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#𝙰𝚂𝚂𝙴𝚃𝙵𝙲𝚁𝙶𝙴𝙳  -  a mutually exclusive && friends only james buchanan barnes ( aka the winter soldier ) based in mcu canon.  he is not only heavily canon divergent but comics are used to help fill plot holes as i see fit.  written by luca ( 30+ she/they ).  currently plot only && slow activity.  18+ due to mature themes & explorations in violence.  using beta editor & xkit rewritten.      currently iconless.   formerly forgcdasset / quanteum / hadesfought.

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#𝙰𝙵𝙵𝙸𝙻𝙸𝙰𝚃𝙴𝙳 - steve .

                                         also at:   @wolfisheart​

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@brittlefcrged said, " your mind is not your own. "

this, whatever this could be defined as, was still very new for him. bucky had stood to pour himself a cup of coffee while his mind wandered to the black leather glove covering his metal hand. this was still so new that the former soldier was still covering that which branded him as the winter soldier even after his name started to fall off the radar.

" yeah, " he cleared his throat. a ripple in the black liquid drags his attention away from his hand and down into the depths. a memory flashed. briefly, his chest tightens as if bracing to hear the words that would activate him. shuri made sure that couldn't happen anymore. yet, the fear still gripped him in the middle of the night; tormenting him with the threat of when his body would no longer be his own.

just like his mind.

" i mean... " thoughts are shaken away. every muscle between his shoulders tighten as he turns back around, as if bracing for a physical blow. " it's kinda complicated. as far as i know it should all be me up there. now, anyway. " giant gaps in memory reminded him otherwise. nightmares of another time brought forth faces bucky didn't recognize while rivers of blood flowed between his feet.

[lostwhump]

@whumptober | Day #26: "Nightmares" The Falcon and the Winter Soldier (1.01)

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PART ONE || feel free to change any pronouns, etc. || may contain some nsfw!

As long as we’re together, the rest can go to hell

I absolutely love you

Your lights are on, but you’re not home

Your mind is not your own

Another kiss is all it takes

Wish I didn’t know now what I didn’t know then

I’ve nothing left to offer you

If this isn’t love we’re making then I don’t know what it is.

I’m gonna love you for the rest of my life

You’ll be disappointed and I’ll lose a friend

Now that you’re gone I still want you back

This Romeo is bleeding but you can’t see his blood

Maybe everything that dies someday comes back

Was our love too strong to die, or were we just too weak to kill it?

I go from sadness to exhilaration, like a robot at your command

Look what you’re doing to me, I’m utterly at your whim

I guess you couldn’t face the heavy responsibility of looking at my face

I woke up this morning and I knew I was losing you

All I wanted to do was play my guitar and sing

I’m telling you: just watch your mouth

I know your game - what you’re about

Your talk is cheap, you’re not a man

So what the hell gives you the right to look at me as if to say “Hell, what went wrong?”

I need a respirator cause I’m runnin’ out of breath

Cause nothing is stronger than boys and their eyes

Its worse when you know he’s a liar

The look in your eye was a little too far away

Life is what happens to you while you’re making other plans

I may be just an ordinary man, but at least I’m someone to lean on

She’ll tease you, she’ll unease you

She’s precocious, and she knows just what it takes to make a pro blush

Big talk is, just talk unless you’re backing it up

Don’t know where I’m goin’, only I know where I’ve been

I want to love but it comes out wrong

People should have the power of love, not the love of power

A little voice inside my head said, “don’t look back, you can never look back.”

I thought I knew what love was, what did I know?

Those days are gone forever, I should just let ‘em go

Watch out, you might get what you’re after

I am an ordinary guy

Unlike the others, I’d do anything

I’m never gonna dance again

I’ll only watch you leave me further behind

You complete a part of me

Our love is all we need

I’ve waited hours for this

I’ve made myself so sick

I wish I stayed asleep today

Come to me when you’re lonely

I’ve got something just for you

Some people say I’m obnoxious and lazy

I know I’m a real good dancer

Do you believe in love?

Don’t know what you got till it’s gone

He just smiled and gave me a vegemite sandwich

Do you feel my heart beating?

I dream at night I can only see your face

I look around and it’s you I can’t replace

I feel so cold and alone for your embrace

The wound heals, but that scar remains

I hear you found somebody new, and that I never meant that much to you

So you think you got it all figured out?

Just can’t stand up without falling apart

What do you consider fun?

There’s more inside you that you won’t show

You’re scared to show you care

There’s more inside you that you haven’t shown

Girls just wanna have fun

Some boys take a beautiful girl and hide her away from the rest of the world

I wanted to be with you alone

I’m lost in admiration, could I need you this much?

Oh you’re wasting my time

Too many people can’t express what’s on their minds

I was afraid before, but I’m not afraid anymore

Like a drifter I was born to walk alone

Hit me with your best shot!

Did you think that it’s just a game?

I probably didn’t even say that right

You can meet somebody who really loves you

I’m hungry like the wolf

I guess this is my last goodbye

You must realize, my obsessive fascination is in your imagination

When I’m with you baby I go out of my head

Oh I, I just died in your arms tonight

It must have been something you said

I should’ve walked away

It makes you wonder about the things they say

They talk behind your back and to your face they’re really sweet

Well I’m better alone than in company

I’d live for your smile and die for your kiss.

I think it’s the greatest thing I’ll ever see

I still haven’t found what I’m looking for

I think we’re alone now

Doesn’t seem to be anyone around

I don’t know if I can face it again

Can’t stop now, I’ve traveled so far

I’ll be loving you forever

I guess this time you’re really leaving

I can’t measure my love, there’s nothing to compare it to.

You’re about as easy as a nuclear war

[spidermon]

[theavengers]

Behind the scenes of Captain America: The First Avenger

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Tony had teased her, when he realized just how deep her feelings for James Barnes were. Not in a cruel way, Tony was never cruel with her, not once since she had shown up on his doorstep not long after Ultron and Sakovia and begged him to teach her how to save the world instead of breaking it. He had teased her the way big brothers did about your crushes and stumbling through those first parts of relationships. 

And then promptly fucked off to take a late honeymoon with his husband.

When you’re both super soldiers with massive amounts of trauma from being brainwashed in one form or another and used as an assassin for HYDRA stumbling through all those awkward firsts and seconds and thirds of a relationship can be a minefield. They’d worked through them, taken one cautious step after another until they found something like this where it took time, fits and starts. Sharing their space full time was a different kind of intimacy, a kind Kelly was acutely unfamiliar with. She had been used to having no space of her own within the confines of the barracks where she and the other children raised in the War Gods program spent so much of their time. When she had escaped, being a mercenary and then an arms dealer afforded her privacy but she never had enough trust or friendship that she could share space with another person. Becoming a hero had given her friends and family, a way to breathe easier when there were six people in the kitchen all trying to cook at the same time. Soothed down the instinct to lift her hands when she found someone else in the gym at 2 am. Still this particular cliff was one she only wanted to jump off of with Jamie.   

Kelly holds up a piece of paper, the scrawl written over it only legible after the years of knowing the Iron Man. She notices the way James seems to pause over not being sure where to order from and decides to roll right past it. They have their various quirks. “One half of the superhusbands left a list of places to order from, apparently they’re all great and we’re contractually obligated to try” she pauses, squinting at the note on the top again “I think this says Mexican-Korean fusion.” The super soldier rolls her eyes and drops the list back onto the stone of the counter top. Kelly picks up the menu for the pizza place along with two bottles of beer, handing both the menu and one of the bottles to her boyfriend. “So at least one pepperoni, I want a bacon pizza to smother in maple syrup and then I was thinking maybe half of the sides section of the place on this list. And maybe if you’re lucky, I will share the ice cream I hid in your freezer when I got here” she teases, leaning over to place a kiss on his cheek. 

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      no matter what his heart said getting used to this had taken a lot out of him.  a lot of nightmares.  a lot of looking himself in the mirror.  bucky even had to learn it was okay not to sleep on the floor even though he still hated the mattress.  it was too soft.  he felt like he was goin to fall to the center of the earth every time he sat on the edge.  worst of all, the cloud feeling made him anxious he wouldn’t be able to react in time in case danger came blazing through the door.  or, well, the window.  he’d shot fury through a window so, that was definitely a possibility.

     when a mattress was finally in the picture, however, the soldier couldn’t help but set it up near the wall facing the inside and not right under the picturesque window like a normal person would’ve done.  actually, putting it in the living room made the most sense considering every memory he had but that was also the furthest thing from attempting a new civilian life with kelly.  with all that in mind the mattress stayed in the bedroom in the strangest angle he could manage considering the door.

     bucky learned the silence was what bothered him the most.  not knowing where kelly was triggered something in him, at least in the beginning.  his shoulders would stay tense as if he was worried someone was going to sneak up on him.  he wasn’t.  logically, he knew kelly wasn’t going to do anything to hurt him but there was nothing logical about all the things that went through his head.  seeing her head on - anyone, really - made it easier to accept the company.  but, he was learning.  slowly.

     “ what? “ his head shot up from one of the newer sci-fi novels steve left behind.  mostly just a stack of things he’d read to catch up on life when he first came out of the ice.  frank herbert’s dune was sitting in his lap.  the spice was fascinating.  more than that, all the descriptions of the body suits and how the technology developed to survive on such an extreme weather planet has his mind reeling.  “ does that mean they plop bulgogi into a tortilla?  actually… “  both his head and his eyebrow lifted at the idea.

     setting aside the book, the soldier stands to join his girlfriend at the counter.  cold beer comes up to his lips much more easily than it did when they were at the sushi place down the street.  in the sanctity of their own walls bucky didn’t have to be self conscious of the metal arm that labeled him, without so many words, as a criminal.

     “ there’s a place in vegas steve took me to a little while ago.  they make sushi burritos. except, there’s no tortilla.  it’s basically a giant sushi roll. “  the memory makes him smile.  even in such a busy city people had been respectful enough to give steve his space.  either that or there were so many celebrity look-a-likes that no one gave them a second look.

     it’s not until kelly leans in for a kiss on the cheek that he realizes just how normal the conversation is.  at one point he honestly didn’t think that was in the stars for him.  not after everything he’d been through.

     “  if it’s cherry and you don’t share,  i’m going to be really sad. “

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kelly @reaperdaughter sent, [ HAIR ]:     while in the process of checking Kell for injuries or other signs of harm, Bucky gently brushes several strands of hair from her eyes.

there had been dreams while he was brainwashed. dreams he didn't understand. the only reason bucky knew that was because the longer he spent away from his handler and everything both hydra and the kgb put in his head the more came back to bite him in the ass. all the kills. all the missions. all the faces he used to help train back in the red room. sometimes they layered over one another in a weird kaleidoscope.

but, not steve.

and, not kelly.

although, her name had been much harder to remember than her voice. the soldier admits now, beneath the bright fluorescent lights, that he hadn't remembered her name until he pulled steve from the potomac. yet, he'd remembered the way she spoke her name and he remembered holding her in his arms in a crowded pub full of uniforms. worst of all, he remembered the way his heart skipped not one but two beats whenever that smile shined in his direction.

some deep part of him had always remembered the love.

flesh fingers graze over the high arch of her cheekbone. memories layer over real life with striking clarity. bucky allows himself to be proud for how well he'd held on to her image.

looking down, he notes with a small smirk that the name tag says barnes. had they been married? steve hadn't mentioned it, nor did he rememeber.

" you kept me alive, " bucky's voice is still gruff from lack of use. metal fingers come up, moving stray strands away from her face because he didn't want to lose the feel of her skin by using the other one. " you have no idea what i'm talking about but thank you, anyway. "

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Oh hi. Just posting more BuckyNat like nothing noteworthy happened this week.

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tony @olympianfate asked, " hey, how badly are you hurt? can you move? you think you can walk? “

there was so much going on that bucky was walking a dangerous line with his nightmares. barely been fighting a few minutes ( hours? ) and all the memories of his hydra days had him by the throat. the only thing keeping him together was the fact that most of the things he was facing had six arms. legs? appendages?

they didn't look human.

but, they moved fast as hell. after setting the small raccoon creature down and dodging yet another question about his arm, the soldier had been tackled to the ground. hot breath and dripping teeth has his neck straining for fresh air. as he fought, one of those appendages pinned down his own metal arm. there was a creak and then a crack. bucky wasn't sure if it was metal or bone.

there wasn't enough space for his rifle between them so he twisted his thigh just enough to reach for one of the many knives strapped to his body. the first strike went to the neck, where a human artery would be. no idea if the thing had the same anatomy but all his training was taking over. emotions slowly pushed to the side. he started slipping down into the dark place he went when everything got to be too much.

several more stabs eventually guaranteed his freedom. in it's pain, though, the thing swatted at his body and flung him across the battlefield.

" uh, " there were two suits in front of him. maybe three. hard to tell with them layering on top of one another. yet, the question instantly snaps bucky back to those days with his father. " yeah. " he was always okay. as far as everyone was concerned, especially steve, james barnes was always okay. nothing crossed his face except what was intended to be mild irritation. " thing's breath smells like week old leftovers but i'm fine. go check on steve. "

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various starters

❛  you’re a weapon and weapons don’t weep.  ❜

❛  hurt me once, I’ll kill you twice.  ❜

❛  never trust a survivor until you learn what they did to stay alive.  ❜

❛  death is the only god that comes when you call.  ❜

❛  I am teeth. I am royal. you are nothing to me.  ❜

❛  the sun will rise and we will try again.  ❜

❛  we’re just kids. we aren’t supposed to be heroes.  ❜

❛  I like my women like I like my Absinthe: bitter and intoxicating.  ❜

❛  what doesn’t kill me better run.  ❜

❛  she wasn’t looking for a knight. she was looking for a sword.  ❜

❛  don’t dehumanize bad people, because it’s their humanity which makes what they’ve done so terrifying.  ❜

❛  she isn’t just pretty. she is otherworldly and vaguely threatening.  ❜

❛  magic is not good or evil. is a knife evil? only if the wielder is.  ❜

❛  I don’t want your crown. see, I’ve come to burn your kingdom down.  ❜

❛  they broke my wings. they forgot I have claws.  ❜

❛  all that blood was never beautiful, it was just red.  ❜

❛  what do you do when there’s no hero in the story? simple. you kill the monster and crown yourself.  ❜

❛  how terrible it is, to love something that death can touch.  ❜

❛  you may not be interested in war, but it is interested in you.  ❜

❛  I feel divinity in my bones like aching. like fire.  ❜

❛  you make me feel and I don’t like it. I want it to stop. now.  ❜

❛  you are losing my interest and that is very dangerous.  ❜

❛  she will burn your kingdoms down, herself with it, if it means your ruin.  ❜

❛  it’s okay to be scared. it means your about to do something brave.  ❜

❛  she looks like divine absolution.  ❜

❛  I will not be another flower, picked for my beauty and left to die. I will be wild, difficult to find and impossible to forget.  ❜

❛  be careful with words. they can be forgive, but never forgotten.  ❜

❛  you not wanting me was the beginning of me wanting myself.  ❜

❛  I’m tired of fighting. for once, I want to be fought for.  ❜

❛  never run back to what broke you.  ❜

❛  I was quite, but not blind.  ❜

❛  your gut knows what’s up. trust that bitch.  ❜

❛  we all eat lies when our hearts are hungry.  ❜

❛  do not judge my story by the chapter you walked in on.  ❜

❛  I’m just a girl, standing in front of a salad, wishing it was a donut.  ❜

❛  you can miss something but not want it back.  ❜

❛  you can’t save people, you can only love them.  ❜

❛  I came, I saw, I made it awkward.  ❜

❛  we buy shite we don’t need, with money we don’t have, to impress people we don’t like.  ❜

❛  you’re always one decision away from a different life.  ❜

❛  my brain has too many tabs open.  ❜

❛  I’m not saying I hate you, just that you’re like the Monday of people.  ❜

❛  there’s no ‘we’ in fries.  ❜

❛  apology accepted, trust denied.  ❜

❛  death and I have been scandalously intimate for some time now.  ❜

❛  life happens. coffee helps.  ❜

❛  I am mine before I am ever anyone else’s.  ❜

❛  I rely a bit too heavily on alcohol and irony.  ❜

❛  very early in my life it was already too late.  ❜

❛  is that a threat or are you flirting with me.  ❜

❛  was the use of force necessary in completing your objectives?  ❜

❛  I’ll let you drag me to hell if it means you’ll hold my hand.  ❜

❛  I do bad things, and I do them very well.  ❜

❛  you drink too much, you cuss too much and you have questionable morals. you’re everything I ever wanted.  ❜

❛  they will kill you, but first they will have to catch you.  ❜

❛  drugs might kill you but they’ll never break your heart.  ❜

❛  good girls are just bad girls that haven’t been caught.  ❜

❛  a pretty face doesn’t guarantee a pretty heart.  ❜

❛  no airbag, we die like men.  ❜

❛  true evil is, above all, seductive.  ❜

❛  it takes more courage to suffer than to die.  ❜

❛  you must be lucky to avoid the wolf every time. but the wolf? he only needs enough luck to catch you once.  ❜

❛  justice is vengeance in prettier packaging.  ❜

[forgcdasseta]

SUBJECT: super soldier serum

          bucky’s experience with super serum differs greatly from that of steve’s.  while their outcomes are similar the road bucky had to travel was much more bumpy.

          the first time he was abducted by hydra it was a first attempt at the recreation of the serum.  erskine’s research disappeared first when he left hydra’s ranks and again when he was assassinated.  what little information zola built from was from whoever assisted erskine.  there were a number of holes in the first formula.  several of bucky’s unit died shortly after receiving their injections.  bucky himself felt nauseated yet relatively the same.  it wasn’t until he was back with the commandos and with a sniper in his hands that he realized his eyesight seemed, for lack of better term, more focused.

          after falling off the train - and surviving - it became clear to zola that they were on the right track with their creation.  the formula was tweaked again and again.  bucky was then tested in various ways in order to gather information on what was happening to his body.  little by little barnes was becoming more pliable, until he eventually became the first winter soldier.  even when he tries to think back on it he can’t remember how long it took to get to that point.  bucky also doesn’t remember how many versions of the serum he was injected with until it was considered perfect enough to bring more soldiers into the fold.  the second wave of winter soldiers were faster, stronger, and more capable in almost every way.  with their bodies perfected there was no longer any need to test on bucky, at least not with serum.  he was still tested to gauge the skills of the newer winter soldiers.