yours."

"Let me help you. Isn't that what friends are for?" You said with genuine concern in your eyes.

The word "friends" triggered Jay in a way he never imagined anything would trigger him. You could see the hurt and anger in his eyes but you just didn't know why he was like that.

He pulled you in quickly, leaned over and started kissing you. You were shocked but you found yourself kissing him back. Both of you were out of breath so you pulled away.

"What are we doing?" You looked at Jay puzzled.

He came closer and looked you dead in the eyes and said "I can't be your friend anymore."

You realized everything that was going on. Most importantly, you realized that you too had feelings for Jay but you just didn't know. And this kiss you two just had was the wakeup call you needed.

You looked at Jay smiling and said "I don't want to be your friend either.".

[aspyintheclouds]

"To move forward" | 1

Matt Casey x reader

Words: 1680

Summary: After Gabby leaves Casey, he has to try and move on. That's when he meets you... a detective who works with the intelligence. Everything is going great until problems start to arise.

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The past six months had been really hard on Casey. He had to deal with the divorce and he really missed Gabby but he couldn't do anything about it. He had gone on a few dates and none of them felt right. He was still in pain.

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You were a part of the intelligence unit. A brave, outgoing and intelligent detective. Your coworkers described you as "The soul of the unit" because of how bubbly and fun you were. You always put a smile on their faces.

You were good friends with Stella for quite some time now. One day you decided to stop by the firehouse to see Stella. You walked in and you saw Kelly sitting there with the rest of the squad.

"Hey Y/N! What are you doing here? Haven't seen you in a long time." He said walking towards you for a hug.

"I'd been really busy the past few weeks with a tough case and I had some free time, thought I'd stop by and say hi to my friends." You said with a warm smile.

"Where's my girl?" Said Y/N.

"Uhh I think she's in the kitchen. She'll be really happy to see you."

"Okay, I'll go see her. See you later Severide." You said walking away.

While you were on your way to the kitchen, you got a text so you were looking at your phone and trying to text back when you almost bumped into Casey as he was walking.

"Woah woah you need to be more careful detective." Said Matt with the cutest smile on his face.

"I'm so sorry lieutenant. You're right, I should be more careful." You said looking kinda embarrassed.

"It's okay. It's nice to see you here." He said.

"Thanks. I'm here to see Stella." You said. Suddenly, Stella showed up.

"Y/N! You finally made some time for me huh?" Said Stella.

"I'll leave you two to catch up. It was nice seeing you here detective." Said Matt.

"You too lieutenant." You said.

Casey was standing with Severide while looking at you from afar.

"You should ask her out." Said Severide.

"What? No. Already tried going on dates. It never works out." Said Matt with slight sadness in his voice.

"Come on! She's a great girl and I know she's perfect for you." Said Kelly.

"I don't know man..." Said Matt while observing you.

"Just think about it. You know I'm always right." Said Kelly.

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It was Stella's birthday so Kelly had asked you for help organizing a little party at Molly's. You agreed to help him without hesitation. When you got there, Sylvie, Otis, Joe and Matt were there. You greeted them all and began helping Kelly with whatever he needed. Matt couldn't stop staring at you the whole time.

It was a successful party and Stella was very happy with the whole thing.

When the party ended, you hugged Stella and Kelly goodbye and you were about to head out when Matt stopped you.

"Hey, you're going home?" He asked.

"Yea, it's been a long day. I think it's time to go home." You said getting slightly shy because of the strange way he was looking at you. You knew he had something to say.

"How about I walk you to your car?" He said sounding a little nervous.

"Sure, I'd love that!" You said excitedly trying to make him less nervous.

You were standing next to your car when Matt got a little closer.

"I've been thinking... would like to get a cup of coffee or a drink some time? Get to know each other a little better." He said with a hopeful look in his eyes.

You felt your heart flutter the moment he asked you out. It was finally happening. You always had a little crush on Casey but you never acted upon it because he was with Gabby. But now you could actually be with him.

"Like a date?" You said sounding a little surprised.

"No, not like a date. A real date. How does tomorrow at around 4 sounds?" He said with a slight smile.

"Um, yea.. sounds like a plan." You said blushing.

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Your first date went really great. After that you went on several other dates and hung out whenever you two could. You made each other extremely happy. Matt had changed so much since you walked into his life. Everyone noticed how happy he has become.

"I don't think I remember the last time I've seen you this happy. Y/N has made quite the influence on you." Said Severide teasingly.

"Yea, she's really something isn't she?" He said with a large smile.

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You were sitting at home after a long day when you heard the door open. It was Matt.

"Babe, I'm home!" He announced.

You got up to greet him and that's when you saw him holding a bouquet of your favorite flowers and cupcakes from your favorite bakery. Your whole face lit up.

"Aren't you the best boyfriend on the planet?!" You said taking the flowers and cupcakes from him and moving in for a hug.

"I sure am! And my girl deserves the best." He said leaning to kiss you passionately.

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It had been 7 months since you and Matt started dating and that's when the problems started. You started to see less of him, almost as if he was avoiding you.

You asked Stella if anything was going on at work that made Matt act so distant but she said that it was just the stress of the job and nothing else. But she knew good and well that something else was going on. She just didn't wanna be the one to tell you.

Every time you tried discussing what was going on, Matt would find an excuse to end the conversation. And that's when you got really worried.

"Matt, we need to talk." You said in a demanding tone.

"About what?" He said already feeling what the conversation would be about.

"I just wanna know why you've been so distant lately. What is going on? I need to know." You said with a concerned look.

"Nothing is going on. I've just been busy with work and when I'm done with work I'm too tired for anything that's all." He said.

"It was always like that but you made the time for me... for us." You said with your voice almost breaking "You miss her don't you? You miss Gabby."

He looked at you kinda shocked "What?! You don't know what you're talking about!" He said getting slightly angry.

"That's it, isn't it? Well, I'm sorry I'm not her. But at least have the decency to admit it! Even though she's not here physically, she's still here! You're allowing her ghost to come between us!!" You said.

"Enough!" He shouted.

"No! I need this!" You said.

"You want the truth huh? Yes, I still love her. And yes I miss her every single day. She has left me broken and it's not something I could just forget! I can't do it. She was my wife, I thought we'd grow old together. And everything just turned to dust. I didn't wanna hurt you telling you all this and I realize it's not fair to you but I just don't know what to do Y/N... I really don't. I'm sorry." He said with sadness in his voice.

"I need to go." You said looking away.

"I don't want you to go..." he said sounding hurt.

"I think it's best if we take some time apart." You said with tears in your eyes.

"Y/N..."

Matt watched you leave and he knew he couldn't do anything to stop you. He had no right to stop you.

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You were deeply hurt by everything that happened and the last thing you wanted was to run into Matt. So you started avoiding all the places he might be in. You even started hanging out less with Stella and Kelly.

It had been almost 2 months since you and Matt had stopped seeing each other. He tried talking to you several times and he texted you but you never gave him a chance.

Matt was sad about the whole thing as well. Even though he still loved Gabby, he knew he loved you too. But this breakup made him realize how much he actually loves you and how much he wanted you by his side. So he decided to win you back at all costs.

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As you were leaving work one day, you saw Matt standing next to your car. While holding a box of your favorite cupcakes that he knows you cannot resist. Your started racing as you walked towards him.

"Matt... we-" you said but he wouldn't let you finish.

"Would you please let me talk?" He said.

You nodded while looking shocked.

"I know I have a long way to go. I know that, believe me I do. And I know that I won't just forget Gabby, she was my wife after all and I had so many plans for us in our head. That's how I feel and I can't just control it. But I also know that I love you Y/N! You walked into my life and things were never the same. You helped love life again. You helped me see how there's life after loss. All this time that we've been away has only made me realize how much I need you. My story with Gabby ended the day she walked out on me. You're my now and hopefully forever. I promise I'll do my best to make this work. I just need one chance. Just one." He looked at you eager for a response.

"I can do that." You said after a long pause.

Matt felt like the happiest guy on earth in that moment. He came in closer and grabbed your waist. He looked you in the eye and said "I won't let you down." You locked lips and started kissing like no one was around.