(cw death)
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things moved quick this week, as it goes in aries season. I’ve been existing in the liminality of a salient time, grounded in certainty, but unsure of the movements. took a lot of time yesterday to close my eyes and tap in, feeling the movement of energy the way sand does under you feet in ocean waves.
for the first time in a long time, I let the sun slip behind the mountains but I did not turn on any lights. instead I lit candles at my altar and I sat before it in a long silence, arranging stones in a circle around a cactus symbol and a snakeskin I found in the woods a few months back. I thought about my grandpa for a long while and I waved burning sweetgrass with slow intention — something I reserve for special occasions only. I find out first thing this morning that he passed away in a hospital in El Paso around that same time.
Ive looked back on this blog quietly this week in this large liminality and realize it’s become a weight, an anxiety. I feel withered here. the growth I can recognize in posts over the years is something I will cherish forever but it’s time to walk into a new space.
